Jadi gini...

ya gitu

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Do I deserve this life

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Real food kh

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Got anxiety bcs here is my teammate who has more years of experience and do most of the job even is the face of the department—she is recognized by all team, tbh it was me who barely seen as QC and just chilling and doing the bare minimum. Like why this second gurl out of nowhere suddenly get promoted huh.

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Just read that impostor syndrome is an INFP thing and cant agree more.

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Turns out now im an INTP

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Maybe he was right

I never truly love him; I just fall into the idea of him

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Got anxiety bcs here is my teammate who has more years of experience and do most of the job even is the face of the department—she is recognized by all team, tbh it was me who barely seen as QC and just chilling and doing the bare minimum. Like why this second gurl out of nowhere suddenly get promoted huh.

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Just read that impostor syndrome is an INFP thing and cant agree more.

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Got anxiety bcs here is my teammate who has more years of experience and do most of the job even is the face of the department—she is recognized by all team, tbh it was me who barely seen as QC and just chilling and doing the bare minimum. Like why this second gurl out of nowhere suddenly get promoted huh.

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Me got anxiety bcs of promotion, but my boss² be like :

He's a precious cutie, must be nice to him 😭

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PMS is crazy bcs why I started a drama that ends up make me cried at midnight because my bf thrown my Tomoro coffee's Gojo Satoru plastic cup into the bin (the cup is already rubbish-looking bcs he always use it for his daily coffee).

And... 2 night ago I cried at 1 am because there's no water in the dorm and he willingly brought 2 pail of water from production area to my room toilet.

Kayak... dramatis sekali.

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Starting this week by being a lil sassy bitch to my dearest site manager bcs of some findings in product and operations

The moony season is coming ig

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Asam keueung made by ayang

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Things I've done (and learned) lately in Aceh site—which are written because I feel like a useless tone-deaf burden in the team and I need self-validation :

1. Ensure pipette performance —need to do in Anyer as well.

2. Provide plasmid that been use for pipetting test, qPCR performance test, and generating std curve.

3. Set and improve the additional step for sample incubation in the extraction machine —will set in Anyer as well.

4. Help to find out how to set the tempature in autoclave —huge thanks to ChatGPT!

5. Inspect and list down equipments that needs to be purchased or be sent from Anyer.

6. Help my QC boss interpret his audit result and plan to Aceh production PICs.

I promise I did my best there.

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Guess my period is coming soon and that's gonna explain why I was acting like a melancholy dramatic avoidant sassy bitj for the whole week

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So disappointed w/ myself and cried my ass out last night. Then get my period this morning 🫠

Again, it's just my woman organs gaslighting me because I don't let her have a baby so they manipulate my own hormones to throw me a tsunami of sadness for the whole 2 week

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Heart so full of anger I feel like im rotting inside

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Lo tuh cuma frustasi. Gausa lebay.

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Lo cuma PMS alias mau haid hadeh.

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Even though sometimes you are dumb as hell, I'm grateful that I'm born as you, Sa

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Heart so full of anger I feel like im rotting inside

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Lo tuh cuma frustasi. Gausa lebay.

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Heart so full of anger I feel like im rotting inside

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"Why is it easier to love myself when I have no one around?"

Maybe when you realizes that you are surrounded by people who loves you, you think that you don't deserve that much kindness and you hate yourself because you think that you aren't good enough.

But when you are alone, no one take care of you but God and yourself—and maybe it is harder to ignore someone who loved by no one.