I don’t know anymore
All I ever wanted to do is meet some nice guy and go on a date. Why is that so hard? Then being told no because I’m ugly and too fat for their liking. I just don’t understand.
I feel upset about this because I’m never going to get anyone to look at me and say I’m pretty or beautiful. I’m just ugly and fat. I try and try so hard to lose weight so maybe one day I can have a guy smile at me genuinely and not get scared cause I’m overweight.
I get jealous sometimes of thinner and prettier girls being in the spotlight. Getting all the attention. I don’t hate them for that, they’re beautiful in their own way while I get labeled as fat and ugly for trying to do the same thing.
Guess I’ll never be pretty to any guy. That’s all I want, to experience a relationship. I know it’s not all prett and perfect, but I’d love to have some kind of relatiomship experience.