Who I am is who this is.

Everett Garrett Harrison. Ice Dragon 1852 Years old

[firefighting-angel-blog]

He stared down at his feet as she held onto his arms. “A break.” He nodded, drawing in a deep breath. He looked up, the tears spilling out of his eyes. “You don’t get it. I guess I was wrong.” He told her staring at her, his hear bursting and breaking at the same time. “I love you Ly. I have loved you since before Sho.” He told her, gently pulling his arms away from her. He was struggling with keeping control. His eyes flashing again, that deep blue, emotion overtaking him. He needed to keep it together. He couldn’t let the inner beast take control right now.

[the-older-leung]

It was everything she had ever feared. This. This confrontation. This happening. Ly saw some small chances where his feelings were a little more obvious than other instances. But the banshee had always thought of herself as an overanalytic one. She shouldn’t read too much into it. But she was wrong. Had been for centuries. That was why she kept herself away from Ev, snuffing out any butterfly in the stomach and fast pace of the heart. Refusing to let him go, Ly moved until he had to look at her. “You never said anything.”

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All he said  and all he was feeling and that was all she had to say. His breathing became more shallow as he attempted to control himself. “Why would I? You always leave and you never said anything to me. You never let anything on, But this time was different. This time you had seemed open and like you wanted the same, And then Sho.” He said shaking his head. “And now, you’re married. So what does it matter? It doesn’t. Please Ly, I can’t watch you again be in love with someone else and not me. I can’t.” He told her.

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He stared down at his feet as she held onto his arms. “A break.” He nodded, drawing in a deep breath. He looked up, the tears spilling out of his eyes. “You don’t get it. I guess I was wrong.” He told her staring at her, his hear bursting and breaking at the same time. “I love you Ly. I have loved you since before Sho.” He told her, gently pulling his arms away from her. He was struggling with keeping control. His eyes flashing again, that deep blue, emotion overtaking him. He needed to keep it together. He couldn’t let the inner beast take control right now.

[firefighting-angel-blog]

He walked away from her, lookng anywhere but at her. “You said leave you guys alone, you said, your exact words, let us be.” He shook his head, turbing to look at her again. “How else should I have seen that? And I understood. She chose you. She wanted you more than me and I got it. So when you requested I leave you alone, I did. I left you two to be.” He said sighing. “I didn’t say that.. Between us both, and because I wasn’t there.” He said shaking his head, tears threatening to spill out of his eyes. “And then you left. I cam back, to be there and you left me, alone. So when I heard you were married and living in my town now, I avoided you. I couldn’t do it. I couldn’t see you.” He said keeping his distance.

[the-older-leung]

Ly’s eyes widened when he started moving away. Out of instinct, she fell into steps almost immediately. But trying to reach him again was proving to be futile. He was angry and there were some parts of Ly that was scared to face the anger. She wanted to look at him. She had always had. It allowed her to see him and hear his words more clearly. And when he did turn around, Ly was drowning in the sadness radiating from Ev. “I never wanted you to go away. I never wanted you to leave us like that. I only wanted you to give us a chance because your presence there made…” Made what, Ly? WHAT? Ly screamed at herself from inside. “What would you have me do? Stay? We never stay. Never have we stayed together despite how much time we spent together. We’ve always parted our ways when we have run our course. You know it is. I was vulnerable after Shos died. I didn’t want you to see me like that. I was only doing what we have been doing all these years.”

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He wanted to ask what else she was going to say, but stopped himself. He walked away again. He shook his head as he heard her words. He stopped walking again, but not looking at her. It was as if his nerve to speak his mind would leave if he could see her face. “She had just died.And you left me to deal with everything. You didn’t even say good bye. This was different and you know it. I needed you Ly. You were the only one who could understand and you abandoned me. I had always thought, but when you left, I knew I was wrong. But to marry someone else.” He began pacing again, facing away from her. “How was I supposed to deal with this. You left me alone and now you were suddenly back and married.” He kept rambling on.

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He walked away from her, lookng anywhere but at her. “You said leave you guys alone, you said, your exact words, let us be.” He shook his head, turbing to look at her again. “How else should I have seen that? And I understood. She chose you. She wanted you more than me and I got it. So when you requested I leave you alone, I did. I left you two to be.” He said sighing. “I didn’t say that.. Between us both, and because I wasn’t there.” He said shaking his head, tears threatening to spill out of his eyes. “And then you left. I cam back, to be there and you left me, alone. So when I heard you were married and living in my town now, I avoided you. I couldn’t do it. I couldn’t see you.” He said keeping his distance.

