fatinamirahsubagio

FebyMira. 23. Singaporean. Ordinary girl trapped in an unprecedented world. Mostly reblogs of Dan and Phil❤. Occasionally rants about emotional and mental health.

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@amazingphil new IG story TRIGGERED EVERY INCH OF MY BEING.

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The effort and probably mulitiple shots on Phil's phone to get this cursed photo.

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That tiny bit of serotonin was worth waking up at 4am.

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I’m scared when I’m finally happy because I know that I’m nothing…

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Having family that knows the existance of MENTAL HEALTH but doesn't acknowledge it existing in the same household.

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CREATIVELY A DISAPPOINTMENT.

being the creative one in the family and everyone disapproves and are unsuppportive of your choices in life

[quercussp]

its funny how dan always marketed himself as the edgy one and phil as the soft innocent bean, yet for dan “living his truth” is sharing deep personal struggles and being emotionally vulnerable, while for phil “living his truth” is inserting 18 penis jokes into a 5 minute video.

[phan-toast]

What the fuck are those toes

[indistinct-echo]

dan “i make videos [present tense]” howell

[djhquiff]

he’s glowing

[giajade]

Have you ever just randomly cried because you’ve been holding shit in for too long?

[aliilovely]

Every week

[trippietxxsh]

at least three times a week

[melanin-king]

I definitely read this wrong…I was gonna suggest more fiber in y'all diet

[system-of-a-feather]

To those who are reading this, it is alright that you didn’t get to learn what you should have been able to as a child and as a teen.

It is alright if you weren’t taught what healthy boundaries are.

It is alright if you weren’t taught what love was.

It is alright if your ability to understand your sexuality was ruined.

It is alright if you never learned to understand and read your emotions.

It is alright if you never learned to care for yourself.

It is alright if you never learned how to be a “normal” adult due to what was going on in your life and any abuse that may or may not have happened.

It is alright to “be behind”. It isn’t your fault and it is never too late to learn. 

[darknailpolishsociety]

"You are a human with one life and its upto you to make it the best life you can" - Daniel Howell

[linda-belcher]

I’m always a slut for lying in bed for hours on end doing nothing productive.

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Doesn’t feel good when you slowly realise that the group of friends you have are perfectly fine with or without you.

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song story

Memories Destroyed every hope we once had Nothing we can do now that you're gone No way to bring you back

Like a vampire Inside my soul There is a murder scene

A Demon's fate Leave it behind Hearing your silence It screams our goodbye Cannot believe it's an eye for an eye

Internally screaming for help in the void; useless. Echoes of the past ringing in shadows, deafening. Knowing where this thoughts will bring me, I attempted to shake it off but to no avail. All I could see was blood; splattered all over me. All I could hear was your silence; a goodbye.

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song story

Nicotine I've lost control and I don't want it back I'm going numb, I've been hijacked

Head above water And I can't see in the stormy weather I can't seem to keep it all together

Let me go I'm breaking free from these memories Gotta let it go, just let it go

Days when darkness filled my mind, when all there's left was the painful memories of the past. It felt like nothing could pull me out from the dark no matter how hard I tried. Days go by and you feel yourself falling deeper and deeper, losing control of everything. Eventually, the void brightens a little, giving me that slight of hope for the coming days