Just a Mess

A Damsel in Distress

[eiralights]

Getting more reasons to end this.

[eiralights]

Fuck my life. Tatapusin ko na lang midterms tapos tatapusin ko na rin lahat ito. One last pahirap.

[eiralights]

Breaking down while reviewing. Breaking down all the fucking time.

[eiralights]

No one will ever understand how hard it is to keep living with this fucking thing in me. Nakakapagod mag open up tapos isasagot sayo kausapin mo lang si Lord, dasal lang, lilipas din yan. Sis mas gusto ko yung ako na yung lilipas para tapos na.

[travisliebert]

Tired

[thegoodvybe]

[luckylluminati]

“Never be ashamed of having too much emotion. You’re allowed to feel. However little. However too much.”

[somepiecesofmyheartandsoul-deac]

“Sometimes, forever does not mean eternity. It means a few little moments of pure joy, and the world is forgotten for a while. Sometimes, such short forevers means more than everything.”

— Lukas W. // Such forevers

[epiphaniesandpoems]

I hate myself, 

I hate myself, 

I hate myself, 

I hate myself, 

My mind is not poetry, 

It’s doesn’t get that deep,

It is a broken record, 

Repeating those three words, 

Over and over again, 

It’s a goal of a lifetime, 

To get myself to defy my own thoughts, 

To get myself to say, 

“I love you. You’re great.”

[somepiecesofmyheartandsoul-deac]

“I know it is hard enough to love me. I know that better than you do. I know that better than anyone else.”

— Lukas W. // Coffee thoughts #174

[eiralights]

Torturing myself in watching wedding videos.

It’s painful. It really is. I mean all I dreamed off is to be married to him. I guess it will just remain as a dream. Siya lang naman gusto kong makita sa dulo ng altar eh. Siya lang. But somethings aren’t meant to be. Our futures will never meet. We will never meet. We had never met and we will never meet. Mahirap tanggapin pero kailangan.

[eiralights]

Where can I go home?

[eiralights]

Mali rin pala na nagsabi ako sayo. Pare-pareho lang kayo.

[eiralights]

Kaya dapat sinasarili na lang lahat. Never trust. Never open up. In the end, I will be judged din naman.

[eiralights]

Kulang sa faith? Ano ba alam mo? Ahhh wala talaga kasi wala ka naman dito. Kaya nga sayo ako nagsasabi para alam mo kaso ayun mas pinili mo na ijudge yung hindi mo alam.

[eiralights]

Mali rin pala na nagsabi ako sayo. Pare-pareho lang kayo.

[eiralights]

Kaya dapat sinasarili na lang lahat. Never trust. Never open up. In the end, I will be judged din naman.

[eiralights]

Mali rin pala na nagsabi ako sayo. Pare-pareho lang kayo.

[eiralights]

Never worth it

I am not worth

The miles

The call

The attention

The love

I am not worth a single thing.

Never was and never will be.

[eiralights]

I’m tired of this life. I’m going to stop fighting na. I wanna rest. Let me just finish those letters then I’ll finish what was meant to be done before.