The Four [Alice]
She'd just wanted to go back to camp. She wanted to go back and pretend that she could be safe for just a few more hours. She wanted to pretend that eventually, she wouldn't have to die or turn on her ally. She didn't want to fight anymore. She was tired. She was so damn tired.
But no one cared much what Alice wanted. Almost the entire country wanted her dead, whether it be for entertainment, justice for her slaying another tribute, or because they wanted their own tribute home. Or, for three others, because they wanted to go home. And really, she didn't blame them for that. She didn't particularly want them dead but, their deaths were the ends to a mean. She wanted to go home. And they were her ticket out.
So of course, the second she turned her back on the cornocopia, they were there. Mortag was beside her and maybe, a few days ago, that would have made her feel more safe. He was loyal, they both were, it was the very basis of their alliance. She knew, at least then, that he wouldn't turn on her before it was necessary. And vice versa. But now, with their only two competitors standing in front of them, it wouldn't be too hard for him to kill the three of them then and there. Or for one of the others. She was the last standing female tribute. And she was a lot smaller than any of them, less strong. A couple of good blows and she'd be dead.
But being small hadn't stopped her before and it wasn't going to stop her now. She gave a small nod to Mortag. He'd take on one, she'd take on the other. And then...well...if they both made it, they had their arrangement. If not, then it would be easier. But she still couldn't wish ill will upon him, he had after all been the one who came back for her when she was injured, cared for her when he could have killed her with his bare hands. So instead, she turned to her opponent.
She believed his name was Mason, for a moment, she felt pity for him. There was a glint in his eyes. Madness. He hadn't made it through this intact. At least not as well as the rest of them. And she couldn't blame him for it. Definitely not. She pulled out her dagger, and raised her buckler in defense. She could do this. She could win.
It was over sooner than she thought. Somehow she thought that them being so close to the end, that they'd all be more vicious than before, desperate to win. But more it seemed they had grown weary, tired. The boy in front of her didn't even seem to notice when her blade pierced his chest. He seemed very confused by it all as he crumpled to the ground and she almost felt sick. Because she'd killed him, he was dying, and he didn't even seem to know.
"I'm sorry." She whispered quietly. "I'm so sorry."
And then there was a noise, when she thought about it later, she considered that she might have been as far gone as Mason, that she didn't notice it sooner until Loden's blade was so close to her, if she'd turned at the wrong moment, he would have slit her throat. But as soon as it had happened, he was gone. A deafening shout of pain and then nothing, but a smirk little noise from her ally.
That was when she turned. And she was more scared than she had ever been. Because now it was just the two of them, and her stomach continued to churn at the eery thought of 'it's him or me'. She looked up at him, and he didn't seem phased at all. It was to be expected. Neither of them had been particularly friendly. Quiet, keeping to themselves. Only really speaking about strategy or supplies.
She put away her weapons, as a sign of a temporary truce to their now shattered alliance. She didn't think it would ever actually come down to this. Or maybe she did and just tried to delude herself into believing it wouldn't. Did their deal still stand? It had to. She had to believe that he would remain honorable, especially now. But really, who would?
She clenched her fists a little and internally sighed. Alice was many things, but not weak. Never weak. And she wanted to go home. It had never really hit her but now there was an ache in her chest and she wanted to be at home with her family and away from this place, a broken city coloured with blood, she wanted to be safe again. To sleep in her bed. To have someone to talk to without fearing weakness.
And goddamn it, she was going to go home.
"So this is it, huh?"
'I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.' Her mind whispered. 'I'm sorry that one of us has to die. But mostly, I'm sorry it's going to be you.'
She unclenched her fist and almost smiled. Because, while she was sorry for almost everything, their situation, the people she'd killed, the people she hadn't saved, the person she would kill. She wasn't sorry for the most important thing.
Alice wasn't sorry that she was going to win.









