The most beautiful moment in my life

something for you - me in the future

[dappermouth]

You were alive here — fearful and wild and beautiful.

[depsidase]

[ysociety]

rain walks

[arcanegifs]

ARCANE LEAGUE OF LESBIANS: 2x08 - “Killing is a Cycle”

[flocklings]

BLUE EYE SAMURAI (2023)

I never said I was a samurai. You did. I am on the path of revenge. There's no place on it for love or friendship or weakness. Now I have a man to kill.

[jatersade]

My favorite thing about learning that the creators of blue eye samurai are a mixed race couple whose mixed race daughter inspired them to create the show is that it means they, like many parents, were like “what should we do if people are mean to her because she’s mixed race” and the answer was “well we probably can’t just let her kill them all. but wouldn’t that be nice”

[dappermouth]

i don't know what it is about your art that makes me so motivated. i think it's the way you depict wild animals in the most unassuming, americana settings. i've always felt as if i'm not fully meant to be here, some sort of detached - perks of being korean-american and southern - and looking at your art makes me feel seen.

looking at your art makes me feel at home, which is something i don't usually feel. if this makes any sense, it feels like i am the jaguar at the top of the staircase, the stag leaping rooftop to rooftop, the girl with the face of the wolf, that's me.

every time i'm scared that maybe i won't make it, i trot on over here and feel comforted.

i hope you have a great night (or morning, or afternoon, or whatever else it may be in your world), because after looking through your pieces, i know i sure am :)

What tremendously kind things to say — I genuinely used to fantasize that someday my art might make someone feel this way. Messages like this blow my mind. Thank you!

[saiintofawe]

costantly thinking about how gentle and caring vi and cait are with each other

they look at each other so tenderly... every single touch they share is so full of care... i feel ill

[dappermouth]

(greeting someone u would die for)  well well well… look who crawled out of the primordial FILTH

[jimbenton]

[matthewgrantanson]

City Slices, Los Angeles -- March 12th, 2023

Etsy

[idledee]

Your use of colour is mesmerising, I let my eyes unfocus and still enjoy your illustration… how do you choose your colour palettes and manage to keep them across the whole illustration (low contrast but amazing hues)?

Also what artists do you look up to/study in learning how to colour?

hello, what a fun question!!! id like to take this opportunity to talk about one of my biggest source of inspiration-- the art of onmyoji: the card game. there are tons of artists who work on it but all the pieces done for the game are gorgeous showstopping breathtaking... theyre a huge source of inspo for me for composition, color, and overall style. i really recommend taking a look at the art!!! i learned a lot by staring at them!!!!! here are some of my favs: (i apologize for no artist credits bc its quite hard for me to find them, but if u search "onmyoji commission" on twitter u can find a few artists!) also for long post lol

YA in conclusion everyone hates this game and no one plays it except me and like 12 japanese players but i be grinding bc i love staring at the art

[matthewgrantanson]

Trebol, Los Angeles -- March 17th, 2023

Etsy

[ace-and-ranty]

I gotta say, one of the greatest achievements of my 20s was that I learned (mostly) to differentiate between:

"I truly do not want to go" and

"I'm just feeling the Demand Avoidance, and I will like it once I get there."

[ace-and-ranty]

Well, goodness, this one resonated much more than I was expecting. I mean, I get it. My mind was also blown wide open when I found out "demand avoidance" was a thing that existed, and that I'm not the only weirdo in the world who suddenly wishes it wasn't her birthday after anxiously waiting for her birthday for days.

Loads of people in the tags are asking how I do it? I feel this won't be groundbreaking advice, but here is what I have learned:

Previous experience. Really no way around it. Now that I hit thirty, I feel like I have done enough things to know, intellectually, from experience, what will feel nice if I overcome the avoidance, and what won't. For example, every time I go to the beach, I wake up early and would rather eat a tire than get off the bed. But I remember that every time I got up and went to the beach, I was glad I did it. So I just get up, feeling like shit, and get ready, feeling like shit, and I get to the beach and magic!! I feel great, I love the beach!! Sometimes you just gotta do it scared feeling kinda like shit.

Am I avoiding the thing or getting to the thing? I have a lot of demand avoidance around just, y'know, getting up, getting ready and going out the door. Universal human experience. If I notice that doing the actual thing (Swim in the pool!) sounds nice, but I'm avoiding having to rally myself to go do that (Fetch swimsuit! Sunscreen! Towel!), then I know it's demand avoidance and I should just fucking go.

Is the thing making me feel excited at all or just anxious? I have had previous occasions when I did the opposite; I convinced myself it was just demand avoidance when I really just. Hated the thing. And wanted to stop. If you feel a mix of excitement and dread, or excitement and anxiety, that might be demand avoidance. But if thinking of doing the thing just makes you feel actively anxious, then yeah. You don't want to do the thing.

Do the thing a little bit. Used often with dishes. I've seen this advice float around Tumblr a lot and it's correct. Commit to doing just a bit of the thing; a little bit of the thing; the smallest bit of the thing you can do. Getting started will make it clear right away if you don't want to do it (and in that case, you have permission to stop), or if you just having trouble getting started.

[metamorphesque]

― Fyodor Dostoevsky, The Brothers Karamazov

[metamorphesque]

― Fyodor Dostoevsky, The Brothers Karamazov

[dappermouth]

When I was like 12 years old my violin teacher owned this peculiar music shop, and I would go there weekly for lessons. It was a narrow old pioneer house whose ground floor had been converted into a storefront and lesson rooms. After a while, a luthier had also moved in upstairs and set up a studio for making violins.

So, one day I'm going into the shop for my lesson. I head in the front door, and before I turn into the living room area where the main shop is, I look down the dark hallway at the rickety wooden stairs that lead up to the luthier's studio. The air smells like sawdust and lacquer. Just a little bit of light filtering in from the window behind me.

Something's on the stairway. A huge black animal is making its way down these steep, narrow stairs. I've never seen anything like this, I genuinely did not know an animal like this exists, and it comes right up to me, click-click-clicking slowly over the floor, long and tall and dark. There are wood shavings peppering its coat. It lifts its head up and its massive beast-face is virtually level with my child-face and I realize this is a gotdamb bizarro dog of some kind. It looks impossible but it's real and it's there, staring at me in total silence with a face the length of my arm. Then it does a 3-point-turn in the tiny dusty hallway and goes right back upstairs.

Turns out this was just the luthier's dog Seamus, a black borzoi of incredible height and length. anyway i'm just trying to say it was a disturbing set of circumstances under which i discovered what a borzoi is and everything in my life has felt very complicated since then