in the dark

Chained and enslaved, What once was light turned to blackness. Alone and betrayed, Sinking deeper into madness. [Independent TES RP. Mun/Muse are both 18+, occasionally NSFW]

[falmerblood]

@lionofmara yeah, and that’s life, you know? And no new content (beyond ESO, which doesn’t seem to have a lot of folks playing) usually lessens the interest.

It’s a bummer, but is what it is.

[falmerblood]

slightly debating on if I should archive Tick here, and just...kinda chill with roleplaying. I really miss it a lot, and I miss meeting new friends and building both real and fictional relationships, but...I dunno. It just seems more difficult now, for some reason. Like I’ve always been pretty shy and I struggle to reach out to others, but now the TES scene is quieter than when I first started, and just...mm. Seems harder to get into.

I’m not really sure yet what I’ll do. Part of me is thinking just writing this will help me decide, or at the very least, lift that little weight on my shoulders.

But I would miss writing with Tick. I talk with friends over discord about him, but sometimes you wanna craft stories n shit with your characters too.

I guess, we’ll see? I’m gonna try to ignore an impulse delete, since those seem to be my favorite, and just work on some shit for today.

But if you’re interested in talking off Tumblr, regardless of what I do, feel free to add me on discord (tel.mithryn#3882) and if you play ESO on the PS4, I play as steamhistorian. Drop me a line, yeah?

[valtsv]

shit tier: elves with ears that are just regular human ears, but pointy

okay tier: elves with long ears

god tier: elves with long ears with piercings

[falmerblood]

Tick never dwells on it for long, but sometimes he catches himself staring at couples on the streets, his heart clenching so hard it hurts.

He’s okay with being alone, usually. Someone like him, it’s a fact of life that gets acknowledged very early on. But sometimes, every now and then, he wonders what it’s like. To wake up beside someone you love, to share something together and build it nice and strong to last you both years.

But it’s not for him, and he knows it, so he locks those feelings away and moves on before they catch him staring.

[falmerblood]

Some ideas

In Dragon Age, Tick would be the son of a merchant from Starkhaven and a Dalish elf. It’s a bit of a whirlwind romance that ends in tragedy, leaving him and his mother alone. Along the way, they adopt another boy into their small family.

So again, largely raised on the roads, helping his mother and his older brother with the family business. Right around the time he displays a talent for magic, his brother disappears after the murder of a local, so his mother panics. She can’t lose her youngest son too, she’s already put to rest a lover and her eldest is gone to the wind. So he’s raised away from the Circles, becoming something of a hedgemage.

His magic is...clunky, from being self-taught, but he’s got an appetite for learning and tries finding other sources for education. When they come across a Dalish clan that wants to trade, he tries speaking to the Keeper and the clan mages, and when they’re trading along the borders of the Tevinter Imperium, Tick tries to get his little hands on every book of magic he can possess.

Eventually, he parts ways with his mother. Too many close calls with the Templars, and he loves her too much to see her in trouble for hiding an apostate. It breaks her heart to see him go, but it’s not like losing her oldest son all over again.

He’d do well under someone who knows what they’re doing, he’s got a hunger to learn more, and soaks up knowledge like a sponge. But for the meantime, he’s doing what he can to get by.

[falmerblood]

//man it’s tempting to make a dragon age and fallout verse for Tick...

[rpmusings-galore]

                                I'm  LIVING PROOF  that’s what  LOVE  can do

[falmerblood]

Tick: My mother raised me to do the right thing, always tell the truth, and never to steal.

Tick: One outta three isn’t too bad, I guess?

[falmerblood]

"Anywhere else and you would be hung until dead for that..."

“That’s a little dramatic, don’t you think?” Tick said, still examining the ancient book. Its pages were brittle, and as he closed it, a little puff of dust escaped. He didn’t expect anything less from something pilfered from a coffin, the resident long since dead.

Or, he supposed, from the Bosmer telling him off. He tucked the book into his satchel, adding in a sulky tone, “It’s not as if a dead Nord is going to use it. Why even bury it in the Hall of the Dead in the first place?”

[diagk]

Skyrim SE.

[onlyrpmemes]

Sword and Sorcery III

[lycannalla]

"A chest standing unprotected in the middle of the room. That's not suspicious or anything..."

"Charging into every problem is not how we should solve things."

"You could try to seduce them..."

"How much do you want to bet a demon or devil is involved?"

"A magical portal. Lovely."

"A cult is planning on waking an ancient deity."

"I found a map!"

"Do not touch!"

"I have an arrow with their name on it."

"You have my sword and my shield."

"Feel like doing a little dungeon delving?"

"There are good dragons, evil dragons and neutral ones; but they are ALL selfish and greedy."

"Is there something wrong, human?"

"Never trust an elf."

"What are you, some sort of pixie?"

