[dying-dimples]

Things I Always Seem to Apologize For — I'm sorry that I don't fit into your ideals of beautiful. I'm sorry that for some reason the color of my skin already dictates my behavior and my past without a single word. I'm sorry that being black somehow means it's impossible for me to have mental issues because I'm too “ghetto”, that when I know I need help I can't get it because no one will believe that I'm actually serious. I'm sorry that I'm always so damn scared to leave my house because I'm afraid to be assaulted or worse. I'm sorry I can't order food normally, that the tightening in my throat when asked what I want doesn't release me from its hold and it takes all I have to keep the tears at bay. I'm sorry that I wasn't good enough for you, that a simple black girl like me, who even dared to think she had a chance with someone outside of her race, attempted to do so with you. I'm sorry that sometimes I worry you, because I wake up at 6AM after only falling asleep (maybe) at 2AM and I feel my stomach turning, hungry for food, but I let it go, I deny myself that request because ever goddamn time I look in the mirror I can only see the reflection of something horrible, something so insanely grotesque that I can't stand to look at it anymore. I'm sorry I can't be the perfect student anymore, that the crippling stress from trying to maintain high grades, a social life, extracurricular activities, and still come home to chores and errands and more homework has taken its toll on me. I'm sorry I'm not the straight daughter you wanted, that whenever you look at me you see an abomination, and I can't stop it. I'm sorry I wasn't the daughter you needed, because after over a decade of no phone call, no communication at all, maybe you start to realize that your father lost love for you. I'm sorry that I couldn't try hard enough, I did my best but I was always lacking, I was never perfect, my testosterone is higher than most and I always feel so fucking disgusting when someone comments on my body hair, it's not like I fucking want it. I'm sorry I wasn't strong enough to say no, back when I was 7 and he was 17 and he told me he wanted to play doctor and I didn't know the harm in that until he touched a place that I grew up to realize that I shouldn't have. And again when I was 8 and he was fucking 27 and I was trying to enjoy my summer but somehow I still got onto your radar and you decided that you needed to torment me, show me things I didn't want to see, touch me places I didn't want to be touched and know that I wouldn't say anything because I was scared and I'm still scared dammit. I can't bear to be alone around a grown man without feeling like a silly cow being sent to the slaughterhouse, that at any instant they'll turn around and do things I don't want to, and I'll be powerless then too. Lastly, I'm sorry that I let myself be used and abused so early, that I never nurtured my caterpillar life into one of a beautiful butterfly. But I'm trapped, trapped inside a decaying chrysalis while pretending that everything is alright.

late night memories (via dying-dimples)

[glowist]

who the fuck falls in love at 16 i have never felt this way about a person my love for you inhales me, sets fire to me, you are wading in my crimson blood and you taste so so sweet (honey, syrup, sometimes strawberries) on my tongue, i learn eight hours worth of goddamn high school classes each day and yet all i can be utterly and wholly sure of is that my love for you is more certain than the rising of the sun every morning, than death; i love you with the rounded teeth in my gums, the ringed tubes that lace my mouth to my stomach and lungs, i love you with the freckles on my arms, knees, shoulders, and with the papery darkness that my eyelids slide into place, i would die for you, with you, because of you, i love you, forever and with all of these ridiculous 16 (four squared, the square root of two hundred and fifty six) years i love you

j.s.j (via glowist)

[mikeywaves]

I went to the mall, and a little girl called me a terrorist. 

My name is Ela.  I am seventeen years old.  I am not Muslim, but my friend told me about her friend being discriminated against for wearing a hijab.  So I decided to see the discrimination firsthand to get a better understanding of what Muslim women go through. 

My friend and I pinned scarves around our heads, and then we went to the mall.  Normally, vendors try to get us to buy things and ask us to sample a snack.  Clerks usually ask us if we need help, tell us about sales, and smile at us.  Not today.  People, including vendors, clerks, and other shoppers, wouldn’t look at us.  They didn’t talk to us.  They acted like we didn’t exist.  They didn’t want to be caught staring at us, so they didn’t look at all. 

And then, in one store, a girl (who looked about four years old) asked her mom if my friend and I were terrorists.  She wasn’t trying to be mean or anything.  I don’t even think she could have grasped the idea of prejudice.  However, her mother’s response is one I can never forgive or forget.  The mother hushed her child, glared at me, and then took her daughter by the hand and led her out of the store. 

All that because I put a scarf on my head.  Just like that, a mother taught her little girl that being Muslim was evil.  It didn’t matter that I was a nice person.  All that mattered was that I looked different.  That little girl may grow up and teach her children the same thing. 

This experiment gave me a huge wakeup call.  It lasted for only a few hours, so I can’t even begin to imagine how much prejudice Muslim girls go through every day.  It reminded me of something that many people know but rarely remember: the women in hijabs are people, just like all those women out there who aren’t Muslim. 

