Write again.

Demon from her past has come back and she's about to write her future, again.

[firestonefox]

I miss my one and the only male best friend

He is now married.

I’m married too.

Even I’m married to my husband, I’ve never felt a very strong connection like the one that I have with him.

We share common interests.

We share the same likes and dislikes.

His words comfort me. Whenever I was feeling down and sad, his presence warmed my heart.

I miss talking to him but it’s now impossible.

I know he is respecting his wife and cutting ties between us. It hurts to acknowledge that we are now just memories. What we had was very special, a beautiful platonic relationship that only both of us understand.

I miss you, H.

I miss us, being silly together. Travelling and discovering things together.

I know, it’s not the same anymore. The only thing that left behind is our memories...

[thedistantwallflower]

[televisionquoteseverywhere]

Friends With Benefits Tommy Bollinger

[firestonefox]

and I’ve never been that “someone”

[remanence-of-love]

I actually thought you were different…

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Deeply fucked up…

[20somethingandstilllost]

To me you were home, to you I was just a vacation.

Sade Andria Zabala (Coffee and Cigarettes)

[geminigypsystuff]

I would forget everything I know about you and learn it all over again if it meant I could talk to you again.

Hoping you miss me (via geminigypsystuff)

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[nirvana-though]

If you decide to be friends with benefits with someone, never stay for cuddles. Never let him kiss you on your forehead, cheeks or nose. Do your business and leave. Cause we women have a habit of falling in love when we let things like these happen

(via nirvana-though)

oh fuck

[mycastleofchaos]

Remind yourself, you are not allowed to fall in love with him.

(via mycastleofchaos)

[firestonefox]

Am I not worth for anyone, anymore?

I’m not sure if I began to catch feelings for him but I surely don’t like it to know that he is more than just emotionally unavailable because he is still attached to his ex girlfriend.

It irked me a lot when we are supposed to chill and she called, then you pick up her call instantly. 

You even dared to make remarks like asking me to come over when I will be away next time, or “entah-entah” I will have another FWB over there.

Please.

Just get the hell away from me.

Are my feelings no worth for anyone, anymore?

I don’t feel hurt but I do feel sad.

I don’t want to think there is someone out there for me because it never works with anyone, every single time.

To feel wanted. To feel desired. 

I don’t feel lonely but to feel unwanted and undesirable are enough to make me feel like my presence, my time, my feelings, my heart are not worth for anyone.

[firestonefox]

What went wrong?

Ever since I refused to answer his questions regarding his sexual performance, I felt a little distant. Obviously, he lost interest in me. He’s no longer checking up on me. No, I’m not strung out but it bothers me a lot.

I knew it this not gonna work out. 

I told you, you can’t never be friends with the girl you slept with.

I’m so right. You are so wrong.

Now you don’t wanna talk to me. I felt like you started to get annoyed by me. Like this morning. You no longer found my joking funny but you got sensitive about it and correct me. I didn’t mean to belittle your cancer neither your illness. Maybe my ex boyfriend was right about me. I’m immature. Idk. Because I’m still being carefree, don’t take things seriously, and such. 

But you don’t have to be so cold to  me. I’m so done with you. I don’t wanna talk to you anymore. You said you can be friends but you prove me otherwise. 

But seriously, you gave me a sheet of question regarding your sexual performance and I should evaluate you like some kind of machine? I fucked with person. I respect you as a person. I might feeling a bit of emotion but I’m still heartless. Why the fuck you’re scared me being emotional? I don’t have anything to give, anything to offer anymore. I’m emotional damaged. The only good thing about you is your damn dick. Fuck you.

[firestonefox]

My parent’s love

There’s always a blessing disguise.

I’m 26 years old, jobless, unemployed and still living at home with my parents. I might have missed out things in life unlike my friends but then I began to realized something. Everyday I wake up to see my parent’s love blossoming. They are in their 60s. We are currently have a major house renovation and since then I’ve seen unspoken love between them. I just realized how much my dad dependent to my mom when it comes to decision making. He will never decide things on his own but he always ask my mom first. It’s not like my mom is a queen control but because my dad put my mom in a position of queen that he would be pleased if my mom likes it too.

Dad will always have small talk with her, complain things to her, and she will always listen attentively. Even without me around, I knew both of them take care of each other very well. I can see that they are co-dependent since they got married. Now I truly understand why all the greatest love story will have the man build the home for the woman that he truly loves. Just like what my dad is doing now. Because it’s the woman he loves make the house feels like home and that is why every touch of her liking is very important to him.

And this house, is the proof of his love to her not to his children I’d say. Haha. This is a blessing. People around my age will be away and busy working or having a family of their own and they couldn’t witness the true love between their parents. I love my parents so much. They literally sacrificed everything for their children.  Thank you mom, thank you dad. You both are irreplaceable.

Even though I no longer believe in true love for myself, at least I believe yours are the best one.

[firestonefox]

He's my treasure

I texted him last night showing my graduation certificate. Because I really wanna share that little piece of happiness with him. He responded well and we started to have small talk. That's when I realized, he was that missing part of me. We're bonded so much that when I pushed him away, I got myself lost. He was my focused person, he was my person. We both made mistakes and all I want from him now is our friendship. I missed my bestfriend.

[firestonefox]

True friend is a treasure

What's right for one might be as wrong for another. So everything is individual. You can definitely live with or without but the choice you make will shape your life forever. Life is about progressing, so anything that contributes to that is healthy and the right thing to do. At the same time, life is also about happiness, so it's the same rule. Anything that keeps you happy is right and anything that's not is otherwise. So I guess the equation is progressing happily. Find that balance. True friend is a treasure. If he is one, you will find it in him. If he's not, you're good on your own too. Life is like a train journey. People you meet are those you come across only to accompany you for the moment and very few that actually stay.