suffering, and the conditional existence of eito aotsuki part 1, part 2, (part 3), part 4, part 5
so. what happens when hate is alleviated, disregarded, or otherwise meaningless? when the layer of hatred is stripped away and he has less incentive to be so distanced from others, what is underneath?
he attempts to derive purpose from connection with others. his feeling of connection to takumi, (you know this one. there are a lot of these, if i put them all in we would be here all day, take this one and keep moving)
(even when that connection is, um, pheromonally exacerbated)
to darumi, who is relief from his warped perception - relief from suffering the hate he carries.
he finds connection to the entire sdu, when they finally prioritise morals and express ideals that he agrees with. he puts aside his hatred of humanity to join them.
and he finds that connection with the sdu not just once, but twice, when they too find their existence and suffering to be meaningless, but imbue it with meaning by affirming their connection.
connection even grants him comfort!!! in otherwise uncertain and terrifying circumstances, he finds comfort in his experiencing the ambient connection of native futurum children.
and experiences it himself, personally, amongst people he has accepted as companions and been tenuously accepted by them as such in return. HES ONE OF THE ONES WHO FALLS ASLEEP WITH THEM OUTSIDE WHEN THEY WANT TO WITNESS THE SUNRISE.
THIS IS KIND OF A BIG DEAL. HE IS SEEKING LIGHT EVEN IF HE CANT SEE IT, AND THROUGH IT, HOPE AND MEANINGFUL CONTINUED EXISTENCE. SORRY FOR CAPS THIS SHIT JUST DROVE ME INSANE
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