I’m watching Euphoria for the first time and in Episode 1, where Jules walks to meet a guy she met on a dating app, gave me chills. Scenes from movies or tv series like this triggers so many unwanted memories. I think being harassed or being given unwanted attention has affected me in a way that now, I try to take control by just giving in and diving in potentially dangerous territory? I figured if I am more open, then what they do to me would not amount to harassment right? Its like I am allowing them so then I wouldn’t get hurt because I’m not resisting, because I want it, I put myself there. If I smile, laugh about it and not overly think about it, then I’m taking away their power to hurt me right?
I feel like I sound so anti-feminist.Â
