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biancaarivera:

“You can’t be serious, can you?” Bianca asked, irritation striking her tone. She couldn’t believe Eury could just drop in and out of people’s lives so easily. The last thing she had expected from her first friend in New York was walking away from everything and everyone so easily. And now she had the audacity to stroll back in and just ask her how she was? “I haven’t even heard from you in ages, Eury. Where have you been? What happened?” Bianca had a feeling, though, that she’d never get an honest answer to those questions. Something was broken between them and she wasn’t sure if Eury was up for mending whatever that was. Deep down, however, she had faith that things could be fixed. She had to go through her frustration period first, however.

Bianca’s annoyance stung, and Eury took a step back. She knew that things wouldn’t be easy now that she was back, but she’d held out a little hope that her friends would be able to look past her leaving, and forgive her. Maybe it’d take a lot of grovelling, and more time than she thought, though. “I’m sorry.” She looked at the ground again, and tried to think of a way to explain her disappearance. Maybe if she told the truth, Bianca would understand. “I... I couldn’t stay here. Too many bad things had happened, and I felt like I was suffocating. I almost died, and then the whole Cody whirlwind happened... Then Aspen lied to me, and I was losing another parent. On top of that, I was trying to lead the rangers, and failing... It was a lot, B. Too much for a person like me to handle, so I did something I hated my dad for, and ran.” She was rambling, which was out of character for her, but maybe she just needed to get things of her chest. “I’m sorry for not calling, or texting. I just didn’t know what to say. I felt like I’d just broken up with a bunch of people at once.”

#dash: bianca.#// petition for them to hug for 10 minutes T_T

evienayak:

Replaying her sparring session over and over in her mind to pick out any mistakes she’d made, Evie didn’t notice the approaching figure until they ran into her. Reaching up to push back the damp hair that had fallen in her face, her head snapped up at the familiar voice. “So I’ve heard.” She’d never been taught that by her parents, being as young as she had when they died, she barely remembered what they looked like most days. And on the streets, politeness didn’t get you anywhere, but she’d learned when to play the part.

“I’ve also heard it’s rude to take off without a word. I suppose we’re both guilty of that too, eh?” Her comment wasn’t meant to be a dig at Eury, merely an observation. She’d noticed the girl’s lack of presence around the last six months and heard her friends speak of it in passing. Giving her a quick once over, a small smile tugged at Evie’s lips. She’d missed seeing the other around, even if she didn’t want to admit it to herself. “We really have to stop meeting this way, Eury.”

A wide grin spread across Eury’s face, and she looked up. Evie. It had been so long since she’d seen her, and having her standing there in front of her made her feel happy for the first time in weeks. They didn’t know each other very well, but she seemed to relate to Evie more than other people –– she loved to fight, and didn’t hold back, just like Eury. It was refreshing to have a friend like her, even if the other probably didn’t consider them friends. She didn’t seem like the type of person that liked to form emotional bonds. Eury couldn’t blame her for that.

“Taking off without a word is better than long, drawn out goodbyes. Besides, we wouldn’t be able to have this beautiful reunion if I hadn’t ran off.” Evie looked good, and for some reason, Eury felt the urge to hug her. But she wasn’t going to do that, because they hadn’t even hung out properly yet. It would be weird to just throw herself at the poor girl out of the blue. “I agree. Maybe we should actually arrange to meet up for once,” she said with a chuckle. “Now that I’m back, I have an empty diary, and it’d be really cool to catch up with you. But only if you wanna, obviously.”

#dash: evie.

griffinsayoc:

Making his way to the weight room, Griffin squinted into the sunlight as he thought he recognized a familiar face. It’d been ages since he’d seen Eury around, and he wasn’t sure if she was even back again. Pulling out his phone, he shot Bianca a quick text. ‘Did you know Eury was back? I think I just saw her litter.’ He’d just hit send when he crashed into someone. Sure they always warned you about texting and driving, but texting and walking wasn’t too safe either. “At least I wasn’t carrying a knife,” he joked without thinking about it. His brain took a second to catch up to his mouth, and when it did, his eyes grew wide and he hurried to try and fix his mistake. “I mean like that whole ‘he ran into my knife ten times’ thing. See, there’s this movie that Bianca got me to watch, because I’m supposed to watch different kinds for this class, and there’s all this singing and so then uh, then she said that.” Griffin finally stopped for a second as he realized he wasn’t helping his situation. Rubbing the back of his head like it would somehow activate his brain, he started over again.

