Alone in the Universe @electricfleshlightorchestra - Tumblr Blog

I’m doing school now. Courses for Early Childhood Education and Art Therapy. Would probably not be that active (haha was I at this point??) but part of my art therapy course is actually keeping an art therapy journal. Maybe you guys would like to see that?

Also from my reblog, I’m starting a comic called Woof Comic, it’s something that’s been rattling in my brain for awhile, but like college, I’ve been avoiding it for about a good 4 years. I am making it in short panel updates (3-4 panels) so people can maybe have bite sized updates here and there. I can’t promise an update schedule, college is looking like 13 hours of class time plus 28 hours of study/homework time based on looking at the credits. But my goal is to try and touch the comic every day. Whether I have time for the whole update that day or maybe just only typing in the text, I’m doing something!

That’s about it, my diggity dawgs. I feel great about finally going to college and doing things I want to do, but class is nerve wracking. 😫

woofcomic

#hey guys I'm making a comic

E-begging, imo. There's this ex-friend I had that basically used every downfall to beg their tumblr followers for money, from faking they were "going blind" and "facing homelessness" while they spent donation money on tat in Second Life and other vidyas. It just kind of muddles those who need financial help and I constantly feel terrible for having the thought of "yeah this person could be lying" if I don't know them well enough. And then I feel bad because I don't even have a lot of money in my name to help out people.

#e begging #tumblr things

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Right. This still exists. I've been thinking about just how pointless Tumblr is. I'm aware as an artist I'm supposed to be "expanding my network" or "getting my art seen", but it really really seems pointless to bother. My art can never become self-sustaining. Is that what I even want? Even if it was, any content I produce gets lost in a sea of gifs. My content is not appealing. And lately, I've been writing more which is essentially nailing my own coffin because no one wants to read my shit. Like honestly - writing is not for this platform because it's not as easily digestible as cat pics or videos. This site has probably done more harm than good. When I was seriously into it, I poured trying to talk to other artists, like and reblog their stuff and at my absolute peak I got maybe 200 followers, less if you cross of spam porn blogs. This is the site where I met a person that destroyed me and spit in my face for trying to help them not have to go back to their abusive mother. It's just exhaustion looking at this site. I'm twenty-five now. Maybe I'm no longer part of the hip, young market this site caters to. Maybe I was born too early; young enough to grow up with Internet and computers and shit, but too old to be a pioneer in something. I tried the "indie game dev" thing and look at where it got me: a 95% completed game that will never be complete, because I don't have the ability, nor do I even want to associate with the dreaded D word. It's getting old. I'm getting old. My life has been put on hold again and again. I can't wait for other people to change it. I've realized the ship has sailed for my work to ever get any notoriety from anyone. It's too late to further my education to become something more than some assorted sales person. I've grown up.

I drew a couple of Wooper because Wooper are the best Pokemon in the world and I will live by this fact forever.

Maybe you love them enough to where you’d buy some Redbubble goods at this selling out link here!

#pokemon #wooper #shiny pokemon #pokemon gold #pokemon silver #pokemon crystal #pokemon heartgold #pokemon soulsilver #pokemon hgss #hgss #mezzo's art

Some new art farts to your face, finally. I have this available in my RedBubble shop as well!

#pokemon #skitty #wailord #generation 3 #pokemon ruby #pokemon sapphire #pokemon emerald #pokemon omega ruby #pokemon alpha sapphire #mezzo's art

I don’t know what’s wrong with me.

I’m sorry. I’m sorry I haven’t been drawing. I think it’s - anxiety. For some reason I have been overwhelmed with negative thoughts about my art. It’s not good enough. I didn’t do it right. I didn’t do it right the first time. Therefore, it’s terrible and bad and I should just never draw ever again.

I realize it’s irrational thinking, but right now it’s hard to even want to make a small doodle. It’s not an artist block - I still have many ideas and characters and places locked away in my mind. Just - anxiety.

I’m really sorry everyone.