whenever my friends do something without me or meet new people i always get unreasonably upset about it and all of a sudden i want to have this distance from them. i feel the need to go meet new people or dye my hair or get a new piercing - just do something without telling them so that when they find out i can basically put up this front that i have an interesting life outside of them. but in reality i really don’t and they’re all i have and that makes me feel so unbelievably pathetic and embarrassed at myself.





