“Uh, what I meant to say was, hey Eury, it’s good to see you. Sorry for bumping into you. How’s it going? You doing okay? Did you get taller?” he added to try and compliment the awkwardness away. He hadn’t seen her in a long time, but for some reason the time apart did not magically solve his problem of not knowing how to talk to her. If anything, it’d made it worse as he had been left to wonder if he was at least partly to blame for her leaving. Of everyone around him that was affected by his unfortunate encounter with Devon, Eury was the one that he still held on to the most guilt about. “So uhm are you? Doing okay, I mean.”

If it were anyone else that had said those words, Eury would’ve laughed. But it was Griffin, so it was the furthest thing from funny. She knew that he was a different person now, and that the dark version of himself that had stabbed her was long gone — but that didn’t make things any easier, even though she wished it did. Looking up, she forced herself to smile at him, even though she really didn’t want to. It wasn’t his fault that she couldn’t find the humour in his joke, though. It was Devone’s. “It’s a good movie,” she said, finally letting her gaze meet his. He looked awkward, and she felt a pang of sympathy for him. He’d suffered at Devone’s hands just as much as she had, and he had to live with the things he’d done while under his influence every single day. That was probably punishment enough, without Eury trying to punish him, too.

“Hey, Griffin. Don’t worry about it,” she said, punching his shoulder gently with her fist to break the tension. He asked her if she’d got taller, and she looked at him like he was a lunatic. She wished she’d grown while she’d been away. “I don’t think I have,” she said, looking down at her legs, as though she could measure them mentally. “Nice of you to think so, though.” This was clearly as awful for him as it was for her, and she had no idea how to make it any easier for the both of them. Maybe this was just the way it was always going to be now, and they’d never know how to hold a normal conversation with each other. Kat and Tommy had always believed that Eury would be able to forgive him in time, but she wasn’t entirely sure that she could. He was a lovely guy, that much was obvious to anyone... But he still had the face of the man that almost killed her. “Yeah, I’m good! I uhh... Yeah, I’m great. I’ve just been seeing the world, and finding myself, like all those hipster kids that take gap years,” she said with a chuckle. “Uhh... How’re you? How’s football going?”

#f2f: griffin.#// they're so AWKWARD and it's v sad

syriafraye:

“Yeah, it really is and that’s why you should try and apologize,” Syria said as she looked at the older girl that has gone MIA for six months. She knew that this wasn’t really her fight. Yes, she was a little disappointed the Eury decided to high tail it and leave. But, she couldn’t fully blame her. Not when people that she trusted lied to her about something important. “Then again I wasn’t looking where I was going either. So, how about we skip the apologies.” Syria looked Eury over. Wanting to make sure the other girl wasn’t hurt. “I can understand why you did what you did.” There was going to be no way around an awkward conversation. A lot has happened, things changed. Even if they weren’t big changes. “I have to ask… even if the answer is kind of obvious. How are you holding up?” Syria asked.

Eury knew Syria’s voice, so she didn’t bother to look up from the ground. She didn’t want to look at her just yet, because she’d either get mad and punch her, or burst into tears. Neither were favourable, or fair. The anger would be directed at the wrong person, and Syria didn’t deserve to deal with an emotional former Power Ranger. “Skipping sounds good,” she said quietly, kicking at some dirt and avoiding eye contact like it was the plague –– but then Syria said she understood, and Eury finally lifted her head to look at her. ”You can?” she asked, surprise evident in her voice. How was she holding up... Now, that was a difficult question, which had quite a few answers. “Uhh, I’m okay, I think.” She gave the girl a small, forced smile. “Things have been better, but I’m feeling better than I did when I left. Turns out I really can’t function that well without friends, though. Not such a lone wolf after all...” She laughed awkwardly. “What’s new with you?”

