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There was a delay

We are delaying it

I know we both know where this would end

In the end

Not now, maybe later or the other day, or next week? Next month or next year

It'll happen

That is when we have to say "Let me love you, but Good Bye"

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I was happy for a moment,

Later on, I realized. All of these are just temporary

Then, I came back for being sad

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A Day Without You is just Like living a Normal Life.

The Problem is, I ain't Normal

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Two

How many times do you still need to feel that you are not the only one?

How many times do you still need to bleed to know you are not alright?

I ain't the only one and I am not alright with that

But what can I do if I can't really own you? Do I really have to deal with that?

You can't be with me without thinking about someone else

You can't be with me without looking at your phone and texting somebody else

You can't be with me without thinking I might disappear

It is not alright, it is not right, it doesn't feel right to me

I can't make you completely happy when you are always thinking about somebody else

You mind, your soul mostly your heart belongs to somebody else

Not just mine, never will be mine alone

What can I do? I am just nobody, nobody else's

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What happened years ago is bound to happen again and I wasn't wrong, it is happening right now at this very moment.

I felt this feeling before, long time ago

Whenever I feel so much joy, happiness and Love it is just too much for me to take and refused it ,neglect the person who's giving me that

Hard at first

Even harder everyday

Until one day, I will become numb

Then, I will congratulate myself and whispers "Good Job, you succeeded, you did it once more"

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One day, If you will have to choose, I don’t want you to choose me. In the end, I will just disappear just like everyone else. that person will not and will stick with you until the end.

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What is your Name?

You, standing in front of me, what is your name? I need to know, please. I know you, just your face but I don’t know how to call you and get your attention. I stare and frozen with your presence but I can’t do nothing so please notice me and give me a little bit of your heed. I am not asking for anything but just for you to notice me, it is more than enough for me, even just your glimpse. 

I saw you standing facing back, I know it’s you, I know how you stand, I know your hair and I know the structure of your body but still I don’t know your name. WHAT IS YOUR NAME? I am getting out patience now, I really need to know  your name. Do I have to dance, shout, sing, and do silly things for you to notice me? Tell me and I’ll do it, just tell me your name.

You walk pass by me, I didn’t see you but I smelled your perfume and I know it’s you. You’re so close but yet you didn’t notice me and just passed by, here it comes again. WHO ARE YOU? WHAT IS YOUR NAME? You seemed like a ghost appearing in front of me without prior notice. When will you notice me then? 

Who are you? Why do I feel like I’ve known you for quite a long time. This feeling seems so wrong but feels right. 

YOU’VE NOTICED ME!

but yet,

I still don’t know how to call you I still don’t know what I should call you I still don’t understand myself confused when calling you I still pause and stop to think the right name I should call you

Do I still think of you as a Stranger? Or Maybe I am thinking that You will become again, someday?

Do I really need to know your name when one day I will eventually force myself to forget them?

Do I really need to know you when one day you will make me feel like I never really know you from the start?

Do I really need to know every inch, every piece of information of you when one day I will eventually need to erase them?

Do you really need come into my life and eventually, one day walks out of it?

Who are you? What is your name? 

“It was nice to meet you”

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When you left everything at home and try to live a normal day

-/Just one Day

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Why do I pull you close And then ask you for space

//8Letters

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When I feel like I was fading away....

Ohh wait, I don’t Silly me, I can never fade in front of you

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Finally Found Someone

I finally found a place where I think I belong I finally settle here in this place near you I finally said I want this  I finally met  you

You borrowed my sweater I was so cold on my way home I did not mind at all You gave it back the next day

We are so connected Immediately we bonded First day, no Hi nor Hello We talked without knowing our names

I never said this to you but, have such a beautiful voice Unexpectedly we shared the same type of music Our world seem to meet and collide

It is easy to be with you without hiding to people I can do silly things to you without worrying I can tickle you all day long and still smile at me You like me being clingy but never experienced it

You hugged me from the back Always want to get a kiss I always refuse I was never a touchy person to you as you want me too

But I am already contented and happy even before you As I was writing this, I was thinking of someone else From the third Verse ‘till the sixth one, we are the other way around Still we stick with each other around

You are that someone I finally found Even all I see is our differences Our flaws and laws It encourage me to hold onto you 

I was never more certain that you are for me and I am for you I was made for you and You are made for me We have many dissimilarities than similarities We are made from different environment and impossible to meet  Yet we did, and you became the Best Person I need,  You are what I’ve been waiting for

You arrived just in time

I am not going to look for some else now you are here.

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Slowly, Slowly.... Slowly

Until we both get used to it

//absence

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You are my Priority

Even though I am not yours and just a second BEST

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Now, I am giving other people a chance to love me and to be loved by them

Because right now, I can't expect you to love me when you are busy flirting with others

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September, you sucks

Until the end, you still sucks

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Computing how much love still left Using the proof Delta-Epsilon but still left me undefined

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At this point I am just waiting  ,waiting for you to get tired of everything, of me

just like everyone else did