elena siddal

wandering artist's model, delirious daydreamer, incorrigible romantic ; lover of things beautiful and bizarre. actor. dancer. this is not my name. official website model mayhem "Most people want like a candle-flame - flickering, shifting. You, on the other hand, want like a forest fire."

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Elena Siddal | Justin N Lane

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Tying and Photography by Marcuslikesit

with Elena siddal    elenasiddal.com

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‘she dreamt her way through september, and when she woke, it was the dying season’ 

Elena Siddal | Freshie Juice October 2015

MAJOR WEBSITE UPDATES! More than 100 photos, new and old, added to elenasiddal.com 

Currently available for booking in the NYC area.

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Models, please read. Alert!

So, this is going to be a bit long but in light of recent things I have been reading, I feel I have to post something in a public forum. Highcastle Photography/Jesse Perez is not a safe person to work with. Please, if you are a model and are considering working with him, message me first.

I feel genuinely sick about the testimonies from various models coming forward to talk about the things he has said and done. I wish I had said something sooner. All I can hope for now is that this might stop someone else from ending up in an awful situation. Jesse is an abusive person. He was abusive in our relationship and he acted extremely unprofessionally with the models we worked with. When we began taking photographs together, he was mostly fine. He put me down a lot in front of models and sometimes bugged people to do things more than he should but it wasn’t where it is today. He is manipulative and prey’s on people who he feels are weaker than him (wounded birds he called them). And he is good at it. I left the relationship feeling like I didn’t matter and that I had no self worth. He told me things that I will never be able to forget no matter how hard I try. He should not be allowed to take advantage of anyone else.

After one of our lasts shoots I told him I no longer wished to shoot with him because I felt he was putting extreme pressure on a model who had already made clear what her boundaries were for the photo shoot. He blew up at me.

While Jesse never hit me, he has an extremely large temper and is unpredictable. I had several women tell me whom we worked with that he continued to bother them through texts on the side after they had already told him they were not interested in whatever idea he was proposing. Another admitted he had taken pictures when she wasn’t looking with his cell phone of her and was sending them to someone else. I warned those we had worked with but I never went public. Apparently, he has gotten much worse and his abuse more extreme. It is not ok. And I can’t not say anything anymore. I am a stronger person now and am in a much better place in my life and I don’t want any of these things to happen to anyone else.

If you have worked with him and want to talk, if you are thinking about working with him and want to talk, please don’t hesitate to reach out to me. And again, I am sorry for not doing this sooner. 

Please share this post. I don’t want anyone else to have to deal with this abusive individual. 

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Elena Siddal | Joanne Leah

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Stunning Australian street art shows the world the true face of LGBT people

Australian street artist Astrotwitch launched “Queer the Streets“ last year based on the idea that, as they wrote on Tumblr, all the “queer community needs is simply for more people to know that they exist.” Their works are incredible — and every one has the potential to create a change.

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List of Dangerous & Inappropriate Photographers, as compiled by Brennan (an established, reputable freelance traveling model) // This is not my personal list; I’ve added my (Nicole Vaunt) personal comments in italics.

“Dangerous” means that the photographer is responsible for “assault,…

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I am SO GLAD that we (freelance models) are talking about this openly. Scum like this need to be shunned from the community.

I urge every model and photographer who sees this list to block these people on MM and on tumblr.

I may get backlash from this, and I have before (other models cussing at me because I spoke out about someone) but I think it’s worth it because I want these men to stop victimizing models!!!

Here are my additions to the conversation:

Cherrystone - I shot with him and he wasn’t sexually inappropriate but he treated me and my traveling companion horribly. I’ve heard other horror stories about him.

Jon Mayhemmm/hard nipple forever- he can be physically and sexually violent. I shot with him before I knew about this. Our shoot was fine, but afterwards multiple models came forward to me with stories. He is complete shit.

Ben Fernon- I shot with him once, and I think he was fine, but he gives off a sketchy vibe.

David Segal—I shot with him, it was fine, but afterwards I heard bad tales from other models.

