Welp, that's awkward... Haven't made a post here for a while. I guess y'all deserve an update or smth hehe.
While I was gone, lots of stuff happened: a major breakup, finally found love, t4t, fulltime girlmoding, and lots of other things I wouldn't mind talking about here :з
Sooo let's start with the elephant in the room: Kseniil broke up with me :з It was painful, but right before she did it, both of us found our new love interests: I found Diana, my little foxy girl, and she found Ded(transmasc Enbies with their naming schemes ), her little society menace(no offence, I miss ya dude).Our relationship was deeply toxic, probably from it's inception so it was a good decision on Kseniil's part for sure.
Second of all: Diana is also a trans woman, just like me. Being in a t4t relationship feels soo good. I do t have to explain my dysphoria or any other aspect of my identity to her, she innately understands all of it.We even do each other E shots, come on, how awesome does it get.
With her, and her extraverted mentality, lots of new people appeared in my life, new great friends found, awesome new experiences as well. Our relationship is really stable somehow, even though I'm still recovering mentally after lots of bad shit happening in my life.
I love that woman so so much, she's soooo gorgeous it's insane. Sometimes her dysphoria genuinely confuses me because of how good her "pass" is. She's also a talented singer, even though she couldn't pursue a career in the feild.Myabe I'll sneak in a pic of her here, we'll see :з
The third part: girlmodding. I've recently hit the one year HRT mark, and I couldn't be happier about the results. I haven't "boy succeeded" in ages, even when I try. Hell, I remember telling a professor my dead name, and he still called me "miss" when trying to talk to me. I've done activities I wouldn't have dreamed of, like girlmoding with my also trans gf to a beach in a largely tfobic country. I've never felt soo good on a beach before. We swam a lot and it was awesome. We bought awesome one-piece swimsuits and both looked soo cute :з Since I've quit uni again (too much stuff happened couldn't find motivation to continue), I've been girlmodding everywhere, my wardrobe expanded a lot, I've bought heels and winter boots with heels as well, hell I fking love heels now, even though I'm tall as it is, and people look at me a lot, I'm still not getting clocked, only as a tall cool looking woman, or so I hope. Hell, I remember sitting in a bar with my friend , she's also a tfem but a lot earlier on in transition and some guy ordered us drinks!! It was soo cool :з The most important part is: my focus shifted from trying to pass to just looking beautiful, and it feels liberating. My boobs also grew substantially, t-shirts can no longer hide them :з pics attached :зз
Anyhoo, I might consider posting more here, however I doubt anyone actually reads these posts anyway lol :з was nice talking to y'all
