Where's the exit

I like plants.

[ferventcare]

This is a Roleplay account.

Hi, this is Lawrence's account, created purely for fun and role-playing. Feel free to interact, but! I can't guarantee you'll get a very "satisfactory" response since it's Lawrence. I'm going to try my best to stay as true to the character as possible, since Law is a character I really connected with, so I want to give something that's as close to him as possible.

Minors do not interact.

From time to time Lawrence will post "photos," I can't promise there will be many since it's him.

The creator outside of RP is @corpsesnuffi (me), If you'd like to see more of my art, you can check out my main account.

Have fun and take care of yourself.

[ferventcare]

Why don’t you think you’d be able to attract someone’s attention like that? I think you’re interesting enough. I want to know more about you. I want to see how you live your day to day life. It looks like plenty of other people have taken an interest in you, as well.

I think you have the wrong perspective of me; I don't think I'm interesting, I'm as average as anyone else.

It's just weird to think or even convince myself that someone could be interested in me like that, seriously.

Oh right, sorry for the delay, I've been busy with work.

[ferventcare]

Ohh, do you collect bones? That’s super cool! I used to macerate carcasses I’d find in the woods by my old place. Do you ever take your art home, or do you keep it in the woods? I’d love to learn more.

I don't feel it's right to keep it in my place; it feels like something that shouldn't be there. I'd prefer to keep it somewhere like the forest.

To be honest, the forest feels more like home to me, so to speak.

[ferventcare]

Why don’t you like it? You can tell me if you want, I don’t like mines either. No judgment at all.

My body doesn't feel like my own; it's a shell containing constantly decaying flesh, if that's what you wanted to know.

[ferventcare]

If you knew someone was always watching you, would it make you feel less alone? Or would the thought of being observed unsettle you? You seem like a lonely person.

That would never happen; I'm not someone who would attract anyone's attention like that.

[thebashfulbotanist]

Here's a plant that you're not likely to see outside of the Southwestern US or Baja California: Malacothamnus, the bush mallow. Although fairly recognizable at the genus level, they're extremely hard to ID to species. They're typically found in very early successional areas that have experienced recent fire. This plant, from the San Gorgonio wilderness, was growing in an area heavily burned in the 2016 Valley Fire.

Because several species of Malacothamnus are endangered and as a whole they're so challenging to tell apart, it's best to avoid disturbing them, whenever possible.

[ferventcare]

Just wondering what you like..I was curious because I won’t lie, I’ve taken a liking to you.

You...don't know me, I'm a stranger.

[ferventcare]

What do you think of your life?

It's not something I enjoy.

[ferventcare]

What music do you listen to?

I don't really listen to music; I usually spend my days in silence. I'd say that silence is something I enjoy.

However, there is one band I do like, it's called Cranes, I usually listen to them from time to time; I enjoy the sounds. Mmh, this is a song I like.

[ferventcare]

What do you think of life and death?

I feel familiar with death; it's a state of decay, something you feel and yet don't. Have you heard how people describe feeling when death is coming?, It's true, it's so true that it can be a little scary; it appears and falls on you like a weight, and then you feel nothing, but I don't think it's quite like that, you can feel it, and at the same time it's a state of pure calm that's chilling, as if it shouldn't be that way. You're supposed to feel calm, but you don't. It stalks you like a predator stalks its prey, and it is constant.

It's been a while since I've felt life around me; it's as if everything around me is constantly moving, everything works as it should and follows its cycle, and I feel like an intruder.

Thanks for asking.

[ferventcare]

You get the same dreams too..? - 🦴

I think so.

[ferventcare]

What do you find attractive in a person? What traits?

I wouldn't know how to answer that.

Why would you want to know?

[ferventcare]

what’s the best or worst dream you ever had?

the weirdest one I had was going to some..kind of river? at least it seemed like one. everything seemed foggy, or had no color, I’m not sure. it looked endless, too..It also wasn’t deep since I could walk in it and I remember before waking up there there was something bad that happened. A man was involved but I don’t remember the whole thing and why he was there, but it was like the river was there for me to pass through from life to death. ended up finding a way out of there, though.

This is...very similar to something I keep repeating in my head, something that already happened and my body still longs for.

I don't think I could categorize my dreams as worse or better; they all feel suffocating, as if they were eating my brain.

[ferventcare]

You mentioned earlier that you're involved in other creative endeavors.

If you don't mind answering, what kind of creative endeavor is that?

It's hard to explain. I have a, mh, a place in a forest where I keep my art; these pieces come from nature itself, from what living beings leave behind after death, I like taking them and giving them a place, doing something that seems to make sense in my mind. For me it is beautiful; its remains and the beauty that nature and other living beings create with these bodies seem precious to me.

[ferventcare]

sorry for the late reply, my bf and I just broke up so I was busy but yeah! it’s interesting, hopefully this isn’t seen as weird too..but sometimes when I look at plants or flowers, they remind me of people. -🦴

feel like I’d resemble a rose more.

I can feel the same way. Flowers are liars, they are a big colorful display, made to trick insects into helping them reproduce or feeding them. They are not honest about what they want, needing and taking what they require to live.

[ferventcare]

do you like art? here’s one of mine..- 🦴

I could say yes, I can appreciate a piece if I see it.

I like how you drew the flower, it looks just like the real one.

[ferventcare]

do you collect any insect parts? beetle wings, cicada shells, butterflies or spiders? one of the fiest things i preserved was a little bitty spider i found in a death curl under my fridge. i put it in a circular container with hand sanitizer, (the alcohol is enough of a preservative for most insects) adjusted the legs and changed out the sanitizer when it got cloudy. ever done anything similar?

I wouldn't say I collect them, but if they die I keep them, usually near my plants; that's what attracts them. It's calming to see them, both dead and alive; they're like silent companions, they only do what they do because that's what they were born to do, and that's it.

I couldn't say if I'm a collector; I've never thought about what I do in that sense.