🍂 i go by faelyn (or reagan if you prefer) but you guys can call me fae/linnie/rae
🍂 the pitt sideblog @theptmcbreakroomscoffeepot
🍂 kotlc sideblog @marqueseire
🍂 the riordanverse sideblog @thehuntersofartemisofficial
🍂 @raedrinkscoffeeandwrites on ao3
🍂 minor
🍂 they/he/she pronouns
🍂 asexual
🍂 audhd
🍂 physically disabled
🍂 i'm a part of an absolutely absurd amount of fandoms, because of course i can't be normal about anything i like; i must allow it to completely consume my soul
🍁 books:
radio silence by alice oseman
loveless by alice oseman
solitaire by alice oseman
percy jackson and the olympians by rick riordan
heroes of olympus by rick riordan
trials of apollo by rick riordan
like real people do by e.l. massey
like you've nothing left to prove by e.l. massey
all hail the underdogs by e.l. massey
magnus chase and the gods of asgard by rick riordan
as good as dead by holly jackson
unloved by peyton corinne
keeper of the lost cities: stellarlune by shannon messenger
keeper of the lost cities: unraveled by shannon messenger
(there are a lot more, but i won't bore you by listing all of them)
🍁 films/television shows:
the pitt!!!!
heated rivalry
heartstopper
10 things i hate about you
a good girl's guide to murder
my lady jane
the princess diaries
my spy 2
the tomorrow war
gilmore girls
the summer i turned pretty
hamilton
🍁 artists:
conan gray!!!! (seriously, i love conan, he's literally saved my life)
noah kahan
phoebe bridgers
clairo
girl in red
chappell roan
taylor swift
lizzy mcalpine
boygenius
nf
🍁 hobbies:
junk journaling
crocheting
writing
scrolling pinterest and tumblr
making button pins
collecting trinkets
collecting physical media
🍂 my tags!
#rae yaps ⋆˙⟡ (for my lil yaps about my life and stuff <3)
#rae writes ⋆˙⟡ (for stuff about my writing in general)
#rae writes fanfic ⋆˙⟡ (for stuff about my fanfic writing)
#rae loves their moots ⋆˙⟡ (for anything regarding my lovely moots <3)
#rae likes girls ⋆˙⟡ (for anything even remotely sapphic)
i have changed my chosen name to faelyn (you guys can call me fae/linnie <3), and therefore have changed my url from raewantscoffee to @faewantscoffee
if you guys choose, you may still call me reagan/rae; i do still use reagan as part of my chosen name, and that hasn’t changed. that being said, i would really REALLY like for you guys to possibly start using faelyn/fae/linnie if at all possible <3
woke up to much talk about shane and blood and needles….but did u know that gay men couldn’t donate blood in canada until 2022 (lifetime ban up until 2013, then lowered to 5 yrs abstinence, then lowered to 3 months abstinence until 2022) do u think before shane came out he had feelings about that
like im imagining the metros have a promotional deal w the national blood donation service in canada and shane gets tapped to do a photo op giving blood. and whatever everything’s fine and good, maybe he’s a little queasy to get his blood taken. and then the nurse starts to ask him the standard list of questions, “do you feel well enough to donate blood today” yes “do you have or have you had in the last two weeks a fever, flu, sore throat, infection” no, no, no “in the last 8 weeks have you traveled outside of canada” yes, for games in the states “in the last 12 months have you engaged in sexual behavior with another man”
im sorry what
“oh its just part of the screening mr hollander.”
then i think he gets so woozy he actually does faint as soon as they go to draw his blood….and i think the metros are like haha aw poor hollander, scared of needles. go sip your juice box buddy.
and i think when shane is alone he hyperventilates about it
woke up to much talk about shane and blood and needles….but did u know that gay men couldn’t donate blood in canada until 2022 (lifetime ban up until 2013, then lowered to 5 yrs abstinence, then lowered to 3 months abstinence until 2022) do u think before shane came out he had feelings about that
like im imagining the metros have a promotional deal w the national blood donation service in canada and shane gets tapped to do a photo op giving blood. and whatever everything’s fine and good, maybe he’s a little queasy to get his blood taken. and then the nurse starts to ask him the standard list of questions, “do you feel well enough to donate blood today” yes “do you have or have you had in the last two weeks a fever, flu, sore throat, infection” no, no, no “in the last 8 weeks have you traveled outside of canada” yes, for games in the states “in the last 12 months have you engaged in sexual behavior with another man”
im sorry what
“oh its just part of the screening mr hollander.”
then i think he gets so woozy he actually does faint as soon as they go to draw his blood….and i think the metros are like haha aw poor hollander, scared of needles. go sip your juice box buddy.
and i think when shane is alone he hyperventilates about it
Reagan (current chosen name, nicknames are Rae/Ray)
Faelyn (longtime contender, fits my personality better, nicknames are Fae/Linnie
Voting ended onJun 28
also, i feel like Faelyn is better because it’s (in my opinion) more gender neutral, and i can use different nicknames based on the way i experience gender in that period of time
so… i may have done a Thing…. anyways yeah so you guys can keep calling me reagan/rae if you want but yeah i guess i’m gonna try out using faelyn. you can call me fae/linnie <3
I need people to understand how important Heated Rivraly is. I get that some folks don't wanna watch certain scenes in it. I didn't either, so I just skipped over them. What I mean is how important it is for stories like Hunter's, Shane's, Kip's, and Ilya's to exist. When Hunter gives his speech? Man, I started to cry. It is important for queer stories to exist and not be a declaration of activism or anything. It is important for queer stories to be integrated within society in a way that doesn't disrupt half the population's idea of the status quo.
