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Weakness and perseverance Are they at odds How rare it is To find a place To be alone How ironic Finding it next to a freeway entrance With best friends At my fingertips And a familiar sky Encircling my head Look up To be reminded of my stability As a marked And important presence On an earth In a place so simple And overwhelming

love them all

Inspired by a combination of a shitty skrillex emo song, where I saw myself as the fucked up one, and a story a friend told me, where again, I worried that I was the evil one in the story. It's a set up They need me A crafted extraction Evil exchange Toxic reaction Neurochemical dependency Wrapped up in cognitive mystery they need me because I wanted them to I push them away, at arms length Keeping the power Blaming codependency On an individual, other than me It's a two party system Our dance with no divisions I was crafted this way Made to need being needed Ever wanting Always seeking Demanding my Arms length And a leg Of any taker Personas built up Crafted Molded Applauded, poked and prodded Shielding The vulnerable versions of self Once loathed Now expelled