pillowtalk

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EW!!!

me at mansplaining

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everything annoys me

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you can never get what you want sad

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here’s to another day of doing nothing and crying 24/7

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i mean i know there is nothing to look forward to but just...

i dont wanna be a butt and keep thinking about what i could have done and moan about this and that but i dont know what do i want in life

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to be honest i think im unlucky 24/7 and sometimes i think im annoying for blaming everything on luck when i know its me being incapable lol

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i just feel like im facing life my own but i dont know what i can do about it

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so here i am 3:20am, i cannot sleep because i kept thinking about my life and my way forward. i have been pretty much feeling like a failure since last july/august. this year has been taking a toll on me. to be honest i dont even know how i should feel about myself apart from feeling like a piece of crap. i hope i can free myself from all the pressure people and i had for myself. for one, im glad i didnt tell anyone about this because i knew i couldnt make it, but im upset over what i knew i cannot do. the thought that i would be doing what i do not want and what i could have done with a much worser version of myself is pretty unpleasant. am i really that mediocre, i wonder? i dunno. sometimes i think if i had done it next two-three years, perhaps i can make it? but i dont think i should gamble with my life and go through everything again just to fail once more.

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cant wait to take selfies and looking BUSTED!!!

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one of the reasons i love being a girl is because i can share hand cream with my girlfriends..... :3

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truly unfortunate day.....

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only cats can cure my sad cold heart

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a truly terrible day

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SOMETHING that i wanna get off my chest is that i really value my time when i was in the jessup team because:

1. it is the most stressful ever but certainly one of the most remarkable moments in my life

2. it made me believe in myself and i know that i can accomplish things that people say i cannot do

3. and the passion of the teach is p amazing and i almost cried when she said she will quit

4. the memories i had with my lg

5. the fact that there is a lot of brilliant people i met because of the jessup and im loving people being so passionate about international law!

also im so happy today my lg checked his spam mailbox HAHAHA

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the fact that u won and thats still not enough and ppl be like "oh cuz ur competitors are just sloppy"

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i think its cause my mens is coming so im a bit pissed over a really tiny situation where i cannot cut my cake and i was waiting it the whole day and not changing to my pyjamas and not taking baths and not sleeping because i was waiting to cut the cake and at last when my sis is home she went to bath and took a shit and then the washroom smells really bad and delayed the whole process and at last we didnt get to cut the amazing cake so yea it meant i was uncomfy and waited all day for nothing and then my mom made a big fuss out of it ok

also i didnt tell u about how i didnt know the lunch and ride is gonna take 4 hours and wth i had class today til 12noon then reluctantly had lunch with relatives and also had to ride to UST and get back home at ard 4pm so basicallly i wasted 4 hours today and it was so NOT constructive like WHAT

saddest part is now i have to sleep til late esp when im so sleepy but now i cant because im all fired up

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why today is the best birthday ever

1. got free tix to the BEST EXPERIENCE ON EARTH

2. did yoga

3. dance party 

4. pet a dog

5. made free donuts

6. hung out with my kids

7. bUFFET

8. also my boyfriend <3

9. and the BESTEST BDAY SURPRISE EVER YESTERDAY OK