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S recovered!! R and I have two play dates today. One at the dojo and the other at her place later. So far so good👍

It’s amazing how fun and fast the weekend is having a friend to hang with!

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Paid for the first month of the mommy&me class, which is technically only one session and I am LOVING this school already bc they advertise it as $30/session but! They only charge 28 and the rest is a cc fee that makes it go almost to $30. Like 29.98, and I’m like 😭👏🏻

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S is coming down with something and Of Course it’s the week my new friend, R, asked for hangouts this week bc her husband is going out of town for 3.5 days and leaving her with their two boys to look out for and no help/family/other friends around her😩😭

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I have my list for S’ third birthday:

-Mirror that I’ll make with acrylic mirror squares and some kind of backing so I can tape to the wall.

-New Plates (Daiso). I bought the cheap-y Target plates with dividers and they are just okay, I really want to make meals fun and exciting for her and I just feel like she needs and upgrade.

-A Bento Box (Also Daiso). This is mainly for her snacks so that she can practice using it for when she starts her school.

-New/Better Quality safety/learning scissors.

-Dress up stuff, skirts, hats, belt, button-y things, etc.

-Light for her play kitchen

-Calendar so we can’t start doing daily calendar time.

-small pot with lid (Daiso)

-perforator tool

I actually prefer to give her new things to play with when we can’t get outside for whatever reason, so I don’t think we’ll gift any toys but her grandparents will probably get her something. We did just get her the m&d ice cream shop bc it was 50% off and she was utterly obsessed and wouldn’t stop asking me to go the the library with the ice cream toy. It’s like a 22 min drive which isn’t crazy except K hates the car so a 22 min drive is something I avoid like the plague lol. Anyway, we got that and she plays with it every day multiple times a day. 10/10!!

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Is there a podcast or blog or something about how corporations add to the mental load?

Target over here being like: “Get $20 when you spend $100+ on baby goods!”

The goods: $19.99, $24.99, $4.99

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today was my grandpa’s birthday celebration. He flew in from out of state.

I got the girls in the car and attempted to go the 56 min drive down.

K did realllly good for about 10 mins and then she started whining, then crying. Pulled over, nursed, changed diaper, got back to it, immediate crying. Rinse and repeat twice more and I was still 47 mins out.

Got in the car at 9:17 and it was 10:28 when I called my mom telling her we were not going to show up as I was circling back to a nearby library, baby K hysterical in the back and all.

My mom was like “oh, she isn’t happy!”😂 I’m like, yeah, I’m not making up that a 56 min drive feels hella impossible given current circumstances.

But at least I made an effort.

Facetimed the family later and my grandpa didn’t even recognize me🫠

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Me: “I’m so glad I get to spend today with you(S) and K🥰”

S: “No, I don’t want mama, I only want papa.”

I responded that I agree bc it’s hard to be around myself, too, sometimes😂 but I’d be lying if I said that it didn’t sting a bit.

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S at 4:30AM: “Good morning, K!”

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I signed up S for a Mommy & Me program starting next month at a private Japanese school in the area.

I have a lot of feelings about it.

It’s 90 minutes a week for 9 months. It’s almost $30/session

not cheap

and I feel so out of place for signing up to a private school??

like who am i?!

But, compared to the “free” version,

the Japanese language mommy group that i found on fb.. was getting cliquey (like people straight up ignoring me🙄 looottsss of religious people which I’m fine with but they don’t usually like nonbelievers lol) and I’m wanting to create solid friendships at this point while also getting S exposed to school.

They are only letting 8 people/families sign up for this class and we were able to get in so I’m really excited.

The teacher in charge of the ESL portion is awesome. I had a chance to talk to her quite a bit last December during an open house they hosted. She is maybe 10 years old than me and it’s like talking to a 10year older version of myself but she is way more fun💛

This is also my top pick for a private school to send her. I had been dreaming of sending her to part-time preschool and we didn’t really have any Japanese options until this year. it’s a pretty renowned school with possibility to transfer to a really prestigious university after graduation👩🏻‍🎓

I’m excited to start off as like a “family outing” this year and then get her properly enrolled next year once she turns 4. I think that’s the perfect age for her to start school📝

As a homeschooled kid who had to school herself from 10/11yo onwards + pay her way through college & university, this is like a dream to give to my kids🥺🌙

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I realized after two years of my husband working weekend night shift.

I have not even one time considered Wednesday and Thursday a proper “weekend”

Because I’ve been packing the shit out of those two days trying to socialize, clean, prep, shop, family time.

And I just realized that when I think of Sat/Sun, what is it that I used to normally do?

yeah.

It’s nothing. The answer is “nothing.”

So I haven’t had a designated day to do nothing by me (cuz the Universe WILL designate those days for me if I don’t) since two whole years ago?!

