I long to be a woman

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[natalie-journey]

Even before estrogen, I’ve always have been an emotional person, not just acting out, but being more concerned of other people’s feelings, and expressing myself more often than most people of my age. Since estrogen, my connection to my feelings have strengthened to tungsten steel and have become more emotional than ever and more sensitive. Whenever now when I think about physical interactions, I don’t just think about sex, the feeling of an orgasm, and all the physical aspects of making out with another man. I’m not thinking about intimacy as equally as important as sex. Sex and orgasms are amazing and at times feel unbelievable however I think intimacy brings up the feeling to an even higher form of pleasure as both parties involved are not just there together are not just there to physically enjoy the moment but enjoy the emotional and spiritual side of sex. If both are there both physically and spiritually, they bond in such a way that enhances the pleasureable feeling of orgasms as you’re not just trying to physically make the other cum, but cause the other to experience pleasure on a spiritual level with another person. So if presented the chance of just sex, I’ll take it, however if I a chance I can pursue not just sex but also an opportunity to become intimate with another man…I’ll wait for that opportunity to come along in my new life as my feminine self.

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[natalie-journey]

I’ve always have favored emotional and mental strength more than my actual physical strength. I always felt my focus of strength before was always predicated on what society expected of me, and not so much on what I wanted for myself. I am simply happy for HRT and all other upcoming procedures lined up for my transition to take a much physical strength away from me and become oetitie in bodily form. I wanna surprise people with how emotional and mentally strong I’m truly am as my true feminine self. I’m perfectly fine and wanna give into the strength of a gentleman, I wanna give into him being the physical one in the relationship, and together sharing the emotional strength together as one. Lastly, what a feeling it would be to be with a gentleman who can carry me around like a ragdoll and have his way with me..gosh that sounds so hot.

😏💪🥵

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[natalie-journey]

One of the greatest lasting effects of HRT is definitely what it does to one’s emotions. For those not familiar with my back story, I tried to transition back in 2019 obviously unbeknown to the upcoming covid pandemic that forced me to stop my transition due to external factors, however I did take HRT for nearly 2 years before I stopped and 2 years of HRT permanently altered my emotions even after I stopped. I became a hell of a lot emotional, simply tearing up at the simplest emotional parts of a movie, and feeling a hell of a lot more things than ever before. So in other words…the “good” damage was done and it made me a better person even when I resumed living as myself before restarting my HRT/transitioning this year. It sure has helped me prepare myself for the emotional mood swings to come but also I’m more aware of the changes that are coming. I surely can’t wait to after a year, 2, and 3 years of continuous HRT will do to my personality and feelings. I feel like now I’m more tuned to my emotions, a common language is now spoken between my mind and emotions, and the connections now are more iron clad than before.

BRING ON THE EMOTIONAL CHANGES BY HRT 💃

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[natalie-journey]

While I await the full size of my breasts to develop, the subtle sign of feeling one’s chest bounce as i run up my flight of stairs in my condo fills me with a gleefully smile that my inner feminine body is slowing emerging from within and I can’t wait to feel the full weight of them bouncing along as I walk up and down the stairs…I’m probably be getting my steps in a lot once I’m fully developed.

🍈🥰🍈

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[natalie-journey]

The hardest part of that is the RELAX portion. You think it’s best to rush HRT, take estrogen, and as much of it but bodily changes don’t necessarily run in the schedule that you may hope for. You have to be patient and you have to follow the plan of specific HRT schedule as not following one’s schedule can have negative consequences on one’s only body that can definitely increase one’s risk of blood clots, issues with one’s kidneys, and other factors. Estrogen will transforms one body to their feminine self in DUE time, so one must relax and let the plan work its magic.

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[natalie-journey]

That is the plan and if I could upgrade it tonight or tomorrow I would take that opportunity up in a heartbeat 🙋🏻‍♀️

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Masculinity never did. It never truly felt right with me as I always have felt more a tuned with my emotions and personality. As I grew up being shy and an introvert as heart, I never truly felt connected to feeling connected to being a boy and eventually a man, I always felt closer and bonded with the girls and ladies of my time. So as I’ve progressed through my transition and my HRT, my body is slowly changing and I’m starting to feel more feminine with each passing day. I feel less trapped in my other body as my skin is les oily, my skin is consistently more soft, and my breasts are staring to protrude out from within. With this, I’m feeling more content and alive in the body that I’m now evolving into. As I feel more connected to changing feminine body, im taking a far better care of it than before with my other body, and dedicating effort to actually doing something to keep my body in check and make it more feminine with each passing day. Having more fuller breasts down the road surely gonna be a blessing, but nowhere as much as a blessing than having my parts down below rearranged into a proper vagina

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[natalie-journey]

Even though I’ve yet to give myself up to the will of a dominant man….bending over, sticking my arse up in the air in bed, and casually kneeling on the floor have all become just natural acts of mine now. I simply can’t get enough sticking up my arse in bed imagining a man holding firm my body in place while he plows into me, or imagining a man slowing pulling up my dress as I bend forward for him as he pulls my dress off of me…all these just seem so natural posture for me and if instructed to do so randomly…I’m probably just gonna accept and do so naturally .

🧎🏻‍♀️

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[natalie-journey]

While technically it’s a side effect, I find it as a much needed blessing side effect that I’m hoping to experience in its full effect as soon as possible. I’m starting to feeling it atm with picking up my e-bike and lifting it up the flight of stairs to my condo. While it was already heavy to begin with, it feels like it got even heavier and I’m starting to question down the road if I’ll be able to lift it up to my condo. But golly, I can wait to have a figure like her soon enough.