"Sorry. Didn't mean to stare. Never seen one of your kind before."

"My axe is razor sharp."

"I'm not sure you can lift my hammer."

"Anyone got a healing potion?"

"I got a bad feeling about this..."

"Let us go carousing!"

"Adventure? Did someone say ADVENTURE?"

*growls*

"Anywhere else and you would be hung until dead for that..."

"Sorcery is not welcome in these lands."

"Might want to keep yourself hooded."

"I might have stabbed someone."

"I found something on the floor..."

"I don't trust this guy."

"I need a favor."

"Are you the local exterminator?"

"It's going to be cold tonight. Perhaps we should share a bedroll."

"Is the door locked?"

"I lost my weapon."

"We aren't going to survive this, are we?"

"Never say die."

"What kind of adventurer carries a lute?"

"You're bleeding."

[allsadnshit]

sometimes the right path for you is the one no one will applaud or envy sometimes its getting to know yourself intimately without outside observation in mind 

[terpsikeraunos]

“θερμὴν ἐπὶ ψυχροῖσι καρδίαν ἔχεις. - Your heart is warm for things gone cold.”

— Sophocles, Antigone 88

[falmerblood]

I see peddlers on the road, and I realize, I miss my mother.

...Should I go home? It’s been so long.

[oopsiewoopsie123]

J.R.R. Tolkien quotes

“All that is gold does not glitter. Not all those who wander are lost.”

“All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given us.”

“If more of us valued food and cheer and song above hoarded gold, it would be a merrier world.”

“There is some good in this world, and it’s worth fighting for.”

“Faithless is he that says farewell when the road darkens.”

“The world is indeed full of peril, and in it there are many dark places; but still there is much that is fair, and though in all lands love is now mingled with grief, it grows perhaps the greater.”

“Deserves it! I daresay he does. Many that live deserve death. And some that die deserve life. Can you give it to them? Then do not be too eager to deal out death in judgement. For even the very wise cannot see all ends.”

“I will not say: do not weep; for not all tears are an evil.”

“Do you wish me a good morning, or mean that it is a good morning whether I want it or not; or that you feel good this morning; or that it is a morning to be good on?”

“I am glad you are here with me. Here at the end of all things.”

“Courage is found in unlikely places.”

“It’s the job that’s never started as takes longest to finish.”

“May it be a light to you in dark places, when all other lights go out.”

“Moonlight drowns out all but the brightest stars.”

“A man that flies from his fear may find that he has only taken a shortcut to meet it.”

“I warn you, if you bore me, I shall take my revenge.”

“In this hour, I do not believe that any darkness will endure.”

“It is not the strength of the body that counts, but the strength of the spirit.”

“The world is full enough of hurts and mischances without wars to multiply them.”

“If by my life or death I can protect you, I will. ”

“I feel thin, sort of stretched, like butter scraped over too much bread.”

“It is not despair, for despair is only for those who see the end beyond all doubt. We do not.”

“You have nice manners for a thief and a liar.“

“It is useless to meet revenge with revenge; it will heal nothing.”

“Yes, I am here. And you are lucky to be here too after all the absurd things you’ve done since you left home.”

“Pay heed to the tales of old wives. It may well be that they alone keep in memory what it was once needful for the wise to know.”

“It is perilous to study too deeply the arts of the Enemy, for good or for ill.”

“I wished to be loved by another, but I desire no man’s pity.”

“The whole thing is quite hopeless, so it’s no good worrying about tomorrow. It probably won’t come.”

“Sorry! I don’t want any adventures, thank you. Not Today. Good morning! But please come to tea -any time you like! Why not tomorrow? Good bye!”

“How do you move on? You move on when your heart finally understands that there is no turning back.”

“A red sun rises. Blood has been spilled this night.”

“Don’t go where I can’t follow.”

“I may be a burglar…but I’m an honest one, I hope, more or less.”

“For victory is victory, however small, nor is its worth only from what follows from it.”

“I have passed through fire and deep water, since we parted. I have forgotten much that I thought I knew, and learned again much that I had forgotten.”

“Why must you speak your thoughts? Silence, if fair words stick in your throat, would serve all our ends better.”

“If you sit on the doorstep long enough, I daresay you will think of something”

“There’s some good in this world, and it’s worth fighting for.”

“On their deathbed men will speak true, they say.”

[falmerblood]

Tick’s first reaction to conflict is to try deescalating it as quickly as possible. He’s pretty well aware that he’s not built or trained to go toe-to-toe with someone else, so he relies on keeping calm and cool whenever threats arise. If he’s lucky, he can talk things out and get things settled before they get violent, and if he’s even luckier, he can skedaddle his way out of trouble after getting everything calm and chill. 

[falmerblood]

The Jester’s Festival is today and it is an excellent time to avoid any and all villages, cities, and travelers on the road with even a smidgeon of humor in them.