Fidds

// POETRY, QUOTES & MUSIC //

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@jarfidd

[fidds6]

I’m surrounded by distractions. I haven’t found a way to block all the sounds that pound away in my head. I sit there whilst they circulate around my mind. As a result, I procrastinate until I hate myself for being unable to create something that I love.

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[fidds6]

Music helps fill a void that is empty and avoid the issues my mind won’t let me. Everyday these songs allow me to sleep peacefully as each lyric resonates with me. I want to drift away as I forget about tomorrow. In this moment, the music eases all my worries. In this moment, everything is okay.

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[fidds6]

I don’t feel like myself anymore. I want to restore everything that made me, me. I want to look in a mirror and adore who I am instead of not wanting to exist anymore. Where’s my humour gone? Where’s my motivation? I don’t enjoy waking up questioning what I exist for.

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[fidds6]

I feel broken. I can’t open myself up to those I’ve known a long time. The last time I spoke about the thing that lurks beneath my skin I almost ripped my skin off me.

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[theprocast]

“Don’t lose to your own mind. It’s devious and corrupted. Hear the cheers from those who love you. Those who surround you with praises of your minor victories and biggest accomplishments. Appreciate them every day. Don’t hold petty grudges. Don’t find excuses for your mind to weave cruel narratives that project lies. Don’t absorb the abuse your mind screams. Better yourself from it. Your greatest nemesis is your greatest motivator. Prove yourself wrong. Dream your dreams and chase them.”

— @fidds6

[theprocast]

You’re worth a lot more than the people who made you think you had no value.

You’re beautiful, and powerful, no matter what they say // J.A.Fiddy @jarfidd (via theprocast)

[fidds6]

I am mentally ambidextrous. I could see myself in a mirror and see something beautiful. But in the same day I could see my reflection and despise everything about me.

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[fidds6]

I struggle finding meaning in life when everything is defeating me. I struggle finding any purpose to existence but I’m determined not to exit. Maybe it’s the simple things that I’ve got to focus on. Like the adventures, road trips, breakfast’s with friends. Rather than searching tirelessly to try be someone I am not.

@fidds6

[theprocast]

“Alcoholic remedies, comatose melodies, medicine in the form of liquor. Catastrophic memories, antidote recipes, medicine in the form of mixers. This is not how the teens should be.”

— This is not how the teens should be / Written by J.A.Fiddy ( @fidds6 ) 

[theprocast]

“Will you notice me through my arts and my creativity? Will you know it’s me at the start of my poetry? Dozens of questions swarm my mind as I seek purpose desperate to find reasoning for my existence. I’ll always remind myself, and you, that life’s worth living and undoubtably that’s true. No matter how blue the days may be, we have a whole spectrum of colours ahead of us. A beautiful world waiting to be viewed by an equally beautiful human, like you.”

— Written by J.A.Fiddy ( @fidds6 ) 

[theprocast]

“Happiness requires a difficult change in perspective, but not an impossible one. The potential for happiness and fulfilment is within everyone. Even you. Don’t ever doubt yourself.”

— @fidds6

[theprocast]

“I’m going to keep fighting cause I want to live. Don’t think my friends want to see me give up, but I can’t sleep right cause I am depressed. Everything in life has got me stressed. But there are some days I feel the sun, but then I cry in bed when the day is done cause days like this don’t happen all the time and it’ll be another year until I feel this fine. I don’t take meds cause I don’t trust pills, I’d take too many then my guts would spill but I’d come back to them to get my fill and then they’d finish me off with a final kill. I know when I’m dead so many would mourn. No more mornings, no more songs are born. They say there’s a new day every dawn but I’m nocturnal and my scars have torn.”

— Poem by J.A.Fiddy ( @fidds6 ) 

[theprocast]

“Take me far away from this city that I hate.”

— @fidds6

[fidds6]

“In a world of sadness that’s deprived of peaceful minds, my biggest fear isn’t spiders, snakes or pain: I’m scared of raising a child who may never become an adult.”

— Suicide. // Written by J.A.Fiddy ( @jarfidd )

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