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aspen: I'm not hungry, Easton. I'm not going to force food down.

easton: but you have to eat. you can't go without food.

#( easton. )#( where you go i go. )

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aspen: not entirely sure, to be honest.

easton: aspen... damnit. i'm gonna make you something. promise me you'll eat it.

#( easton. )#( where you go i go. )

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aspen: good.

aspen: dunno, just not.

easton: baby, when's the last time you ate?

#[high school musical voice] we're all in this together #( easton. )#( where you go i go. )

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aspen: it's alright. I understand.

aspen: om du verkligen menar det, kom hem.

aspen: if that's what you want. I haven't, but I'm not hungry.

easton: i'm on my way.

easton: why aren't you hungry?

#BUT I AM THE SAME #SO I UNDERSTAND #( easton. )#( where you go i go. )

immortalreverie.

he’s nervous. and nervous never happens with caledon hart. dressed in his nicest pair of jeans and an ivory-colored button up shirt, long black button up coat shielding his body from the breeze, the brit holds a bouquet of pretty pink and orange orchids in one hand as he uses the other to ring dante’s doorbell. he promised the girl starbucks coffee, and starbucks coffee she was going to get -- once cal knew what kind. he wasn't about to pass on his promise, especially to dante.

#immortalreverie #( caledon. )#( dante and caledon tag. )

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aspen: but you aren't, mitt hjärta. you aren't here. you're there, you know? if I was hurt... you wouldn't even know.

aspen: you mean so much to me.

aspen: I am.

easton: ...i'm sorry, aspen. i'm sorry.

easton: you mean so much to me, too. i swear you do. du är mitt hjärta. jag är med dig, på gott och ont.

easton: i'll bring the cake... we can share it. did you eat dinner?

#dlkjgfk :(#i'm sorry #( easton. )#( where you go i go. )

immortalreverie.

cal’s hand lifted into a loose fist, knuckles gently rapping against the other’s door. “ollie. mate. open the door for me, please.” the brit had been so concerned, so worried for his friend’s health, that he felt he had no choice but to visit; cal had lost someone close to him under very similar circumstances, and there was no way in hell he was about to lose ollie. “c’mon, ollie.”

#immortalreverie #( caledon. )#( ollie and cal tag. )#tw: suicide #tw: mental health #tw: mentions of death #just in case

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aspen: because I know how to protect myself. my body knows how to protect itself. and people know that if they hurt me, someone else will come after them. jag är ledsen, baby. I'm sorry I'm so hard to love.

aspen: then come home, kattunge. I miss you so much, and I love you so much. there's no reason for you to be so far away.

aspen: but I'm not, not always. sometimes I need somebody. sometimes I need you.

easton: you're not hard to love, älskling. don't ever, ever think that. and you know i will always be here to take care of you if you get hurt, right? if someone is stupid enough to hurt you, i'll be here. i'll be with you. if you're not feeling strong, i'll be here. you won't be alone.

easton: i miss you too, baby. and i love you with my whole heart.

easton: are you at your apartment?

#( easton. )#( where you go i go. )#they're the first ship in a long time i've actually become teary eyed over

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aspen: älskling, as much as I know it doesn't help, you worry more than you need to. most of what I do... people can't hurt me. or they won't hurt me. and isn't it better to risk me not coming back than to force me out altogether?

aspen: I never once felt like I was settling, like I was walking on eggshells. I always wanted to show you off if I could, tell everyone about you... because I was so proud than you were mine.

aspen: you never had to be as strong as me. sometimes I'm not strong at all. no one is all the time. and if I deserve a partner, I don't want one. I want my other half. I can't love anyone else, you know that? I wouldn't even look. I haven't. I won't.

easton: how do you know that? how do you know people can't hurt you? or won't? i don't like either option, aspen- risking you or forcing you out.

easton: i never felt like it, either- and i hope you know that. i've always been yours, min kung, and i'm always gonna be yours. you're everything to me. i love you, aspen. i've always loved you, and there's never gonna be a time when i don't.

easton: and don't ever, ever say you're not strong, because you are. you've made it through so much and you're still standing. you never give up on anything.

#brb i'm gonna throw myself off a cliff #( easton. )#( where you go i go. )

( can i keep you? )

Mia: And what're you gonna do about it, hm?

Mia: Do I get a spanking? I can be even worse. Just for you, Sir.

Mia: I'm already a mess. You're lucky my hand isn't down my sweats yet.

Mia: No panties, either c:

caledon: he's had enough. she's been so bad, so teasing, making noise without actually making any, that cal clicks his phone off and tosses it aside -- finally breaking the silence between them as he rises up and moves to hover over the girl next to him. yes, he lost the quiet game, but at this point, he can't be bothered. "baby... you're too much." cal whispers against mia's lips, slipping his fingers underneath the fabric of her shirt, running over her belly button. "and you're wearing too much."

#nsfw #( caledon. )#( can i keep you? )

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aspen: I have my things, you have yours. everyone has their things. you never wanted to tell me yours.

aspen: you never disappointed me. made me sad when you left, sure, but didn't disappoint me.

easton: my things... you want to know my things? i'm afraid of what you do when you leave. i'm scared of you leaving and never coming back. i'm scared that i hold you back- that you're settling instead of living. i'm scared of not being enough.

easton: and i'm so tired of crying over all of it, aspen. it makes me feel weak. i want to be strong, not just for me but for you. i want you to be proud to be with me. i want to be the kind of person you can love and trust and not have to walk eggshells around- i want you to want to come home to me.

easton: you deserve a partner. someone as strong as you are.

#i'm so done #i'm so upset #( easton. )#( where you go i go. )