#f2f: syria.

biancaarivera:

“Eury?” Bianca asked incredulously, hardly believing that her long lost friend was actually standing right before her. It had been months since she’d seen her in the flesh and they had rarely exchanged text messages or phone calls beyond that. Bianca tried at first but it got harder and harder to get a hold of her, which she interpreted as Eury being busy finding herself wherever that was and whoever that was with. (It kind of hurt when she realized that the whoever was not her.) A lot had changed in six months. Their team was different and while they functioned it wasn’t the same without Eury as their leader. More importantly, Bianca was different and she was certain Eury was too. Before they were Rangers, they were friends and she had no way of measuring how her sudden absence would interrupt that. And so Bianca just stared at her with wide eyes, unsure of what else to do or say.

Eury couldn’t make up her mind whether she was thankful, or scared that Bianca was now standing in front of her. Her friend was a force to be reckoned with, and she couldn’t be sure that she wasn’t mad at her for leaving, or upset with her for not calling or texting more often. “Yep, that’s me,” she said, rubbing the back of her neck with her hand awkwardly. Should she hug her? What if Bianca punched her in the face? That’d be hot, but it wasn’t something Eury wanted to experience. “How are you?” she asked, feeling her cheeks heat up a little with a mix of shame, and embarrassment over not knowing how to talk to someone she was once close with. Maybe she’d be able to smooth things over with one of the souvenirs she’d brought back for her friend from her travels. Gifts always helped, didn’t they? It would also prove that she’d always intended to come back.

#f2f: bianca.

Standing on the campus grounds, Eury had never felt more nervous. It had been six months since she’d last been around, and she guessed that a lot had changed since she left. Her friends would have moved on without her, and her relationships with each of the rangers would probably be strained as hell now that she was back. Part of her considered running away again, and hopping on the next bus out of the city. But she couldn’t leave again, she had to be strong. There were people she needed to see, and relationships that she needed to mend — mostly the one with her sister.

Taking a deep breath, she threw her cigarette butt on the grass, and began to walk. Considering that she was a fighter, and she’d take on anyone who got in her way, she sure felt like a coward right then. At least Tommy and Kat had forgiven her for deciding to bounce. She doubted that the same could be said for the people who relied on her, and expected her to lead. Six months had gone by, and she still hadn’t thought of what to say to her teammates, or her family. Sure, she’d sent the odd text here and there, but that really wasn’t much effort, was it?

As she was walking, she wasn’t really looking where she was going, due to her mind being so clouded with negative thoughts. Before she knew it, she’d collided with someone, and had to find her voice in order to apologise. Or maybe she wouldn’t. Saying sorry had never really been her thing. Keeping her eyes downcast, she frowned a little and readjusted her bag over her shoulder. “Don’t ya know it’s rude to walk into people,” she grumbled.

#f:starter #// don't feel the need to match length. i had to write her feelings lol.#// also i'm still on semi-hiatus so if i don't reply quick i'm sorry

celebritiesandmovies

#camcorder.#about: eurory.#// pure af.#// lmao griff on the sidelines like OK BEST FRIENDS WITH WEIRD LESBIAN ENERGY

mcfault

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feels like we’re on the edge right now i wish that i could say i’m proud i’m sorry that i let you down let you down all these voices in my head get loud i wish that i could shut them out i’m sorry that i let you down.

#music.

marieavgerosource

#vanity.#ft. chewbacca.

TEXT 💬 EURVIE.

EVIE: I know who you are, that was supposed to be a joke.

EVIE: I wasn't wasted so my memory is just fine.

EURY: It was a great joke. I was playing along, obviously.

EURY: SASSY. I luv it. I always need a lil' more sass in my life during the festive season.

#text: evie.

TEXT 💬 EURYER.

SAWYER: Good. I swear you two share a brain sometimes...but that will definitely make her happy. I assume that's gonna be a surprise?

SAWYER: You're welcome.

SAWYER: Yeah, tbh I don't have any desire to go back to Montana, even for holidays. I imagine B's back there tho.

EURY: We're brain twinz! Her and Reese are the womb buddies, but me n' her are the brain buddies. I hope so! You don't think it'll give her a heart attack, right? Yep! I've gotta get someone to wrap me up nicely before I knock on the door tho. You wanna help with that?

EURY: Spending the holidays with Rory will probably be way better anyway. Girl goes all out for everything. She's so extra. I should probably visit B, too... But Rory first!

#text: sawyer.