People of Tumblr, please help me spread this message.  Treat Muslims, Jews, Christians, Buddhists, Hindus, Pagans, Taoists, etc., exactly the way you want to be treated, regardless of what they’re wearing or not wearing, no exceptions.  Reblog this.  Tell your friends.  I don’t know that the world will ever totally wipe out prejudice, but we can try, one blog at a time.  

[funkycopsex-deactivated20130507]

coming up next on white people solve racism

[jejwjwjwehehehebehsjsbwhajdnr-d]

muslim women dont need your white saviour attitude, you might now finally realise what it’s like to be excluded from society because of a piece of garment but you’re never going to experience it in the way we do.

[krakenguts-deactivated20140908]

she literally worded this so well and so honestly and tried so hard not to be rude, she just tried to understand what you go through. she’s not trying to be a saviour, she’s trying to raise awareness. she never said she’d solve anything or experience it like you do. stop doing exactly what other people do to you and shut down someones ideas just because of their color or religion or anything. this is a valid and completely pure hearted thing. 

[pitchblackgo]

^

[kyuubijrr]

It’s funny how people act like white people are the biggest douchebags, and then act like total asshats themselves, huh?

She did this to get a GLIMPSE into the shit Muslim women are put through. She never claimed total understanding; in fact she said that she “can’t even begin to imagine how much prejudice Muslim girls go through every day.” She ADMITTED that she doesn’t know everything these women go through, and yet she’s STILL attacked? I cannot fathom why it’s deemed “okay” to be prejudiced against white people, even when we try to understand what it is people of other ethnicities/skin tones/nationalities/religions/etc go through. If you want, we can stop trying to understand and let everyone wallow in their self-pity.

[tryingtomakesenseofpeople]

Welcome to tumblr

[pridesite]

9 Things Only Ellen Could Get Away With

1. Delivering pizza at an awards show like it’s totally normal.

2. Getting a million celebrities together to take a selfie and break the Internet.

3. Getting The President to dance on national television.

4. She can get T-Swift to wear sweaters with her and watch cat videos.

5. She can dispense advice like no one else.

6. She is never afraid, even when Jennifer Aniston tries her hardest to scare her.

7. She can convince Britney to shimmy in front of random strangers’ houses.

8. She’s always going to be herself regardless of what people say. 

9. Her haters are her motivators.

[greyconflict]

If ellen is not your idol theres something wrong with you

[bookishamy]

i love ellen but i’m pretty sure anyone could get

taylorswift

to wear sweaters and watch cat videos

[shmadej-deactivated20180906]

so i have two little cousins one is 10 and the other is 7 and my aunt told them they could each say one cuss word and not get in trouble so the older one very politely says “damn” but the younger one stands up on the kitchen table, rips his shirt off and screams “FUUUUUUCCCKKKK” while dive bombing to the floor and my aunt just stood there and stared at him because she couldn’t get mad at him

[tom-sits-like-a-whore-deactivat]

as your girlfriend 

theres no pressure to wear pants in my presence

or any clothes at all really

but it’s up to you

u can be big spoon or little spoon

totally your choice

i’m always ready to make out

aLwaYs

also u don’t even have to buy me things just maybe an ice cream cone every once in a while that’s it 

i’ll let you lick it though

i mean the ice cream cone

well not just the ice cream cone

[weedntattoos-deactivated2015071]

my boyfriend tho✊🏼

[valerie-an]

do you ever want to gently float up to someone and whisper “this isn’t a debate; i am actually educated on the subject and i’m telling you you’re wrong”

[challahbee-deactivated20190831]

my life

[nasty-ma]

👀😚

[tinybabymouth-deactivated202108]

[theeeea]

#assgrab

[clickholeofficial]

[lovingofficial]

this sounded so nice until i read the italics

[comeupremy]

if i date you, my goal is to marry you, build with you, grow with you, i’m not dating you to pass time, i see potential in you

[northernpasty]

petition for him to be the leader of my people

[dying-dimples]

It’s the kind of sad that builds and builds until your chest aches and your eyes are burning from holding back the tears and you can barely breathe to form the words, “I’m fine.”

(it hurts and I just want it to stop) via dying-dimples

[dying-dimples]

I DIDNT KNOW YOU HAD TUMBLR now i can stalk you both on instagram and here ;)))))

Haha omg yay :)

[skywalkerchick1138]

"Those poor boys"

"She deserves to be punished too."

"I’m not saying I support rape, but-"

"Sorry to say - she deserved it."

"She put herself in harm’s way"

"But if she was fingered, then that’s not rape."

"She ruined their lives."

[super-secret-bi-spy]

"Well she didn’t exactly say ‘no’.."

"Yea, but did you see what she was wearing?"

"Boys will be boys!"

"She should know better than to drink at a party…"

[minimalistfish-blog]

Cannot not reblog.