VULTURES

This is a Themed blog about my trials in love && how sometimes all you feel like is a vulture carcass. who i really am: Public Outcry

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Oh my. Is someone already writing about us? About how our hearts collide and ive given everything. About how you need her arms, but crave my words and hand that are in places ive never seen.

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Scathing texts.

These sleeping pills make my Head spin with questions. How long do people stay together? How long do they stay away? Why do some fall apart like laces, only to be pulled together, years later, when the emotion resurfaces for a summer. Mostly, would you have other girls, if you had me.

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If I told you I missed you, would it mean anything to you?

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How Can I Compare?

When Nothing Compares to you? spent all day, running around lost towns, sure my head was over you, but here I am stuck listening to the sounds our house used to make. & Isn't it real how I never missed you until you were really gone for good. pushing this away because life's too damn hard. Was it the cold shoulder or was it the real world answer Of "I have a husband, and Lets be clear it isnt you."

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Just Go.

15 feels like 6 lifetimes ago, crossed starts and epic lovers. Here we are, this hinder song plays, replace it with fear; oh woah, I wish, I wish, how I wish you were here. You say that I'm like loving a car crash, and I throw that right back saying my love for you has been in the trash. But what are we playing at? You brought me flowers without asking, comfort without taking; Whats better is your mom probably hates me, holding on for what? Use, Recycle and a song that just wont quit, She says "Have you learned your lesson yet?"

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Singlee

I feel like the single life was easier, No ones heart to break, but everyone's a possibility. I love being in love, just the feeling of flirting hard says maybe, maybe settling was never for you. Twinkle, there are so many id love to test drive, but I bought you, and never get a ride.

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I have no Regrets

When it comes to the passionate end of me vs. you. Because I feel thats what it always was. Me vs. you Going out vs Staying In Having fun vs Responsibility Cocaine vs The business But you come back too sweet, Saying you knew better and everything you said was always true. Its all about control and my new husbands a monk, What I always miss are hands around my throat.

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When the

Truth comes out, you wonder why I never ended up with you. You never trusted enough just to tell me the truth. Instead you made witty comments, and called me compelling; like car crashes that have you coming unglued. When you could have saved yourself the heartache, this is true. But then who would you drink over when you're blue? You'll read this and call me a bitch, but tell me you're happy that im happy now too. I know what it is that you not so secretly wish, but being here with me is no dessert dish. I dont usually rhyme, but I felt like these years needed something instead of simple fears. They're written out between the lines in case you still care, But I doubt it, Cause you're sober, its over and so is our affair.

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Happy New Years

You Cant control yourself around me, all or nothing, never any middle ground. I wish you well and YOU come back around; it wasnt me this time. & still you say, we cant be friends. we cant be friends, we can never be friends, but my question is why? You Have never dealt with the loss of control I make you feel. Most people would cling to the feelings I give you, but not you. I keep trying to convince you that we can keep to ourselves, but I think I just need you around as a character.

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I keep Telling Myself

I keep telling myself, I'm not the desperate type. oh the songs that will always remind me of you, even while I sit here, weeks away from the rest of my life with somebody that isn't you.

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Almost

its been almost a year. Still not ready, you say, to have this temptation back. I know it wasn't healthy, but it was all I had to cling to.

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All I Ever Wanted

Was for you to see me, To hear me scream from the back of my throat. One day you’ll know You could have been my greatest love.

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You expected me to save you; I expected you to save yourself.

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I feel you

sometimes I wonder if you're still alive, and if that hand on my shoulder at 3am is you. I hope that you're not suffering anymore; that you have moved towards life without pain. I think back to the days where all I caused you was pain, refusing to come home and spending my time in the arms of someone else. The truth is you gave me a chance to save a life but I turned you down. So sometimes I wonder if you're still alive; and how you'd feel if I payed my respects...

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and all i feel about you is shame

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Of Course You Bring Girls Home at 4 am.

there are reasons for everything. reasons why i cant trust even the greatest of people, why I know tonight won't go the way it should. There are reasons I feel insecure, despite all your hugs and kisses and love. if I see something that's longing, it makes me worried that you'll see something better than me in her eyes.

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