🌿Basil🌿

“ I’m always ready for an Adventure! “ || Year 3 Slytherin Student. || 17 Year old Canadian That goes to Hogwarts! || AUDHD , May 15th [Taurus]. || Cursed photos / Aspiring Artist, He / They / It . || ICP Enjoyer.

[flowerb00yz]

WARNING. VENT.

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I hate being the way I am. I hate being unable to move as much as I used to, I miss dancing. I miss being able to garden without limitations, I hate being like this. I hate being bedbound. I hate being in constant agonizing pain all the time, I wouldn’t want anybody I knew to ever deal with this kind of stuff. Because it hurts. It hurts too much.

I can just ride my night out through this, I still have yet to have access to the things I need. I want someone to hold me, yet touch burns. It stings. I want to feel clean again. Nothing was done, yet. I said it wouldn’t work. I just wanted out of the house, it’s not a game, it’s not funny, I wanna be normal. I wanna be fixed I don’t want to be broken for the rest of my life. I want someone to hold me. I don’t want to be alone. I just want someone to be here, I don’t care who it is, I’m just tired of being by myself, I’m sorry. I’m sorry I can’t do as many great things as I used to. I miss dancing. I miss being normal. Am I not fun anymore? Are they going to become tired of me? I’m scared. I’m tired of feeling aches so strong I feel it shaking my bones underneath my skin. I hate every second of it, it makes me feel nauseous but nothing will come up. It just hurts. Hurts, a lot. Too much, even. I wish I could be free of this.

…do I burden my friends by making them deal with me when I’m like this.?.. I can’t do anything. I can never get any of this right. I want to do something right. Why can’t I do anything right?? Will she even think it’s worth it trying to dance with me anymore.? Am I worth struggling for.? Am I just— a drowning mess.?

[flowerb00yz]

I am currently in a lot of pain.

If anyone has tea, or can get Ivy or Cassandra for me, I’d appreciate it. I may need someone to talk to until I can go to sleep. If I can, that is. This isn’t pleasant at all.

[flowerb00yz]

Hey, I’m still..- here…My physical health since back then has very quickly gone downhill, I apologize for my long absence.

[oversized-niffler]

Hello there..!

I saw other classmates doing this, so I thought I’d try as well

My name is Enderian Von Gruffle. Or just Ender for short… I am a transfer student all the way from Russia! Yes, I’m from Koldovstoretz. But I do hope my homeland and language doesn’t frighten you…

I enjoy dragons. A lot! And I also really like writing. Somehow I became a writer for the school’s newsletter so fast… I think I just caught many people’s eyes with my writing. I also enjoy studying. Especially about magical creatures- oh! And I forgot to mention…

I’m a metamorphmagus!

Hope that ain’t too frightening… Oh boy. Did I say too much?! I’m sorry! I’ll stop now!

[flowerb00yz]

I could’ve sworn I’ve seen you before..- hello! And don’t, worry. I’m not frightened..! Ah, either way, welcome! I hope you enjoy your stay, and if you ever need assistance with herbology or anything like that, along with creatures— considering I have a bit of a handful, I wouldn’t have any problems whatsoever showing you a few..! Just be gentle, most of them are ones I’ve been fostering- and don’t mind how big some of them are..- they’re sweet, I promise. Just- in their own way..atleast, the magical creatures, most of them are being fostered.

I Hope to get to know you more. But, until then..- Au Revoir!

[flowerb00yz]

Again. Warning for vent.

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Why does anyone want anything to do with me.

I don’t know what I’m supposed to do anymore. Death is tempting. It’s been tempting for months.

Do I annoy everyone?? Am I too pushy with Daniel? Does Colby actually like me, or am I delusional?? Am I good enough to be friends with someone like cherry?? Why does Fischer want anything to Do with me all of a sudden??..

Why should anyone like me. Am I good enough to talk to anyone.? Am I supposed to feel this way.? Do I just, stop existing.?. I don’t know what. To do. He’s getting out this summer. I can’t do it. I can’t. I know what that man has done. The headmistress contacted the authorities, they still haven’t done anything. The time is running out. My time is running out. I’m scared.

