Kitz

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focus on the likes and not the wants

you may not want to clean your room, but you like the peace and call it brings you after

you may not want to study, but you like the confidence and satisfaction you get from being prepared

you may not not want to apologise, but you like the relief and connection that reconciliation brings

you may not want to cook, but you like the satisfaction of eating a healthy come cooked meal prepared with love

you may not want to exercise, but you like how you feel afterwards and how it makes you confident

you may not want to journal or write, but you like the reflection and calm it brings you

you may not want to step out of your comfort zone, but you like the new experiences and growth you gain from it

my insta @ malusokay

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June 15, 2026

I can't sleep so I played Barbie music and when I prayed, I told God about the things that's heavy inside my heart. And I realize that I really know what to do with my life. It's just that doubts and uncertainties are hindering me to believe that I can achieve those dreams. Why would I limit myself? Why would I force myself to something that I really don't want to do. That was the time that my calling is different from the people around me, and that I should not pressure myself to become like them because I know what I want to do and what I yearn. I may not know how to achieve those right now, but I believe God will help and guide. Because if it's truly for you, it will become yours no matter what. And I believe that "if it's your caling, it will keep on calling" until you do your part to live through that calling. I believe that calling is my purpose. That dream that was already instilled in my mind and heart when I was still a child. I believe I can achieve that :) Listening to Barbie music helps me realize this even more.

"Though you may not know

Where your gifts may lead,

And it may not show at the start,

When you live your dream,

You'll find destiny

Is written in your heart"

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Took me years to understand that boredom is not the enemy of writing. It is the raw material. Every good idea i have ever had arrived during a walk with no podcast, a train with no phone, a shower where i just stood there. The moment i fill every silence with content i stop generating anything of my own. I am just processing other people's thoughts instead of having mine. The empty space is where the work comes from. Protecting the empty space is the actual job.

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1 month since Boknoy passed away 💔 I miss you and I love you Bokineyyy...

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Thank you, Lord for reminding me❤️

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Tonight I saw a video that made me realize something big... I believe the saying "if it's your calling, then it will keep on calling" because now I know what I really wanted to be in life. Although I am still far from it and I don't know how I can achieve it, but I think it is something that I will keep on yearning in this life. And I hope I can be there; somewhere I already had a vivid vision during my childhood. Can I name it? Well, it's humanitarian works, animal and wildlife care, and environmental care. That are the things that came upon me when I was still a kid during the night where I keep on imagining the things that would make me happy and that would make me wholeheartedly content. Though I really don't know how, but I know and hope God will lead me where I am supposed to be.

March 15, 2026

Musings of

Kitz

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Nindot kaayo ang Goldmayne wahhhhh I don't want it to end soon! 😣

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I will be part of UNICEF someday🙏

I will become a humanitarian.

I will be somewhere I need to be.

In God's Will and Grace❤️🙏

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The way I associate the wind at night (amihan) to Keturah and Lord Death😌 I miss reading it!

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I love Princess Luciana so much😩💜

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11.9.20.26

why did it took me this long to know about this?!

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Bloated fr

Girl, time to redeem yourself. Please act now and CHANGE FOR THE BETTER.

LOSE THAT FATS, FIRST

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Before the 2025 ends...

This year has been a rollercoaster for me. So many things happened, experiences that I've got to live. The lessons and skills I've gained. I just want to say that 2025 have gone by so quickly. It feels like it was just like we just started our internship. I'm thankful that I've survived college, although I am still working on my hardbound. I hope I get to finish it asap. This year I finally got to go to Cebu! It was my first time there! Unexpected feelings that usually faded but thankful as it motivated me somehow during my internship days. The hectic and hassle days as graduation was nearly approaching until the graduation day! It feels so surreal that my student days already ended. Then, the start of questioning what I'm gonna do next. Feels like the 7 months was so quick. To be honest I've never rested properly. Lot of overthinking and feeling of lack of accomplishment because of my thesis. I feel like I still don't deserve to rest. Though, I am thankful that I've got time to read books. I also thought that I'm just completely wasting my time but I realized that these have tought me some important skills, like cooking. I've learned to cook several dishes already. And I am proud of that little accomplishment. Never really noticed how time fly so fast I just see my hair one day and it's already long lol. I like it. This year also gave my heartbreak as our little kittens got separated with each other and that Minchi and Cleo already died. It really breaks my heart. I hope to see and hug and kiss them again someday. I also got a record of 10,000 steps this year. It feels so amazing! I have also tried embroidering but abandoned the hobby eventually. Well, not completely, I would surely come back with it though. This year we got to be completed as a family again after so many years. It feels so heartwarming 💗💗💗 I hope more of it in the future. I think that's all. Overall, this year is full of memories and lessons. I've already got the feeling of it before it even started. Goodbye 2025, I'm glad I got to live in this year. Thank you, Lord for always keeping me and my family safe and protected. We owe it all to you🥰. Also Lord ikaw nay bahala sa kay Lola nga nangayo ganina, I feel sad wa na ko sya natagaan. Nakonsensya kaayo ko. God bless her, Lord🙏🥺 Thank you.

Note: I just realized I failed to post this on Dec 31, 2025. So I'm posting it now...