Jason Haven/Asylum photo-DC, uses his models for his personal dating circle. Has told models that he would only shoot them if they performed sexual acts on him. I had a bad run in with him myself, which I have previously discussed here, and I won’t get into it again. Avoid.

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Reblogging because IMPORTANT.

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Elena Siddal | Trevor Wilson

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For STG Photography's Wet Series gofundme.com/wetseries

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I fux with this

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nude

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These are by Nubian Skin, by the way. They’re a black-owned business in a notoriously difficult sector to break into (lingerie), and they will only succeed if people know they exist and buy from them. Support the brands who support you. Here’s the link: https://www.nubianskin.com/

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Sorry for the tumblr hiatus, folks- I've been busy getting crafty! You can now buy wire wrapped pendants like the ones you see above from my brand spankin' new Etsy shop, Imladris Wire Wraps! Check 'em out, reblog, share the link, buy one for yourself or a friend and help me save up a little starter money for my summer modeling trips! Etsy.com/shop/ImladrisWireWraps

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“Essentially, if our secrets are secrets because we are told to be ashamed, then we must share them. There is no shame in being sad or struggling or trying to heal. We are all desperate, depraved and sacred. We are all terrible and brillIant. I can list all the things that can make a girl want to escape her own body (re: patriarchy). But I’d rather list all the things that make me want to stay in my body, and adorn it like a home, rub oils into my skin, tell it how sorry I am for trying to leave, for trying to hurt it into submission.”

Warsan Shire (via didyoueatallthisacid)

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To any creative people

Do what you love.

Even if it means it is not “marketable”.

Do not change your vision to be more “palatable” when what you intend is to offend and confront.

Do not change your work because someone with money says it would be better another way, unless you can stand by that change.

Do be confident in what you create; you will not please everyone, so at least please yourself. Have what you create be authentic, and stand by it.

Do find people you respect as an artist and as a person (and who respect you and your art in kind), and be there for each other. Create a community if one does not exist.

The ability to make money from art should not define whether or not it is “good art”.

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Get a rat and put it in a cage and give it two water bottles. One is just water, and one is water laced with either heroin or cocaine. If you do that, the rat will almost always prefer the drugged water and almost always kill itself very quickly, right, within a couple of weeks. So there you go. It’s our theory of addiction. Bruce comes along in the ’70s and said, “Well, hang on a minute. We’re putting the rat in an empty cage. It’s got nothing to do. Let’s try this a little bit differently.” So Bruce built Rat Park, and Rat Park is like heaven for rats. Everything your rat about town could want, it’s got in Rat Park. It’s got lovely food. It’s got sex. It’s got loads of other rats to be friends with. It’s got loads of colored balls. Everything your rat could want. And they’ve got both the water bottles. They’ve got the drugged water and the normal water. But here’s the fascinating thing. In Rat Park, they don’t like the drugged water. They hardly use any of it. None of them ever overdose. None of them ever use in a way that looks like compulsion or addiction. There’s a really interesting human example I’ll tell you about in a minute, but what Bruce says is that shows that both the right-wing and left-wing theories of addiction are wrong. So the right-wing theory is it’s a moral failing, you’re a hedonist, you party too hard. The left-wing theory is it takes you over, your brain is hijacked. Bruce says it’s not your morality, it’s not your brain; it’s your cage. Addiction is largely an adaptation to your environment. […] We’ve created a society where significant numbers of our fellow citizens cannot bear to be present in their lives without being drugged, right? We’ve created a hyperconsumerist, hyperindividualist, isolated world that is, for a lot of people, much more like that first cage than it is like the bonded, connected cages that we need.  The opposite of addiction is not sobriety. The opposite of addiction is connection. And our whole society, the engine of our society, is geared towards making us connect with things. If you are not a good consumer capitalist citizen, if you’re spending your time bonding with the people around you and not buying stuff—in fact, we are trained from a very young age to focus our hopes and our dreams and our ambitions on things we can buy and consume. And drug addiction is really a subset of that.

Johann Hari,

Does Capitalism Drive Drug Addiction?

(via bigfatsun)

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Elena Siddal | Trevor Wilson