“we can fix this, it doesn’t have to end like this” I said trying to fix what has been breaking for a year, but he wasn’t so willing to fix it like me. He just looked at me annoyed “just leave me alone” he said very loudly, I could almost feel the hatred radiating off him “why don’t you want to fix this? just answer that question, please! what did I do?“ I said as calmly as I could, but all I wanted to do was cry and just like that I saw his patience snap "Go annoy someone else! don’t you understand? I don’t love you anymore! I haven’t loved you in months but I felt so sorry for you that I stayed! what a fuck up that turn out to be. So get this, I don’t want to talk to you and I don’t want to see your face. I don’t want to keep dealing with how fucking annoying you are, you just give me a headache! so do me a favour and fucking leave! don’t care how you leave but I want you gone.” he yelled out, I took a few steps backwards, his words stabbing into my mind and skin. I stumble and fall onto the floor, he looked at me shocked but I couldn’t react at all, I could still hear his worlds replaying in my head, echoing around me as if they were a tornado and I was in the middle of it stuck. He took a step forward as if to help me but stopped himself, I just sat there my hand covering my mouth, I felt like I was choking. “I..I’m sorr-” I looked up at him with dull, broken eyes “you didn’t have to be so-so cruel…” after a couple of minutes I decided I needed to leave, I stood up, wrapping my arms around myself and slowly walked out the ignoring everything he was saying. He wanted me to leave, so I did.
p.s.w // excerpt from a book i’ll never write #137 (via poems-she-wrote)