[firefighting-angel-blog]

When she said they should leave, he didn’t protest, he didn’t say a word. He grabbed a few bucks from his wallet to make sure he covered his food order and followed her out. As he walked a few steps behind her, his hands shoved in his pockets. When they arrived at the empty park he stopped in front of her, still not looking at her, staring t that ground as if it it were the most interesting bit of ground he had ever seen. As she spoke he drew in a breath and held it. He could feel her looking at him and he didn’t want to look up. But her last words bit at him and he did. Hurt and anger filled the deep pools of blue, his jaw clenched and his head shaking. “Are you kidding me? I wasn’t there, not by choice. You told me to leave. You told me to I need to go. She was happier with you and I needed to stop being there as a reminder.” He said angrily, breathing deeply. “I should have never left. If I was there, She wouldn’t have died, not then,” He told her, his guilt, the thing that had been eating at him, finally saying it outloud.

[firefighting-angel-blog]

He picked up the coffee that was sitting in front of him, sipping  it to help regain that control he had always prided himself on having. He bit on his lower lip as she asked the question. He was surprised but not at the same time. He went to speak and felt his throat closing. He cleared his throat slightly before speaking. “The last time I saw you...” he said trailing off softly before shaking his head. “this is why. I didn’t want to do this.” He said picking up his coffee and drinking it again. He felt his control slipping. He cleared his throat again, desperate to change the subject. He nodded towards the ring on her finger. “I see you’ve found happiness again.” He did his best not to sound bitter. But before he could stop himself the words were coming. “Do you love her? I mean do you really love her?” He asked not looking at her, looking in his coffee cup, staring at it as if it were going to answer him and tell him what to do and how to handle this.

[firefighting-angel-blog]

Ev thought his heart stopped for a second, before he realized she was really there. Like few other times in his life, he caught himself emotionally unprepared to see her. And before he could stop it, his eyes flashed that crystal blue that so few had seen. That blue right before he transforms. Thankfully he caught himself and was able to keep control, only his eyes betraying him. He forced a smile on his face attempting to be casual and not affected. “I know. Its been a few years since i saw you last.” He told her before shrugging. “Oh a little while. “ He sighed. “I had heard you were here.” He admitted to her. He had avoided her at all costs, almost always avoiding anywhere she might be. “So, what’s new?” He asked her, trying to keep the conversation moving and avoid awkward silences if he could.

[firefighting-angel-blog]

Ev chuckled at the man next to him before turning around to see the voice next to him. He nearly fell off the chair when he heard her. He had heard she lived in town and now he saw her. This was going to happen eventually. He just wasn’t prepared for it today. He swallowed hard before turning to look at her. “Long time no see. How are you Ly?” He asked her trying to smile kindly at her.

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Win one for the team||Ev&Tuyet

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Ev chuckled at her comment. “A panda? It suits you Tuyet.” He smiled at her gripping his own water gun. “ And no cheating.” He said as he stared down the aim here spot. He was going to win it, he could feel it. Besides he knew he would never hear the end of it if she won.

The bell rang and the race started. He stared down the spot, the water going in directly. He wasn’t paying attention to anything around him. When the bell goes off he looked up to see his light lit. He jumped up shouting. “HA!!” He took the unicorn from the carnival guy. “Don’t be sad Tuy, you an always hug your panda.” He said chuckling.

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You and me and a bottle makes three || Ev&Ly

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He shook his head. “No, it was Eliza. But I think it did the trick when she saw my tail on accident.” He said with a shrug. He couldn’t keep the smile off his face when she mentioned the song. “Cheek to Cheek.” HE said simply. “why would you want me to sing that song?” He asked her.

[the-older-leung]

“Why do I have a hard time believing it was an accident that she saw your tail?” Ly chuckled, while poking a finger at his chest teasingly. And when she looked up, the sight that greeted her was one that she had not since in years: his smile. “Oh you dumb-dumb, you forgot, didn’t you?” Now she was littering light punches on his hard chest. “That was the first movie we saw together. Before we went separated ways again until Shoshanna.” 

[firefighting-angel-blog]

Ev smirked. "I would never knowingly expose a human to my kind. It could be dangerous." He said feigning concern. He shook his head. "I didn't forget. I never forget. You were wearing that red dress, the one you always wore that hat with that had the feather on it." he told her, his eyes staring into her. He was standing closer than he had meant to. Her sweet scent wafted into his nose, filling him with that feeling of want and need he had pushed away for so long. He drew in a breath and held it, waiting to see what she said, how she reacted before he did anything else. If they stayed this close much longer though, any resolve, any bit of chivalry he might had would be gone and he would kiss her.

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You and me and a bottle makes three || Ev&Ly

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He shook his head. “No, it was Eliza. But I think it did the trick when she saw my tail on accident.” He said with a shrug. He couldn’t keep the smile off his face when she mentioned the song. “Cheek to Cheek.” HE said simply. “why would you want me to sing that song?” He asked her.

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You and me and a bottle makes three || Ev&Ly

[the-older-leung]

Ev shrugged his shoulders. “I think you give me more credit than I deserve.” He said. “She was so heartbroken when I turned her down. I tried to do it kindly and gently, but she saw you and just assumed.” He glanced at her quickly before shaking his head and looking forward again. “I wasn’t. I was asking about the festival. I was wondering what you were looking forward to. I already have my set list ready for the show. I am doing four songs.” He told her.

