Even the beautiful lose control

baby you light up my world like nobody else.

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“People make other people sick” It’s a line frequently used in a book I’m currently reading. It’s not used in the context you might be thinking, such as the flu or a cold. It’s worse.

Have you ever heard someone’s name and immediately rolled your eyes, bitten your nails, or shook your head? Maybe you can’t get out of bed because of that person, they put you on edge and maybe you take it out on the ones you care about, maybe you cry at night because this person has wronged you so bad.

This is the type of sick I’m talking about.

If a person has wronged you, humiliated you, made you feel as if you had no say over your body, then I know how you feel. I’ve been hurt before by friends, we have fought and went our separate ways, but as you grow older you learn that sometimes it was just pety, just youth, just an accident. These are the types of issues you can get over, you will still smile at them in the street, maybe even stop and chat, some of my friends that I fell out with, i’ve now reconnected with, and actually enjoy their company; some scars heal. Sometimes you can’t get over it though, what if it wasn’t an accident, and after the first time it happened again, and then again?

That’s when you become sick.

It’s that moment when you realize what’s going on isn’t right, you stop and revaluate the situation you are in, I even had to ask a friend - “is this right.” The fact you have to ask should be an answer in it’s self.

The thing about this sickness is that it’s not always there, you can feel healthy and beautiful for months at a time, but then something reminds you and you feel all the symptoms return. Some times people don’t even think you are sick, some times the people who are meant to heal you, make the disease even stronger by being on their side.

The beauty in this all though is that life is full of choices and although there may not be a way to make your body strong enough to be healthy 100% of the time, you can build your immune system. You can heal yourself almost completely. Eventually, you will hear this persons name, and you won’t be bed ridden for a week, you won’t shake as he passes by in a restaurant, you won’t cry when your drunk.

One day they won’t make you ill - because you will be too sick of them.

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ladies and gentlemen, you’re now experiencing an emotional turbulence. please buckle up and relax; it will be over shortly. sorry for the discomfort you’re feeling and enjoy the rest of the journey called life. 

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River carvings (Vancouver Island, Canada)

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IM SCREAMING

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SAVAGE!

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Home tomorrow night! Then i will blog again :)

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I would lava stay and chat, but ash-uld get going so i'll catch ya crater 🌋

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Sorry followers! I’m in Nicaragua, but will finish my nepal post once i’m home ☉🌍😚

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So, the reason why I’m waiting until I am home to finish my Nepal post is because I have written everything down in my journal and I don’t want to leave anything out, so for now, I tell you about me!

I am a 21 year old, female, Canadian. I was a loser in school, I sucked at sports, I have always been different than the rest of my family (my sister and two brothers), and was never really truly happy growing up. I had never had a tramatic experience to give me the excuse to be unhappy, I just was. Lucky for me though, that all changed out of highschool! I have learnt that who you spend your time with really effects you, and lucky for me, after many trial and errors, I have friends I love more than anything in the world now! I make choices based on what I want, and not by what is considered “normal.” I have been a vegetarian two years now and my health is better than ever, I have passions that include writing, snowboarding, surfing, traveling, and helping this world. I pick up garbage I see on the street if I can, and try to always be polite.

Talking about yourself is hard, message me if you want to know more! Also, add something about yourself that you love when you reblog xxx

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Add something about yourself that you love! We need positivity now more than ever xxx

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Today is our first day off since arriving to Grande Prairie, the four of us are having a bit of a hangover day. We went out to the bar last night-it wasn’t bad, but not the best night ever. I did a bit of shopping yesterday and bought a pretty cute outfit so I was feeling pretty good! There really isn’t much to do here, i’m anxious to move on already; we are planning on going on a trip after we are done here.

Basically, Grande Prairie makes me feel like I am back in Manitoba.

I spent 11 months living in Manitoba after I left Panorama. I came home and moved back in with my mom and started seeing my ex boyfriend again. I was working night shift at a seed plant and trying to keep busy. I wasn’t really enjoying living at home so Lynden and I decided to move into my friend’s house. I’m going to be honest it was definitely comfortable, it was nice living with my boyfriend and my best friend but I still had the travel bug.

I was working heaps in hopes to save up enough to go to Japan for a ski season, but it didn’t really work out because of visa issues. I started looking into new places to go and stumbled upon Rescue Paws - a volunteer organization in Thailand and I was like “YES!” It was going to be one month away working with the street dogs in a city called Hua Hin.

It was perfect, I would leave end of March and volunteer in April. I had just been accepted into college for a ten month veterinary assistant program, so the hands on experience would put me ahead of the game. I left the seed plant and worked full-time at my local daycare and part-time at the bar. I had a close group of friends and a loving boyfriend and for the first time ever I was genuinely happy in my small town in Manitoba.

As time went on and my leaving date got closer and closer it seemed my trip duration kept on getting extended longer and longer; I wanted to go everywhere. My boyfriend unfortunately, couldn’t handle the thought of being in a long-distance relationship, so like clockwork he was up and gone again. It was hard, but it didn’t change how excited I was for my trip. I planned a bit of a fundraiser at the bar I worked at and all of my close friends came out to say their goodbyes and to help support me with my volunteer excursion.

I was honestly more afraid to leave than I had ever been in my whole life - but it was so so worth it. I did things I never thought I would do in my wildest of dreams.