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Normal people scare me

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So I just feel like getting this out of my chest. But if any of you find any redundancy reading this, I suggest to just exit it or ignore. Some may think that I'm contradicting it but hey weather it is or not I'm still gonna post it up. So I apologise if you feel there's any contradictory conclusions going on. I'm just trying to justify my P.O.V. Every one is entitled to their own opinions so do I.

Ok. So, it's come to my conclusion that I actually find this statement:

"I don't care bout your looks or what you weight, all I'm looking for in my partner is honesty, faithfulness & loyalty"

Is actually bullshit and it would legit be entirely Hypocritical of you to used that statement when you clearly do not stick by it!

Why?

Come on let's face it, how many of us actually do stick to this statement? A MINORITY OF US ONLY!. repeat MINORITY.

Why do I say this?

Well here's the thing, when a guy/lady got a GF/BF whose genuinely honest, faithful and loyal as fuck, people took the honest, faithful and loyal person for granted and worst still ended up cheating/breaking up with them. And the Honest, faithful and loyal partner is left thinking if they were never good enough to for him/her.

Worst still they'll have nonsensical reason such as:

"I don't love you like I once did before anymore." Or "you don't really Attract me, your really putting on weight." Or they'll be cheating/dumping their partner for someone they thought was better. Then for fuck sake don't be a bloody Hypocrite in the first place but using the statement:

"I don't care bout your looks or what you weight, all I'm looking for in my partner is honesty, faithfulness & loyalty"

Cause it's all BS!.

Conceded you used that statement, but then you don't even bloody stick by it, ended up cheating/dumping your partner for what? Hypocrite isn't it? Blockhead isn't it?. So I really find if funny when he/she uses that statement but ended up ending the relationship.

No offence to the Minority who actually do stay true to that statement. I applaud you for those of you who stood by to that statement.

But to those who uses it but ended up cheating or dumping their partner cause you don't love them the same way anymore. One fine day I'm sure karma will be knocking on your front door sooner. I'm sure of it. So with that I'll leave this quote.:

"You should never leave the one whose genuinely honest, faithful and loyal to you, for someone you may not know if they were as genuine as the one who loved you whole heartedly. Cause one day that person you leave your partner for might leave you."

(WHAT GOES AROUND DEFINITELY WOULD COMES BACK AROUND.)

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And now I just gave up on myself

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Confession.

I ever look down my house building to end the shits I'm going through. I secretly put my fingers in my mouth to force all the food I've eaten out. I tried starving myself for 5 days with out eating. I always looked myself in the mirror and then cried thinking why I was born fat. One time I took 3 sliming pills in one shot to fasten my results only to resolve in blacking out. At night when everyone is asleep I'll just break down, I hide penknife, knife, scissors and razors in my room. And last When I felt like I couldn't take it or I felt the need to stop feel from the inside, I ended up slitting myself.

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Yeah it's a joke

People think it’s a joke when you’re emotionally unstable, when you have emotional problems, but they don’t know that it legit kills the soul out of us emotionally unstable people, yeah don’t blame them, cause they don’t feel what we emotional problems people feel, it’s funny isn’t it? You don’t sit in your room feeling so emotionally unstable that you’ve thought of wanting to stop all and just end your life, you don’t feel the need to want to take something sharp when you see it to just slit your self cause you rather feel the pain on yourself then inside yourself!. You don’t start crying when you’re alone in your room and thoughts just hits you so bad!. You don’t feel that that’s why it’s a joke. You’ll never understand what a person whose fucking emotionally unstable go through. Conceded you even have feelings! That’s why it’s a damn fucking joke to you!

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