im so sorry you and alex broke up! are u sad he ahs a new gf? like id feel so so shit... but girl you can do better seriously! everyones always thought it trust me. youre like a victorias secret model.... you need a boyfriend on your standard. ily xx
not that its anyone's business but id rather get this out there and over with. this is the last question I will ever answer so turn up the volume haha. ask box will officially close after this point because it genuinely worries me how invested everyone else seems to be in MY life. let me tell you a story. I dated a boy, he was never mine. and I always knew. the pain I went through because of him, was inevitable and 100% preempted. I loved him for a second... that's the truth. at one stage I DID love alex kleine and that's the reason I stayed with him when I KNEW he wasn't mine. not for me... for him. the way he hurt me.. the way he treated me like dirt, the way he effectively used me as a punching bag, how merciless he was to me was not in vain. he had to treat me like shit so he doesn't treat the girl he's meant for like shit. I was a lesson for him and I knew it from day one that that's all id ever be. I loved him for a second and so yeah, as ridiculous asi t sound I put my head on the chopping block. there was this one time I was at a dinner situation with his family and his current girlfriend was there... there was something in the air I tell you. he knew her before he knew me. he will testify to this, I'm a psychic, like trust me when I say I know what's up and I always knew what was up with him, and how he felt about her... even when he didn't. i'm not happy for him, I don't wish him the best, im frankly nonchalant. he occupied a moment in my life, hes very irrelevant to me now. im not sad im not hurt im not bitter. I did my piece in his life, wether he cares to admit it or not im the reason his future relationships will thrive. I did that for him and ive learnt to accept the thankyou he never gave. ive long ago made peace with the fact ill never get the sorry I deserve. he was just a boy, it really wasnt that deep. I don't pretend to be above him. I had my moments of immaturity. but on my life right now im telling you everything that happened with that boy, none of it was a surprise for me. I knew how it would go down and I let it happen because its useless trying to push against the way life wants to happen. in response to some other questions, im not in a relationship because I damn don't want to be. im living LIFE. jesus, ive done so much living the past months. until I meet someone who I can LIVE with, im not settling. I haven't met anyone worth my time yet. things didn't work out with taj not because of him but because of me, he was an angel and gave me everything I could have ever asked for, but it just wasn't meant to be, I had to say goodbye to that relationship because it wasn't our time. guys, im living my life fully and thoroughly, im really incredibly happy and so full of love. im making really good money and im killing school... im on my game. im good. just because im a girl and im not in a relationship doesn't mean im struggling. to put this to bed once and for all, im a really happy girl. my heart is full, I love myself, I have made peace with the past, I don't think about alex except for when you damn noseys keep spamming my inbox about him as if he was a momentous influence on my life!!! I was 15!! we were together for like a few months!!! ITS NOT THAT DEEP! okay, THANKS, a sincere goodnight from Pho and I!