It’s so nice to see everyone find love but I just…what do I do..?? They want to go to Hogwarts too, one of them is already here— cherry wasn’t very pleased with how Cedric talked to me in the shop..nor was Mr. Weasley..I just- what am I to do.? I can’t just- tell them that’s how ALL of them talk to me…- I still need to provide. If I can’t do that, what more am I useful for.? I wish I were someone else. Anyone else. I don’t care. I’m just tired of being me. I’m tired of feeling dirty and broken like an old stuffed animal in the trash.

…Maybe a few wouldn’t be so bad, would they? My arms still sting. They haven’t noticed. The PROFESSORS haven’t noticed. Hopefully nobody sees this. It’s just journaling. I shouldn’t matter. Maybe I need a smoke. Or a drink. Or maybe I’m just delusional. Maybe I really am ‘begging for attention’. Maybe I asked for it. I don’t care, I need to apply for more jobs. More money, means I can provide more over the summer. It doesn’t matter if I run off of 5 minutes of sleep and caffeine. Nothing I do should matter. Nothing I have ever done, matters.

[flowerb00yz]

…What are the consequences of dark magic.? Who knows. I promise it’s all goody-goody.

[cedric-sprootley]

Oh shut up, You probably deserved it. Just for that I’ll be telling mum, I have an account for a reason. I’ll be going to Hogwarts soon, By the way. You have 6 hours to pack your things.

[flowerb00yz]

Shut it….- you don’t need to tell mom anything..

[flowerb00yz]

…What are the consequences of dark magic.? Who knows. I promise it’s all goody-goody.

[cherry-pop-elf]

I don’t appear to have suffered any consequences for using any myself. Given my school uses it, and teaches us how to use it all the same. Along with deflect from it as well. Are you wishing to learn some yourself? Could I assist? I’ve worked with it, and perhaps someone who’s aware of its dangers and benefits could help you safely work with it!

[flowerb00yz]

Nono, I just…I was in a— ‘duel’, of sorts. They used a ‘dark spell’ called obscurus I believe..?. and the surrounding area looks ‘bruised’, to the point of looking charred. It’s..also bleeding, to a degree. Is this supposed to happen..?

[cherry-pop-elf]

Ah! I know exactly what spell that is. It is similar to Protego Dilabolica, but I’ve heard it be called the ‘opposite of a Expecto Patronum-‘ charm. It’s a very dangerous spell. Even one that my school was very hesitant to use. If that tells you anything. It’s somewhat like a teleportation charm, mixed with unaided flight. The user basically turns into a black mist, and attacks you through that. Oh so very very dangerous, and can be very very lethal. To BOTH parties actually. Since when the user is returning to physical form, they are rather weaken from it. Given it’s a transfiguration spell of sorts. So the moment they return to their human form, that is when you strike! If you aren’t bleeding to death, anyway. I hope this helps you!

[flowerb00yz]

…So is that why my skin— is peeling?.

[cherry-pop-elf]

Yep! Wait, you haven’t fixed that yet? Oh dear! Uh. Daniel! DANIEL?! Alright, just don’t freak out. Dear me. Let’s sit you down, and let me see what I can do. Daniel has more so forced me to carry a few healing potions on me at all times, so I’ll see what I can do to help. We first need to make sure the areas are disinfected. As to reduce chances of infections. Then we will give you a healing potion, then I shall wrap up the wound. Then we will get you to the medical wing, and everything should be good! Just uh, where is your medical wing again? Somehow your school is bigger than Durmstrang. And we live in a actual mountain. My goodness….

[flowerb00yz]

It’s— in the south wing of the castle…I attempted to deal with it, it just bled more…it hurts— a lot.

[cherry-pop-elf]

It’s going to be ok. Don’t worry. We’ve had wounds like this all the time back home, and no one died from them. They just died from other things. Like slipping on ice, and then falling into the ravine. Or stayed outside to late and had their souls sucked out by a Dementor. Or froze to death. Or got caught in a avalanche. Or drowned in a frozen lake. Or caught severe frost bite and bled out from failed amputations. Or set themselves on fire. Or performed a failed attempt at a teleportation spell and lost their organs in Sweden and their head in Russia. Or……This isn’t helping. Is it-?

[flowerb00yz]

It…it isn’t..but…but, why is it spreading.?.

