[academic-vampire]

𝔟𝔬𝔯𝔫 𝔱𝔬 𝔯𝔲𝔫

[firstfullmoon]

Megan Fernandes, “May to December,” in I Do Everything I’m Told

[eine--wie-alaska]

Danke für

<3 Mama <3 urlaub zusammen <3 dass ich gesund bin <3 keine Kopfschmerzen, keine steißbeinschmerzen <3 spanisch sprechen können <3 in der gegenwart sein <3 essen <3 lachen <3 tiere <3 im Bett liegen

[existential-celestial]

“Sometimes we don’t say anything. Sometimes we sit on the deck and stare at the masses of goldenrod where the garden used to be and watch the color change from day to day, the high yellow turning to mustard and at last to tarnish. Starlings flitter in the branches of the dead hornbeam by the fence. […] Why am I saying all this to you anyway since you already know it? But of course we always tell each other what we already know. What else? It’s the way love is in a late stage of the world.”

— Hayden Carruth, “Silence,” Collected Shorter Poems (Copper Canyon Press, 1992)

[clementbrunner]

[havingapoemwithyou]

missed time by Ha Jin

[racial]

[crocanti]

[rozieramati]

Latex Mask by februarytrash

[eine--wie-alaska]

🎀

[emptinessstatue]

[eatpussypraylove]

[olyoil2-deactivated20250812]

People are like “it’s so beautiful no clouds at all” it could use a little clouds if I had to be honest.

[holoprisms]

it literally could use a little clouds if i had to be honest

[booksandrainyyfilms]

The Glass Castle (2017) director Destin Daniel Cretton

[suggestionsofkindness]

Important announcement: You will make it through this, there are so many good things waiting for you. It’s okay if the fight makes you tired, and it is okay to rest, but keep fighting. You got this. You hold so much power in you, some of it hasn’t even awoken, yet. 🌸

[eatpussypraylove]

I love treating each stage of my life with care and respect even if I don’t like it at the time. So I can look back later and know I didn’t take it for granted. And refusing to be jealous of where others are at. It’s a self-respect thing

[crabussy]

small tips for Enjoying Being Alive from someone who went from wanting to die to genuinely loving life. these won't fix your life but they'll make it a lot easier to want to live day by day. I promise.

tell yourself things you do not believe. it feels stupid at first but I've done this for years and now I believe it when I say "I'm good at this" or "I love myself" or "I deserve good shit!"

make a note of every mundane good thing that happens to you. mental or literal notes! could be as little as "the sky is a nice shade of grey, it's calming" or "I ate a piece of fruit today, I'm looking after myself" or "I talked to a friend". again, feels stupid at first, but I genuinely believe this is part of why I have so many "good days". trick your brain into storing things in your long-term memory that you wouldn't otherwise remember.

diet deficiencies can make you properly miserable. your physical health impacts your mental health more than you'd think. get some vitamins, some omega-3s and so on. whether from food or supplements. they can make quite a difference! your brain is responsible for a LOT of the way you feel, and giving it the fatty acids it needs to function at its best can go a long way.

[crabussy]

I know these all sound like stupid junk people who have never wanted to die tell you. I know they sound like dumb "self-help" tips written by people who have suffered mild anxiety at worst.

they're coming from someone who had multiple daily panic attacks for half a decade. someone who genuinely felt like he did not deserve to live. someone who hated himself so much he convinced himself he was irredeemably evil. someone who loves being alive these days, even though it's difficult sometimes.

you truly don't have to follow any of this advice. but just read through. store it in the back of your mind. come back to it when you want. best of luck. [:

[nedzira]

These are genuinely great! If I can add a small comment it would be to try to change scenery every now and then, take a different route home and go for walks. And make appointments to meet your friends!

[crabussy]

ABSOLUTELY. anytime I feel myself descending into a slump where everything feels wrong and bad and gross and hard, I go on a Weird Walk. I choose a familiar destination (the dairy, the beach, a specific hill) and intentionally choose a route I've never tried before. it's crazy but it makes me feel better almost instantly, even if the new walk is worse than my usual route. your brain CRAVES new stimulation! you are a member of a species with one of the most active brains in the animal kingdom. please try not to live like a hamster.