this is me trying

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[emilem-is-sad]

✮ vent blog of @peanut-jelly

✮ if you are my mother please back off this is my one safe space

✮ if you know me irl. also back off

✮ you can comfort me always, even if i dont seem like i wanna be comforted

ahem., dont know where else to put this

[violetcat365]

Anyone else look in the mirror and think... what the fuck is that

[someones-here-for-sure]

Who do I gotta apologize to so I can make it up. Who do I have to apologize to so I can go back and fix it. i'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. Ggod I'm so sorry.

[kutie106]

holy fuck I love [redacted]

[uncertainlys]

it will pass but like can i at least get an eta

[emilem-is-sad]

me: remembers something cute someone did for me

me: :)

also me: remembers that person hurt me a lot and it's healthier to stop thinking about them

me: :(

[angellacyx]

i wish i was pretty

[emilem-is-sad]

hate it when i’m not allowed to insult someone in my friend group that isn’t my friend because they’re someone else’s friend. sucks.

[emilem-is-sad]

yk its bad when i dont even wanna cut my hair anymore im just letting it grow out ^^'

[sado-jelly]

"What are you apologizing for?" omg. existing? talking to you? taking up space?

[emilem-is-sad]

will showering cure my depression? i'm too tired to find out

[emilem-is-sad]

i hate my gender i don't look like a girl even when i want to but i also don't look like a guy and ig that's cool but sometimes i just wanna pass as SOMETHING and i can't

[emilem-is-sad]

i’m not posting this on main bc i don’t want that many ppl to see but i’m gonna be so honest i am struggling and i need help and support. i don’t know what to do.

[emilem-is-sad]

i kinda wanna just. get worse. so ppl see how bad it's actually getting

[emilem-is-sad]

cw eating issues

why does eating have to be so difficult. i'm not hungry but my brain says i need to eat and then i convince myself i ate too much and don't eat for a day. what.

[cvttcat]

me: huh, i have this problem, i wonder if i can find any resources to help support me!

google: 7 ways to KILL a person with this evil manipulative abuser trait! how to know if someone you know has this trait and is LEECHING off of you and SECRETLY ABUSING you! remember that people with this trait are EVIL and SUBHUMAN and UNWORTHY OF ANYTHING GOOD!!!

[emilem-is-sad]

so tired and ready to be home

nyc is cool but so overstimulating and i am fucking exhausted

plus this week is gonna be tiring too so i don’t have any rest for the next month