Lady of the rocks, Lady of situations

I live on coffee and flowers.

[fermatslittleslut]

Eye am the grumpiest today

[fermatslittleslut]

It's been a while. Hello?

[fermatslittleslut]

It's hard to smile much these days, but I'm surviving.

[untrustyou]

[fermatslittleslut]

come along to bed bring a friend

[criwes]

[backto5oh5]

[portraitorieneted]

Self Portrait, Paris, 1986

By william albert allard

[mechanoid]

[nevver]

Hurts so good

[nevver]

Bats for Lashes

[birdasaurus]

[fuks]

[fermatslittleslut]

One of my exes and I dated for almost a year and shortly after we broke up I found out that he had been cheating with me the whole time. On and off for about a year after our breakup he'd text me about how he missed me, some random thing was making him think of me, he was intimidated by me and THAT'S why he could never give 100% of himself to me, etc. many of our text conversations involved me comforting him and trying to convince him that he's not an awful person (I still do truly believe that he's not an awful person, but that is another story for another day). Anyway last night I deleted a bunch of pictures from my laptop and some of the deleted pictures were sexts and stuff from him. I guess I'd still been holding on to a little bit of residual bitterness, because deleting those felt GOOD. I kept some pictures from our outings together because they're tied to nice memories and I've reached the point where I can look back on them fondly. He's still with the woman he was cheating on with me and I hope he's sorted out whatever insecurities he had that drove him to infidelity. He has a big heart with a lot of love to give, but love is worth nothing if it's not given along with honesty.

[nanuq-deactivated20231230]

my nayme is goat and on the grownde gud minerales can not be fouwnde

but up the cliffe with hoofes I crawle i clime up hiye

i lik the wall

[intricate--simplicity]

New Orleans, Louisiana

[fermatslittleslut]

it’s only tuesday and this week has been ROUGH.

i’m trying to find my authoritative side because my machine learning mentor has not been mentoring me EVEN THOUGH IT WAS HIS IDEA TO TAKE ME ON AS A STUDENT. 

i’ve been feeling super insecure about my future and i’m kind of stuck in doom and gloom “oh no i’m going to be a barista forever” mode. 

the weekend is still far away but i’m already planning to drink a lot of wine. so much wine.