Let me in

The musings of a 20-year-old trying to write her way into the world.

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me: *receives nonsense information from a dream*

me: this is hidden knowledge only i am privy to

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A keen mind knows that illusions of grandeur are the best kind.

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Years go by so fast Years go by so slow No matter the pace Questions are placed With answers I do not know

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So life is not how I want it to be. C'est la vie. C'est la vie. C'est la vie.

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You don’t make a move because the timing isn’t right or you have got something else to do. You don’t speak up because you would rather do it face to face or because your phone is dead. There are too many people around or you need a drink to get you by. Enough with the excuses. The timing is now and you have nothing else to do; your current plans are only distracting you. Whether it’s done by leaving a note on the door or screaming it from the rooftop, there’s no better time than now. Now is the time to say “I love you” “I want to spend time with you” “Let me take you out” whatever it is. Because the one you love might be catching the midnight train to go tell someone else the exact same, and at least if you get there, when they’re fumbling with their keys to lock the door, you can’t say you didn’t try. So send the message. Don’t wait for them to be the brave one, or you could be waiting your whole life. Take control. I know you have heard it a thousand times before, “what’s the worst that could happen?” And everyone always responds that they could say “No, I don’t feel the same” and listen to me, really listen, that’s the best thing that could happen to you. Most people don’t ever get the guts to even ask, instead wasting their time pining over someone who is pining over someone else. Or worse, pining over someone who is also pining over them, yet neither person is brave enough to say. Either way the answer is a saving grace. If they say no, you are set free. You no longer have to worry how you look in front of them. You no longer have to wait for a sign. You no longer have to impress them. Do you really want to waste your time on someone who doesn’t want you because you were to afraid to ask? Do you really want to wait around hoping they will change their mind? Listen to me, the love of your life shouldn’t debate whether to love your or not. It shouldn’t take them years to realize you are a fantastic human being. Don’t ever, ever settle for second best when someone out there thinks it’s crazy to love anyone else but you. And if they say yes, the best possibility, then you’re still free. Free to love. And you wouldn’t regret taking the risk then would you?

Regrets Don't Say I Love You Back 

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Dying alone Doesn’t scare me Living alone, Now that’s truly terrifying

Better Together by Emlines

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A muse used to be temporary inspiration That was forever embedded in art Love was my muse And it frustrated me I longed for love to leave me Until I realized no one could escape their muses Muses tie you down, Not the other way around Monet had his gardens Bukowski had his women and beer Van Gogh had his cypresses Munch had his screams Maybe I wasn’t in such bad company

Muses

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I've wasted so much time trying to be what everyone wants, that I have no idea who I am. I'm left only with dreams of who I am not.

Tired by Emlines

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Fuck it I'm not going to worry about it anymore Fuck you For invading my thoughts Fuck me For letting you

Teach Me How To Quit by Emlines

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Why is it that when I finally stop thinking about you, you appear in my dreams.

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Lover lover I don’t know what to do anymore Lover lover My heart is sore Lover lover I need a neon sign That blinks all the ways to make you mine Please lover Just let me inside The dark creases of your mind

Japan by Emlines

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Dark days behind Dark days ahead Dark days that call me To stay in bed I wonder Will these dark days Ever leave my head?

Dark Days by: Emlines

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Another desperate tale of a girl who loved a boy But I swear this isn’t like the stories before (Or so I say) Longing for a love that doesn’t exist But could Is the worst kind of love you could give Give and take Give and take You play tricks with my mind It’s not hard to do when you never leave my mind I play tricks with my own Pretending some day I’ll be the key To your chest That calls me home

Familiarity (Emlines)

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The fight to have my words heard feels like an endless struggle.

Braille (Emlines)

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Loving you more Than myself Is easy You can't say the same I don’t blame you It’s not easy loving someone Who doesn't even love themselves

Another Sad Poem

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Here’s to the promises I couldn’t keep The dreams that invaded my sleep The notes I left under your door And the footprints on the bottom of the ocean floor Here’s to always being the small spoon Apologizing too soon Feeling empty under the moon And looking back when I said I wouldn't Here's to my stolen glances The paper cuts from palm trees Calling at the morning at three And crying about things I cannot change Here's to you Here's to me Here's to being happy And living free

Here's To

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I don’t know what else to say My words aren’t good enough I’ll steal a line from someone else And call it quoting “My love, my love, my love she keeps me warm" Call me a thief I won’t disagree Just as long as you know Not saying it first Doesn’t make it any less true I mean it, With every fiber of my being A stranger spoke before me But the words are familiar I can’t get them out of my mind My love, I’m not the author But I wrote that line for you

Universal Feelings