Fenrir

i watched you fall apart and chased you to the end; i'm left with emptiness that words cannot defend. you'll never know what I became because of you; ten thousand promises, ten thousand ways to lose. shim changmin, 25, misanthropist.

[chibisuz]

[sonvoeux]

Reblog if

[fenrxr-blog]

you’re open to roleplay the following:

● abuse ( emotional, physical, drug etc.)

● crime ( murder, kidnapping, theft etc.)

● action ( fighting, races, weapons etc.)

● relationships as ( enemies, gangs etc.)

[changdeer]

[halfxmarked]

[he’s quiet as he takes a long drag from the cigarette, holding the smoke in until his lungs ache before exhaling with his head tipped back]

Yeah. You’re right. I don’t want to talk about it. Just having a day thinking about shit I shouldn’t. How are you.

[there’s a smile there, but it’s bleaker than the one’s he’s shown Changmin before.]

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( — his gaze remains firmly fixated on the man as he releases the smoke from his mouth, looking every bit the troubled soul changmin had first suspected him to be) probably in the same boat you are.

( — he doesn’t smile in return, mainly because he never smiles in general but also because he knows it’s not genuine) what is it, i wonder, that makes people want to hide their negative moods from others.

[mrbxng]

I see, enjoying life till the last second.. -he nods with a grin- but maybe you should rest sometimes to not go around feeling like shit

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oh yeah, that’s me. bundle of energy. ( — the last sentence draws a dry bark of laughter from him, nodding the affirmative) yeah, good advice. i’m bad at listening to good advice though.

[princeinprague]

8/100 of Shim Changmin through the years

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even if i fucking hate you i won’t send you anon hate because my parents didn’t raise me in the jungle

[halfxmarked]

Hah, I’m like a little powered-down robot, right? [there’s a laugh but it cuts off sharply as the careless words make him think of someone he shouldn’t]

Thanks, man. I appreciate it. I haven’t had a chance to go to the store and buy my own. [places the cigarette at the corner of his mouth and cups his hand around the lighter as the flame flickers, even though there is no breeze to speak of]

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( -- his lips shift around his own cigarette as he hums in agreement, though his interest is caught by yunho's behaviour today. he wonders if it's a bad day or if this is more his usual self than the demeanor he held the first time they met) yeah, you look a lot like me today. ( -- he pockets one of his hands, the other holding the cigarette from his mouth) i should ask you what's wrong now, right. except i don't want to and you look like you don't either.

[halfxmarked]

He can’t quite place the relationship between the girl - Haneul, such a pretty name - and Angry Comic Guy, but he figures they must be close somehow, at ease in each other’s company despite the way Comic Guy smacks at her hand.

"Haneul-ssi, pleased to meet you. I like your hair, very pretty. I see the college girls wearing it like that in my neighbourhood."

The compliment is given easily and honestly, and maybe, deep down, because he thinks he might agitate Comic Guy and get those lovely fierce eyes turned his way again.

"I don’t know much English so I didn’t know if that was the right way to say it. But, you’d show me? Thanks, Person Who Knows Haneul-ssi."

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It sets Haneul into a red-cheeked mess as she absently reached up to twirl a finger around a lock of hair -- the Shims had never been good with accepting compliments -- and Changmin's eyes narrow, fixed on the man with a warning in his eyes. "He's too old for you," he tells Haneul while still watching Yunho, and his sister gasps as if scandalised.

"Changmin!" she whines, even more embarrassed at her already-obvious crush being given away. "You're such a loser."

Her complaints go ignored as Changmin nods in response to Yunho's question, the threat in his eyes evaporating to give way for vague amusement at the 'name'. "Yeah, sure."

"You guys know each other and he hasn't even told you his name yet?" Haneul scoffs, looking at Changmin witheringly. "He's Changmin. He doesn't know manners."

[nosasaki-deactivated20200412]

She nods once, and tilts her head in interest. “Comic books? You must enjoy reading them then?” She wonders to herself how someone can end up owing such an establishment but simply nods realizing it’s quite possible. “Do you have a favourite comic? Or are you more the I sell them but I don’t read them kind of guy?”

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"Yeah, I'm a fan. I suppose I thought of all the things I could do as a job that I wouldn't absolutely hate, and this was at the top of the list." He scratches the back of his neck with a quiet, thoughtful hum. "I don't really have favourite comics, more like the main character will decide whether I like a series or not. ....are you a comic reader?"

[mrbxng]

Oh too busy to rest? -tilts his head curious- I’ve been busy with work and some schedules.. -nods-

[fenrxr-blog]

busy and then when i have time i'd rather spend it doing things rather than sitting in bed like an invalid.

[fenrxr-blog]

Hey there, welcome to Xprez! I'm Hyeri, and it's nice to meet ya!

thanks, miss. ( — nods briefly) name’s changmin.

[halfxmarked]

Are you asking me if I want one? Because actually yeah, I really do.

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i am. ( -- fishes out the half-empty packet, holding it out to you before offering his lighter) you look like your battery's depleted.

[jjongstalt]

[halfxmarked]

His attention is fully on Angry Comic Guy - as he has taken to calling him in his head - so when the girl pipes up he stops, and diverts his smile to her instead, beaming from ear to ear.

"Hello, I’m Yunho, and no, I don’t think it’s that one, it’s—"

He ferrets around in the pocket of his black baggy shorts and pulls out his phone, calling up the browser to try and search for what he means, rambling away all the while.

"No, it’s like, super heroes? Fighting. Space Guardians, something… I don’t know. Western…."

He holds his phone out for someone to take, eyes flickering back and forth between the guy and the girl, pleased to see that peevish expression dance over the guys face, lending a sharp sort of attractiveness to it. Yunho knows he’s obnoxious at times, but he can’t help it, especially when he’s clearly so amusing to others.

"Does any of this look familiar? Is it…. Guardians of the the Galaxy? Galaxy Guardians? Does that sound right?"

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Yunho. Finally he can place a name to the face. Changmin’s frown deepens at Haneul’s eagerness to converse with strangers — maybe specifically handsome strangers, if the blush in response to Yunho’s huge smile is acceptable evidence. “I’m Haneul!” He wonders if he was like this at sixteen.

"Ohhhhh that one!" she exclaims, but Changmin gives Haneul’s hand a smack for snatching the phone, confiscating it from her with a hiss of calm down before looking at the screen, Haneul attempting to get a peek too.

"Yeah, Guardians of the Galaxy," Changmin affirmed, turning his face away as he exhaled a mouthful of smoke. "That’s Marvel too. But there are two versions, sort of — I’ll show you, after my break is over."

[casey-jane-lewis]

that one kink that no one can ever know about ever

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