Harden My Heart

It is in my nature to be kind, gentle and loving... BUT KNOW THIS: When it comes to matters of protecting my friends, my family and my heart... Do not trifle with me. For I'm also the most powerful and relentless creature you will ever know...

[fletcher-trinket-blog]

I can’t be the only Scot offended by the fact that Mary Queen of Scots was given an English accent in Reign.

I have no idea why I decided to watch it.

[thirstprone-deactivated20200211]

“And I care about you…” She would respond with in a slight muffled tone that vibrated through their lips. She could swear she felt something tightening inside her chest.

[fletcher-trinket-blog]

“I thought you loved me?” Fletcher pulled back to see the vampire’s face. A small smile almost stretched his lips as he looked around before looking back at her. Then guilt began to swell in his stomach, he always managed to fall back into the same cycle. “Just... give me time. I don’t know what I’m doing anymore... but this... it’s... something.”

[domxnxc-deactivated20150404]

“Fine. Now, gimme a slice.”

“——Yes! I knew it, I always knew it! If she makes you happy, go for it. I understand it has caused rift in the past, but… Chris has Quinn and you have… her. Hopefully. But, if she hurts you… I’ll kill her ——with kindness. Emotions are good, Fletch, really good.”

[fletcher-trinket-blog]

“You think I’m happy? Look at me, Penelope! I’ve beat myself up about this for centuries. I’ve tried caring before and I’ve had to stand by and watch while they got older and died. Clemence is a vampire, she’s immortal and you’d think that would make it easier but it doesn’t. One fucking stick of wood and she’s gone. I can’t die. Do you know how many times I’ve wished that I could? More than you know. How am I supposed to continue to feel like this and look my brother in the eye? Hey, Chris. I think I have feelings for your ex. You know, the one I fucked while you two were dating? Have a nice fucking day. It’s just not going to happen. How am I supposed to care about someone who my brother has threatened to kill the second she comes near me?”

[thirstprone-deactivated20200211]

“I would do anything for you. Therefore, the words are ignored.” She muttered briefly before their lips connected in the gentle manner that even surprised her.

[fletcher-trinket-blog]

“I... care about you,” he murmured in between touches of their lips. It was the only admittance he was willing to make. 

[domxnxc-deactivated20150404]

“I have pizza to keep me company, okay?”

“You can talk to me, you know.”

[fletcher-trinket-blog]

“Fine.”

“I still... feel something for Clemence. Happy now?”

[ellaxxtrinket]

“Your sexual escapades were certainly a lot more interesting than ours were.”

[fletcher-trinket-blog]

“At least I had fun. The last time I hear you guys going at it it sounded like two pieces of sandpaper being rubbed together.” 

[thirstprone-deactivated20200211]

“Atleast you are being honest. Which I appreciate. I won’t ask for you to say anything that is outside your comfort zone. Yet I shall remain a low profile if that is that you desire.”

[fletcher-trinket-blog]

“I need you to ignore everything Chris has said to you. Even if saying that makes me more of a monster than I already am.” With that, he pulled her face closer and kissed her, somewhat softer than his usual style.

[domxnxc-deactivated20150404]

“Well fine, then. Find someone else. —— You know, sometimes talking about yourself is good for the mind. You should try it.”

[fletcher-trinket-blog]

“That was supposed to be a joke, but fine, take it that way.”

“--- Every time I’ve tried it I’ve fucked something up.”

[thirstprone-deactivated20200211]

“Then what is it you want?”

[fletcher-trinket-blog]

“I don’t know, okay?! You have no idea how much I want to say those words; to have you gone so I never have to look at you again... but I can’t lie anymore. I’m done living a lie every single day of my life. I just don’t know anymore.”

[domxnxc-deactivated20150404]

“I’m not leaving either, Fletch. I’m not our mother, I don’t run from my family… Plus, you’re here. Who else is going to ask you dumb questions and annoy if not me, your big sister? ——Just curious. I worry, even though I know I don’t have to.”

[fletcher-trinket-blog]

“Pretty much the entire population of New Orleans annoys me. I’m sure I could find someone if I felt the need to be pestered. --- Yeah, well, the last time I talked about myself I made things worse so I’m not doing that again. Ever.”

[ellaxxtrinket]

“I’ve heard worse stories about you.”

[fletcher-trinket-blog]

“Oh yeah? Like what?”

[ellaxxtrinket]

“Yeah, yeah. Whatever. i’m still younger than Alan.”

[fletcher-trinket-blog]

“So Alan likes them young, huh? I really wish I could un-hear things.”

[thirstprone-deactivated20200211]

“Times have changed. What has happened in the past should be blaimed on my behalf. I take full responsabilty. I do not blame you for feeling the way you do. But all is in the past now. I am not like that girl anymore. I am not as naive anymore. All you have to say are 4 words. Tell me you don’t love me, that you do not care anymore and I will leave. It is all you have to do to remove the pain.”

[fletcher-trinket-blog]

“I can’t tell you that.”

[ellaxxtrinket]

“I’m like two years older than you.”

[fletcher-trinket-blog]

“That’s disturbing.”

[domxnxc-deactivated20150404]

“I’m not going to kill him. I don’t kill people. He was my first… The first I really loved, the first I ever bit… I couldn’t kill him, even if I tried. ———Are you doing okay? We have’t really talked lately.”

[fletcher-trinket-blog]

“Then either run or face it, there are no other options. I’m sure you’d just love to have a reason to leave. --- We’re not talking about me, okay?”

[ellaxxtrinket]

“I’m officially still your brother’s wife, Fletch. I don’t think he’d appreciate that.” She grinned, joking herself.

[fletcher-trinket-blog]

“And I’m officially not into old and crusty women. Don’t flatter yourself.”

[ellaxxtrinket]

“Oh, I’m sorry. My bad.” The traveler said as she ran into someone.

[fletcher-trinket-blog]

“I knew you always wanted to touch me,” Fletcher smirked. Of course, he was joking.