I think the weird thing is you go through life working so hard towards these goals and the world feels so self centric when youโre young and then you accomplish those things and take a second when youโre done and look around and everyone is just struggling and thereโs actually no point to any of it and you accomplishing those stupid things didnโt really mean anything because youโre still not changing the world. You still donโt feel like youโre floating on cloud 9, or like you made it to heaven.
And they say that maybe weโve already experienced the vastness of after-death. And maybe death will just feel like the vast nothingness and lack of consciousness that preluded this life.
I guess thatโs why Iโm treating this as my heaven, just in case. So why the hell does it have to be so heartbreaking.
