GUESS WHO’S BACK WITH ANOTHER UPDATE
ok lmao im not even sure what to do anymore. i’m tired of asking for money, but man, this situation is so bad. basically, we’ve been in the hotel/motel/whatever it is (i do not know the difference so i’ve been calling it a hotel but others have said motel and im like ???) this whole time, and have until monday morning left. we have no where to go, no car, no family members willing or able to help, and basically no money. we just spent around $45 on a food delivery from a grocery store, which has left us with about $21 to our names.
my mother has been sending out what she thought was applications to housing that will charge based on our income, which currently consists of only her SSDI, but later found out the site she was using, despite having applications, does not send the applications anywhere. cool!
so we are now back to square one, no where to go, no place to stay, and no money. on top of that, any caseworker my mom has talked to from a place that’s supposed to help people like us has like zero interest in being helpful??? or they’re just incapable of being helpful lol. my mom has talked to a few places for suggestions for help, and most of them are like “try charities, churches, etc that offer help for the homeless to stay in hotels.” then immediately follow it up with “but they probably won’t help, since your son is trans” very cool and nice!
what bothers me most about that is that i pass as a cis woman, as i haven’t gotten around to physically transitioning like i want to, just socially. but when i think about trying to refer to myself as a cis woman, using she/her pronouns, etc and when others do it i actually want to die. plus i shouldn’t Have to to not be fucking homeless like really this is stupid
we’re both so fucking drained and exhausted and frustrated that we aren’t even really talking to each other. we’re both just sitting here doing our own thing in a state of despair. it’s horrible. and our cats are obviously picking up on it, considering how they’ve been acting (mostly just very insistent upon cuddling with us, laying on us, getting pets)
i’ve tried to get a job, actually got an interview!………… then i found out you can’t work at a hotel/motel if you’re living in it……… cool.
i’m also in the middle of like a year long process of trying to get on disability myself at the regular questioning and suggesting of my therapist, but they have rejected me twice and now i have to go to court and they’ll likely just tell me i need to find a job. fun.
my mom is trying everything she can, and i am too, but with it being 5 weeks until she gets her next SSDI check, and me having literally no income other than extremely kind people on the internet commissioning me, i legitimately don’t know what else i can do. so here i am, updating this post, because we need money again so we have somewhere to live.
it’s about $480-$500 for a week long stay at the hotel/motel. if anyone can help, i’ll do anything i can to either repay you once we’re settled, or draw whatever you want (within my comfort zone ofc), anything i can do within reason
thanks for reading, sorry i’m asking for money again, i’m hoping this will be the end of it, but i honestly have no fucking clue anymore.