Ishida’s afterword part 5
Please feel to correct me if there are any mistakes. Ishida’s handwriting is hard to read at times so I may have gotten some words wrong. (source of the afterword)
I’m truly happy that I was able to finish Tokyo Ghoul.
Once it was set free, I was able to think a lot about myself that I had done by drawing this work. About myself, creativity, drawing, the creative industry. I was also able to meet lots of great people.
For the last half year, I really enjoyed drawing Tokyo Ghoul. I discovered and learned to appreciate all sorts of things.
“Why am I drawing manga?”
If I ask myself that now, my answer would be: “Because it was necessary.”
Tokyo Ghoul is a crude, unpolished work, but I love it nonetheless.
Those who have been involved with the series, those who have been reading the series. I have nothing but gratitude to whoever is reading this sentence right now.
Thank you from the bottom of my heart.
This is a diary entry I wrote 9 years ago. I discovered it recently.
I want to bring this immature young man out here and bring shame upon him.
Amen to myself of 9 years past.
I’ve arrived in Tokyo. I am living alone.
Looking back at my diary, I can see just how rough around the edges I was. Foolish, short-sighted, and fresh-faced.
For about 2 years (in technical college) I was a giant brat who couldn’t stop laughing.
Compare that to now and I sure have grown a lot! Looking back at the recent diary entries, it occurred to me, why didn’t I write a lot…
I want to grow, even a tiny bit…
Why do the diary entries from my technical college days have nothing but dreams written in them?
I must have been dozing for quite some time…
Right now I’m creating storyboards that I can bring to Shueisha. I’m bringing them in tomorrow at 17:30.
It’s a story about war. Though I’m not sure whether I can draw a sci-fi with my skills as they are now.
Sometimes I’m at a loss, and there have been times I’ve had regrets.
Like, what was the point of me going to technical school for the last 5 years?
Or if you tried harder, would you be living a better life? Stuff like that.
But everything in the past is connected to the present.
Every mistake, every bit of suffering, every little success is creating the person that I am today.
If I can acknowledge myself now, that will acknowledge everything in the past.
All my failures are all a part of who I am today.
If I’m happy now, I owe it to my past (and of course to my present) self.
I can’t acknowledge myself 100%. But I kinda like who I am.
Then I can’t be that bad, right?
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