I … I actually need to just fucking put those in my calendar now on Wed/Thurs so that I have the power to get through the next five days??!!.

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I remember being child-free and thinking:

“I am never bringing my kids to the store.”

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Had a big convo w/ hubs about invisible labor done this week.

I leaned in to shaming and judgement way more than I should have but he listened and was receptive.

I feel like the topic of invisible labor is so crazy to even dissect and talk about. Like yeah, thanks for cleaning the car unprompted, but I’m now pissed about the bag of items you brought in from the car that I now have to go through, but my brain is also like “okay, this is back in the house now” instead of “this is in the car, was placed here because of future or perceived need. Yes, it’s an eyesore. Yes, it is still on the floor in front of K’s seat.” So I had to go through everything, put it back into the wagon and now I have to do the task of both putting everything back into the car and re-telling my brain that it’s been put into the car for future or perceived need🙃

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Typical summer rant about Summer Heat & holiday decorations/corporate greed being available for sale too early under cut. Thank you for coming to my ted talk.

I would like to first say “Fuck you” to this Southern Summer Heat.

It’s hotter this year already and it’s not even July.

the coolest time of day rn is 6am and then it’s TOO HOT TO GO OUTSIDE BY 8??? What????

Last year it wasn’t even that bad in August. I could at least get some outside time before 10am. Not happening this year I guess!!

And another thing, why on this green earth are there Thanksgiving decorations RIGHT NEXT TO the July 4th Decorations???

IT’S.JUNE!!!!!!!!!

Literally not even July 4th and Christmas Decorations are already for sale for fucks sake, give it a break!!!

CEOs need to pick up a gd calendar for once and note that June! Happens to be FIVE WHOLE MONTHS from November. Five.

Six to Christmas.

take that shit down.

Take. It. Down. (says through clenched teeth)

I love Christmas as much as the next person but I’m so sick and tired of them moving the date up to put things on the shelf. I mean what’s the point in even taking it down if it’s up again! in Mid-June. I ask. Can we just chill out for a hot minute. Thnx

Halloween decorations are allowed to stay year round no questions asked.

…But I have yet to see them👀

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I thought K was better in the car seat than S was when she was a baby.

She is not.

I’m meant to drive to my parents’ house by myself with S and K in a couple weeks for my grandpa’s birthday (he and my brother+SIL are flying in from out of state). It’s an hour drive to their place. Via highway. total 50 miles🥲

A month ago I thought it was somewhat doable because K was at least somewhat okay in the car. But now? Absolutely not. She literally cries the second she is in the car seat until I pick her up at destination.

Last time I did that drive when S was a baby, I was but mere pieces by the time we got down to their house. And that was “with me sitting in the back with her”(my mom’s favorite suggested solution which never worked on S).

Feels like dejavu and the only thing that made it better was turning the car seat to forward facing.

RIP my nervous system & driving farther than 20mims for the next 21 months💀

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First time that S was bullied in a while and I almost lost it.

This boy (maybe 5 yo) was terrorizing his younger, baby brother this whole time we were there. Well finally they settled down to do a puzzle and S tried to give them a piece of the puzzle they were working on that fell on the floor. The boy took it and threw it on the ground and told her angrily that they didn’t need it. He also called her stupid.

S got visibly upset so I pulled her aside and she requested we retreat to a smaller room for toddlers.

As she was saying goodbye, the boy started mocking her with baby noises!! Because I guess when she was getting upset about the boy throwing the piece S couldn’t articulate what she wanted to say so it ended up sounding like gibberish.

The worst part is the boys mom or maybe nanny? who was literally an arms length away from all of this and WAS WATCHING didn’t fucking say or do anything.

I swear I almost lost my cool on the lot of them. Thankfully I was just focused on calming S down that I calmed myself down, too.

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In other news, S had an ever so slight illness this time. It was done and over in 24 hours👏🏻

My knee is also starting to feel better♪

We’re t-minus 8 days until parental leave is over and I’ll have to take over the apartment and both girls Thursday to Tuesday Afternoon. We’re as ready as we’ll be at this point.

Finally getting my point across that I need food in the freezer that I can pull out, microwave and have ready to eat in minutes. It has been a tug-of-war with a husband who puts fresh food as the utmost. I’m over here like, how about our my sanity?

We got back home yesterday after a full day out and he goes:

“This is a long day… It’s a lot.”

“It’s gonna be a typical day for me here soon.” I reply.

He pauses and adds: “Yeah, the last thing I want to do is get out a pan and cook anything. I don’t want to do the dishes. Phew.”

“Right?!”

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I think my type-A personality trait is actually my nemesis and the reason the universe keeps giving me B-types is to save me from myself.