Once Shane’s on the Centaurs they almost never spend a night apart. They go from only having a few weeks together every summer and catching a day here and there, whenever their schedules align, to living in each others' pockets. They don't even have to separate for road trips. They get to spend every day together and every night in each others' arms. It kind of surprises both of them how easy it is to fit around each other. After years of taking what they could get, they finally get to have every moment and sometimes just the thought of it is overwhelming.
The real kicker comes the first time they spend a night apart. Shane has been booked for a photoshoot that requires him to stay overnight. It shouldn't be a big deal. It's one night. They've spent countless nights apart before.
However, it's nearing 2 AM and Shane still can't fall asleep. There's no deep breathing that boarders on snores filling the room, no one snatching the blankets from him, no cloying warmth of a furnace disguised as a 220 pound hockey player forcing him to stick his feet from under the blanket in an attempt not to overheat. It's awful. It shouldn't be this difficult. They spent years in a long-distance relationship, Shane wishing every night for Ilya's presence. He should be able to do this. But never before has he felt his absence this keenly.
Eventually he gives up and texts him "I can't fucking sleep without you" only for Ilya's face to light up his screen as he immediately calls, having encountered the same problem. They talk for a while and do eventually manage to fall asleep, phones propped up on the pillows on the side of the bed reserved for their husband, just revelling in hearing the sound of the other person's breathing. After that, Shane is reluctant to accept any work commitment that requires him spending a night away from Ilya. It's just not worth it.
I love the opening of Heated Rivalry so much because it sets up the show and Shane and Ilya's dynamic so perfectly. From "not the most sociable" Shane Hollander actively going out of his way to interact (because he's already fascinated by him) to "not liked outside of his own locker room" Ilya Rozanov being a bit of a cocky shit (which we pretty quickly realise is a front) to the instant spark of attraction.
Look at this man experiencing freckles and awkward Canadian politeness and developing a fat crush.
My favourite part however is as Shane is leaving clearly uncomfortable with how their conversation went (he does a head tilt like "well, that went horribly")
Ilya notices and that's when he chirps, immediately making Shane more comfortable as he chirps back. And thus, their lovingly teasing, when they say "asshole" and "boring" they really mean "I love you" dynamic is born.
Also, yes, Ilya's lighter doesn't spark until Shane appears which is just an additional beautiful touch.
Harris has the idea to make the centaurs try Pilates for a video. Everyone is immediately humbled and going through hell apart from Shane who is having the time of his life.
thinking about shane who in his late 30’s discovers that he might be autistic and kind of freaks out about it because he’s already the gay hockey player and the asian hockey player he doesn’t also want to be the autistic hockey player with all the negative stereotypes it comes with but he finally confides in ilya one day and says i think i might have autism and ilya gives him a soft look and says yes i think maybe you do and at first shane gets a little angry at ilya because why does it seem like you knew? how did you know? why didn’t you tell me? and ilya says because i think you deserve to figure out how you feel without me plantning ideas in your head and no matter what you would still be my shane, trying to be all sweet about it and shane gives him a careful look and asks is that why you haven’t turned on the overheard light in 2 years and ilya sighs and nods
i like to think that after ilya and shane got more comfortable together, and the public started realising they weren’t actually that big of “rivals” as they seemed, ilya and shane would always pair up together when they played against each other and there was a fight on the ice.
as soon as a fight would break out, they’d immediately find each other within the crowd and pair up and just hold each other because it was some of the only PDA they could give each other in front of massive crowds which wouldn’t get questioned because it’s part of the game: if a fight breaks out, get into a pair to prevent it from being a brawl.
it was a perfect excuse to check in on each other quietly, and in a way, it made them feel like they could do something they thought was impossible. it made them feel like they were out and didn’t have to hide anymore.
Hollanov agree to record their wedding as a personal video diary of the day.
Shane’s surprisingly quite relaxed. He’s confident in their relationship, excited to be married, and knows that even if something goes wrong, it doesn’t matter, because at the end of the day he’ll be with Ilya.
Ilya is stressed. He keeps crying. This is the best day of his life. Shane deserves better, why would the greatest man on earth want him. He’s never been happier. Something’s gonna go wrong, he knows it. Bood, Troy, and Sveta have to keep calming him down and reminding him that Shane loves him and they deserve to be happy together. He locks himself in the bathroom.
Shane’s getting dressed with Hayden, JJ, and Rose, sipping champagne, feet up as he waits for the ceremony to start.
Once they manage to coax Ilya out of the bathroom, David comes in and does his canon speech about Ilya being his second son. The waterworks start again.
David then checks on Shane. “At least you’re doing okay.” “…. i-is Ilya not doing okay?” “Don’t worry about it, have another flute.”
there’s this concept in a [country redacted] showbiz scope that i was made aware of called “following only you” and it’s celebrities/public figures only following their partner on ig. i believe ilya would have a field day with this. one random day he unfollows all the organisations and friends and reduced his following to 1: shanehollanderhockeyplayer
the mlh follow tracker account on twitter goes crazy like ILYAROZANOV81 UNFOLLOWED 138, CURRENT FOLLOWING: 1