Not here.

Not there.

[lucybellwood]

Rosy morning porthole view.

[feelsandmeels]

12 August 2021

I feel like I’m waking up from an awful nightmare that’s lasted the entire week.

For the past eight months my reality has been better than my dreams. It seemed real and everything was finally falling into place. But now to abruptly realise it was mostly, if not all a farce feels like a slap in the face. 

I oscillate between being ok and panicking - neither good states to be honest. I just want the pain to stop. When things are too good to be true, it probably is.

[feelsandmeels]

12 June 2021

The pendulum swings so violently. I can barely understand it myself 

[blackcoffeedreams]

[fleur-aesthetic]

instagram | jannelford

[florealegiardini]

Petersham Nurseries

[feelsandmeels]

3 June 2021 - ok round two.

While there are some things I need to settle and slowly sort through, life is really wonderful right now.

A year ago, I couldn’t imagine being where I am now. I couldn’t be happier about some areas of my life. Things are working out beyond how I’d ever imagined - and for that I am thankful.

As for the rest, as life has proven to me repeatedly, it’ll all be alright.

[feelsandmeels]

7 June 2019

20 years from now will we remember the last lychee?

[feelsandmeels]

Hey I’ll give you a big hint - you won’t and neither will he.

[feelsandmeels]

For this moment in time

I remember why I love/hate re-visiting this space. Alright, hate is too strong a word. But it feels like I’m getting sucked into another portal. A portal of past-me. A parallel universe before I made brilliant or silly decisions, before what led to present-me today.

All the memories flood back. As I skim through.

I love reminiscing. The nostalgia. I could survive on that alone for days.

But the pain of some of them. Yikes. 

I remember why I come back here.

[feelsandmeels]

Best lunch.

Just had the best lunch with Joanne, and she asked me this HUGE question that has left me thinking. Love these kind of sessions. <3

[feelsandmeels]

What was the question though??? Gosh my old cryptic posts coupled with a bad memory are most annoying.

[feelsandmeels]

3 June 2021

There was a long period of time I was so disciplined about journalling. I treasured my quiet time to recollect my thoughts, recount my day, and plan for what was ahead. With many exciting life developments happening, you’d think I’d be more motivated to record it all... 

But these days I find myself out of step with routined acts I once found solace in. I wonder why I drifted so far. Some days just float by and I feel like a mere spectator watching from afar.

I hope this break will be a time of renewal. For me to find things that keep me grounded once more. 

Perhaps I will use this space more. It has always been a place I fall back to. It is so familiar and one of the spaces that have been with me for the longest time.

[oldfarmhousefallfeatures]

(via #halfwaytoheavenhomestead @instagram)

[r2--d2]

[flowinghly]

ig: flordepassion

[dsxsbx]

[love-personal]

[malingabriella]