The memory brought laughter from her. “Oh, I kept forgetting to tell you this: right after we parted and before I was about to take off, she sent a few people at my door. I can’t remember what they said but it was something along the line of staying away from you if I didn’t want get hurt.” She was laughing hysterically at this point. But she figured she should compose herself before she weirded out the situation. “Well, my favorite part of the whole thing would have to be the third day when we don’t have to restrain ourselves in front of human tourists.” Her face was cheerful. “Out of curiosity, would you have changed the list if I asked nicely?”

[firefighting-angel-blog]

“She was quite the persistent one. Because after you left and she came to ‘console’ me, her father game and attempted to bribe me. He offered me a lordship and a castle and whole lot of things. I thought about taking him up on it. But then that whole I’m an ice dragon thing reminded me, what an awful idea it was. When I turned him down. She turned up at my room and tried to seduce me. I felt bad for the girl. I think she was trying to get me to sleep with her to trap me.” He chuckled. “Needless to say, I handle it and she finally let me go.” He told her. “That will be a fun day, for sure.” He nodded. “I don’t know. Depends on what you wanted to hear. Try me.” He said turning to look at her now, slowing is walk until he had stopped in front of her now, his arms crossed on his chest.

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You and me and a bottle makes three || Ev&Ly

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“I am not surprised.” He said with a nod. He placed his hands in his pockets as he went, a nervous tick, something to keep himself from wringing his hands and grabbing her hand and holding her close. He sighed. “No, no wooing. Just thought I would share my angelic sounds with the rest of the world. Its time for me to get on stage again.” He said. “Anything you are looking forward to the most?” He asked as he kept walking, not really looking at her. 

[the-older-leung]

Ly was well aware of her shortness and the fact that she would always need to keep up with people. She was used to it: it didn’t tire her out like it did when she was in her 70s. With Everett, it was a slower pace: they had been walking around with each other for centuries after all. But it ached her that he was not looking at her. They used to be so friendly and fun. “Oh please, someone is bound to fall for you when you sing. Remember that brown haired girl in the tavern near Stratford-upon-Avon, who hated me because she thought I was your love lady.” Ly chuckled at the memory. “Didn’t know you were taking requests. Ev!”  

[firefighting-angel-blog]

Ev shrugged his shoulders. “I think you give me more credit than I deserve.” He said. “She was so heartbroken when I turned her down. I tried to do it kindly and gently, but she saw you and just assumed.” He glanced at her quickly before shaking his head and looking forward again. “I wasn’t. I was asking about the festival. I was wondering what you were looking forward to. I already have my set list ready for the show. I am doing four songs.” He told her.

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You and me and a bottle makes three || Ev&Ly

[firefighting-angel-blog]

“I am not surprised.” He said with a nod. He placed his hands in his pockets as he went, a nervous tick, something to keep himself from wringing his hands and grabbing her hand and holding her close. He sighed. “No, no wooing. Just thought I would share my angelic sounds with the rest of the world. Its time for me to get on stage again.” He said. “Anything you are looking forward to the most?” He asked as he kept walking, not really looking at her. 

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You and me and a bottle makes three || Ev&Ly

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Everett nodded at her mentioning of the others. “I saw Tuyet. I actually one a unicorn. Had beat her to get it. Not sure she is that happy about it.” He said with  a smirk. “I would never throw a baseball at you. You two distracted me. Not like it mattered. She only had eyes for you.” He said with a small shrug. “Have you been around the whole place?” He asked her as he started walking, assuming she would follow. “I am singing tomorrow.” He told her. It was something he hadn’t done in awhile, but he used to all the time. He missed it and was forcing himself to get back on stage.

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You and me and a bottle makes three || Ev&Ly

He had not expected to run into her. It was the last thing he needed if he were honest. There had been a point at which he thought those feelings he head, were gone. But he was wrong. Because the moment he saw her and heard her voice, he heard Shoshana’s voice in his head saying the words he had hardly admitted to himself. He loved Ly too. So when he came to the fair he figured he would run into her, he had already seen her sister. When he saw her he felt that flutter feeling in his stomach and sighed to himself as he approached her. “Well, I can’t imagine you came all on your own today did you?” He asked her as he approached her from behind.

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Win one for the team||Ev&Tuyet

Everett was having a great time at the fair. And now he was determined to win a prize at the fair. He wanted to win the biggest one which meant he had to play it over and over again, because as much as he might have wanted to, he couldn’t use magic to get it. So he had worked his way up on the water gun and only had one more win to get him what he wanted, the giant unicorn. He looked to his left and to his right as he saw the new group of people sit down, when he saw the girl next to him.

“Ah Tuyet. Do you think you can beat me?” He asked with a smirk. He knew she was competitive and there was a chance he could lose. He buckled down and looked ahead at where he was to aim.

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