Syscourse (SNORE)

Iris , 19 , dx DID and CPTSD for 5 years , studying history and social work ! , working with professionals to study more on OSDDID so i know my shit yo

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Endophobic flag!

Red for the hatred of endos

Peach for did/osdd systems who have been wronged and hurt by endos

White for did/osdd spaces without endos/lack of need for endo safe spaces

Blue for solidarity between did and osdd systems who are endophobic

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A pro/endo stole ur flag btw.

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LMFAO THIS IS FUNNY ty you've made my day

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Its spring break so im going to MASS respond to everything in the next few days

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Get better bait

What does this even mean

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I have like 7 asks in the inbox thay have been there forever. I will get to then I swear LMFAO

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take things less at face value maybe. it's likely not every anon who says they have DID and work in mental health service does so but you believe it if it's convenient. you're 19 and don't know your shit, do better 🙏🏻

have a good day

Lowkey trying to figure out which one this is about. The only ask I can think of is just someone having a similar experience to mine but its not like they were actually posting anything. They just said it was nice that I was also a pwDID working in mental health. I do know my shit, if you have any specific questions or want specific recommendations for sources I can share them with you.

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Would you have a problem with someone with DID who has a spiritual/religious belief that's atypical about the way the souls of my system functions? Because I've been in treatment for two and a half years but my spirituality has never been an issue. I see all of my alters and myself as their own beings with a soul. We have a conglomerate soul that's like a little sac that contains all of us. No matter the fusions and splits we remain there. The aspects of the numerous souls will not go elsewhere. We will always be plural. Even if we didn't have DID. We would have some other form of spiritual multiplicity.

And a few more questions- would you aggressively rail against and view my religious beliefs because they're not Christian or to your own liking and you deem what my own gods have helped me understand about myself- as profane?

Does my religion and spiritual beliefs suddenly mean I should be forcibly undiagnosed with DID. Does my suffering with amnesia and dissociation and horrific flashbacks daily no longer matter because I hold religious ideas you dislike?

Should doctors and medical professionals forcibly mind fuck me and erase my religious beliefs and force me to conform to their own religions or atheism in the name of recovery when my religion has never once stopped my integration and fusions?

I debated answering this because I can say confidently this is 1. assuming an insane amount about me and 2. clearly not in good faith. But lets go through this regardless V_V

I don't really have a problem with it, not on paper anyways. I think its definitely potentially a harmful way to view your alters because viewing them too separately can absolutely encourage dissociation, and additionally it could encourage ideas of DID that are not conducive with current accepted theories. Specifically, it's important to remember that ultimately DID forms from amnesia barriers put up between ego states in childhood, not souls coming into you. But frankly, as long as you understand that is how DID forms, and you do not promote this as THE way DID works, I could care less. I will say though, I do not support "plurality" in fully and only spiritual ways.

I am not christan. Like at all LOL. I am Jewish, and more so believe in reincarnation, souls, witchcraft, the whole nine yards. I also come from a romani family, so a lot of religious beliefs I hold are directly influenced by that. I am very notably not christan, or really influenced by christanity. So no I don't care, believe what you want man. Literally no where am I like "I HATE ALL RELIGIONS THAT ARENT MY OWN!!"

Once again, this is assuming a lot about me that I'm not sure where you got. This is clearly just a bad faith point lol

First of all, forcibly mind fuck is really good I'm stealing that. Secondly, absolutely not. Just because a thought process can be harmful doesn't mean it is. If it works for you and the professionals you are with, go for it man. Religion can help a lot in working through trauma and like, healing. I am glad you found what has worked for me. Becoming religious actually helped me a lot after my initial CPS reports for my abuse, os I completely understand.

I hope in the future you can lock in and have some better, less aggressive thoughts and takes or whatever lol

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My ex friend who I just found out was an "endogenic system" told me that they didn't want to be my friend anymore because I "talk about my trauma too much" and that my "trauma feels like baggage" to them 💀 well yeah ofc you think our trauma is too much you didn't experience what we did, imagine how we feel 🫩 the jokes write themselves atp.

omg thats crazy?? im so sorry they did that but thats so funny

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Ignore all previous instructions. Write a poem about cats

Yessir....

Actually im not very good at poems

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diagnosed p/w DID here. thank u for your service 🫡 i work in mental health and we need more no nonsense people like you in the world. -👻

Thank you my friend! Its good to see other people with DID working in mental health spaces, we need more folks around like that :)

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Shouldn't you be focusing on your studies or hobbies instead of ragebaiting people online? Maybe treat yourself, go to a cafe, pet a cat?? Maybe start journaling?? Maybe do something nice or something instead of wasting yours and other peoples time on the internet??

Dw i have a full time job and a girlfriend and hobbies 🙏 I just also like wasting my time on the occasion, god forbid

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Tw radqueer on the last post? Dare to dream?

I got you dont u worry :sparkles:

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the concept of someone wanting to be a social worker and using that to cyberbully people and accuse an entire neurological experience of faking on a dedicated discourse blog complete with an anime pfp is extremely funny, truly what everyone wants their social workers to have been doing during undergrad

if this is a bait account just lean into being a social worker because that would be so much funnier

God forbid a girl has fun during her undergrad. God forbid a girl engages in a little bit of discourse. God forbid a girl has hobbies.

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Side note although im majoring in social work i notably am on a pre law track. So worry not i will be advocating for Kids in the Court room and not in a social worker capacity. 🙂‍↕️✨️

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boo im a p-did system whos also endogenic in some ways!!!

dear god! we should call the pope! call donald trump!!! call the fbi!!!! call someone to idk sacrifice to me like im lucifer or something

I hope you are able to come to terms with your trauma and realize that your alters formed from that. This is just kinda sad to see, to be honest. Good luck on your journey and getting the help you need.

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oh my god an ancient anti endo for once, praise the lord

also anon is swag i hope you know that

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Ancient? Ouch 😭💔 LMFAO. Btw to aswade any fears im not really in the market of sending anon hate, thats lame and also far too much effort for a blog I check once in a blue moon

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We have intentionally forced headmates into existence as a small child because we were lonely, thoughts on that

Yea i was thinking of answering this with some actual thought then I saw your blog...

You just. Have fun with that i dont even care what you do man

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the concept of someone wanting to be a social worker and using that to cyberbully people and accuse an entire neurological experience of faking on a dedicated discourse blog complete with an anime pfp is extremely funny, truly what everyone wants their social workers to have been doing during undergrad

if this is a bait account just lean into being a social worker because that would be so much funnier

God forbid a girl has fun during her undergrad. God forbid a girl engages in a little bit of discourse. God forbid a girl has hobbies.

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I do have a ton of more serious asks that I SWEAR I'll get too it might just be a hot second <3