UNDER CONSTRUCTION

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What if I make a section for him in here? It's the only platform where he can't follow me 'cause he doesn't have account here. Hahaha

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Just Checking. Missing the old days.

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Saka mo lang matututunang piliin yung taong mahal mo pag alam mo ng piliin ang sarili mo.

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I'm kindly sad of how I ended up in a work where I have limited knowledge while my friend who graduated computer engineering didn't get the job as Software Engineer.

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Sa ibang field muna tayo magwork pagtapos nito sa field na tayo as Project Engineer.

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I'm blessed to find someone who stays when my anxieties attack me. Always. I never thought there would be someone who'll do that. Nasanay akong iniiwan palagi pag naipakita ko weak side ko. But my love saw me crying, having breakdowns and all but still loves me anyway. Gusto ko na matapos anxieties ko.

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Muling Pag-usbong

Pruning removes dead and dying branches and stubs, allowing room for new growth and protecting your property and passerby from damage. (The Grounds Guys)

“Every branch in me that does not bear fruit He takes away, and every branch that does bear fruit He prunes, that it may bear more fruit” (John 15:2).

I hope you find strength in pruning everything that is hindering you from growing. Get rid things that slowing you down or things that'll soon lead you from dying. Be intentional to seek growth from every situation you experiencing. Let go of the things that keeping you from achieving your goals.

You need to be pruned before you blooms.

📸 Shot and titled by Chad Alegre Rivera

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You made me realize that even I thought I was strong in my weakest moment, your love made me stronger.

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When my pain was just too much, your love was there to comfort me.

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I hope you meet someone who'll be there at your breakdowns and someone who knows to handle you carefully. Someone who is good for your mental health.

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Tawagin niyo na kong baliw. Magta-Top ako sa boards ng CELE.

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Happy Birthday Love!

This is the first time you will celebrate your birthday with me, and I want to make it one of your best birthday even if we're far from each other. I've been thinking of how to surprise you but ended up telling you what are my plans. You'll be surprised for next more years with me. I'm sorry if this is only what I can do for you right now but I did it all with love. Chaaar.

I pray that God will give you more birthdays to come, and hopefully, you'll celebrate it with me for lifetime. I'm blessed to have you in my life and I pray that you'll be my TOTGA (The One That God Allowed). I love you so much my Engineer. Again, Happy birthday love!

[ellegineer]

Sa mga oras na ito, nagdadalawang isip ako kung kakayanin ko pa yung mga susunod na araw. Ang hirap gumalaw. Wala namang nakakaramdam.

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To the guy I left a year ago,

I never thought our paths will cross again. And this time, I won't let go of you again.

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EXISTENTIAL CRISIS

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A M B I S O S Y A

Matatawag ko na sigurong ambisosya sarili ko. Andami kong pangarap pero madalas naman ako panghinaan ng loob. Hahaha.

Katuwa sakop na yung bookshelf ko. Anw, inspired lang ako sa vlog ni Emman Nimedez. Yung dream niyang Gold Play ng youtube printed lang tapos may lock. When he unboxed the package from Youtube, he also unlocked his dream. Anw, I’m really praying for his healing. Yung barakadahan nila changed my life this ECQ. Kanunuod ko ng vlogs nila, na-motivate ako and moved me. This guy will inspire more people, anw, kung mabasa mo ito, please pray for him too.

Soon ia-unlock ko din yang lock na nakasabit sa name ko kadugtong ng pangarap kong title. Sa totoo lang di ko alam password ng lock na yan eh (though nakasabit lang naman yung lock. Hahaha), pero alam ko maa-unlock ko din yan soon.

Philippians 4:13.  Kakayanin ko magtop. Sobrang ambisosya ko na panagarapin ito. Never ako naging magaling, never naging matalino pero wala eh, gusto ko lang. Napakasarap mangarap. I'm not expecting to get this but I'll be working to get it. In the end, I'll get what I deserve.

Sa totoo lang, pangarap, paniniwala't pananalig, dedikasyon lang ang meron ako. Pero alam kong doon pa din ako patungo.

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LAW OF ATTRACTION

Today, (May 17,2020) I woke up early para magreview. I gave myself 2hrs magprepare at i-kondisyon ang sarili bago magsimula.

Three days ago, nagplaplano ako kung pano ko mas maihahanda sarili ko sa review na gagawin ko today. And this is it.

I set my alarm at 3:30am and 4:00am. I woke up at 1st alarm. 15mins pa siguro tinry ko maupo. Munimuni. For a while, I just realized na kaya ko pala gumising ng maaga kasi gusto ko. Kasi I set myself to commit na gigising ako ng maaga for review. 

Unti-unti ko narerealize na kaya ko. This is really hard for me, kasi nangunguna palagi ang anxiety, pressure, fear sakin. Ang strong ko na din pala. Unti-unti ko na rin nac-control sarili, yung emotions ko and yung goal ko.

Totoo lahat ng sinabi ni Cong (ROADTRIP!!! | CONG VLOGS #6), lahat ng iniisip mo ay posible. Lahat ng thoughts na nilabas mo sa universe, ibabalik nito sayo yung thoughts na nilabas mo which become your reality.

Napagod na din siguro ako maging pessimist. And I am grateful sa lahat ng umambag sa pagkatao ko ngayon. It was never easy, I suffered from severe pain inside, I almost quit life, pero sa lahat ng pagkakataon na yun, may konting liwanag ako na pinanghawakan, may pag-asa akong pinaniwalaan na makakaya ko. And I did, I walked out of that situation na nagpalakas sakin para maging okay ngayon.

People will always see my worst but I'm happy to have those people because I saw who will always stay and believe in me until I make it. Di ko alam kung may sense pa itong mga pinagsasabi ko, but 6 months from now, Engr. ka na pagkatapos. (In Jesus Name!)

I did it for today. Let’s see kung maging consistent na ko.