[cherry-pop-elf]

Did……Did you say SPREADING-? That’s……That is NOT normal. It shouldn’t be spreading. It’s not like a infection. It’s a wound, not a disease. Or perhaps you caught a infection from the open wounds? Enough talk. Let me talk you to the medical wing. We need to have this treated as soon as possible. Before it gets worse. Come on. On my back. It’ll be faster that way. Come on. Up ya go!

[flowerb00yz]

{{ //OOC , But shall we take this to Uhhhh…Writing action ‘n shit?? Ima do that }}

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“ ..It— Hurts.. “

Basil quieted down, face scrunching up in response to the sizzling feeling that made him feel as if he were going to be ripped open or burnt from the inside out. Even smaller movements irritated it, not enough to bleed again, of course—because there wasn’t as much pressure on it, but still enough to make it burn fiercely like a manticore’s sting. He just decided not to move as much- because maybe that really WASN’T a good idea. Basil, however, also seemed to be more.. pale. Maybe it was the stress doing that, maybe it was something else. Who knew—There weren’t many pointers why this was even happening other than a simple ‘duel caused it’. Atleast, not yet, there wasn’t.

[flowerb00yz]

…What are the consequences of dark magic.? Who knows. I promise it’s all goody-goody.

[cherry-pop-elf]

I don’t appear to have suffered any consequences for using any myself. Given my school uses it, and teaches us how to use it all the same. Along with deflect from it as well. Are you wishing to learn some yourself? Could I assist? I’ve worked with it, and perhaps someone who’s aware of its dangers and benefits could help you safely work with it!

[flowerb00yz]

Nono, I just…I was in a— ‘duel’, of sorts. They used a ‘dark spell’ called obscurus I believe..?. and the surrounding area looks ‘bruised’, to the point of looking charred. It’s..also bleeding, to a degree. Is this supposed to happen..?

[cherry-pop-elf]

Ah! I know exactly what spell that is. It is similar to Protego Dilabolica, but I’ve heard it be called the ‘opposite of a Expecto Patronum-‘ charm. It’s a very dangerous spell. Even one that my school was very hesitant to use. If that tells you anything. It’s somewhat like a teleportation charm, mixed with unaided flight. The user basically turns into a black mist, and attacks you through that. Oh so very very dangerous, and can be very very lethal. To BOTH parties actually. Since when the user is returning to physical form, they are rather weaken from it. Given it’s a transfiguration spell of sorts. So the moment they return to their human form, that is when you strike! If you aren’t bleeding to death, anyway. I hope this helps you!

[flowerb00yz]

…So is that why my skin— is peeling?.

[cherry-pop-elf]

Yep! Wait, you haven’t fixed that yet? Oh dear! Uh. Daniel! DANIEL?! Alright, just don’t freak out. Dear me. Let’s sit you down, and let me see what I can do. Daniel has more so forced me to carry a few healing potions on me at all times, so I’ll see what I can do to help. We first need to make sure the areas are disinfected. As to reduce chances of infections. Then we will give you a healing potion, then I shall wrap up the wound. Then we will get you to the medical wing, and everything should be good! Just uh, where is your medical wing again? Somehow your school is bigger than Durmstrang. And we live in a actual mountain. My goodness….

[flowerb00yz]

It’s— in the south wing of the castle…I attempted to deal with it, it just bled more…it hurts— a lot.

[cherry-pop-elf]

It’s going to be ok. Don’t worry. We’ve had wounds like this all the time back home, and no one died from them. They just died from other things. Like slipping on ice, and then falling into the ravine. Or stayed outside to late and had their souls sucked out by a Dementor. Or froze to death. Or got caught in a avalanche. Or drowned in a frozen lake. Or caught severe frost bite and bled out from failed amputations. Or set themselves on fire. Or performed a failed attempt at a teleportation spell and lost their organs in Sweden and their head in Russia. Or……This isn’t helping. Is it-?

[flowerb00yz]

It…it isn’t..but…but, why is it spreading.?.

[flowerb00yz]

…What are the consequences of dark magic.? Who knows. I promise it’s all goody-goody.

[cherry-pop-elf]

I don’t appear to have suffered any consequences for using any myself. Given my school uses it, and teaches us how to use it all the same. Along with deflect from it as well. Are you wishing to learn some yourself? Could I assist? I’ve worked with it, and perhaps someone who’s aware of its dangers and benefits could help you safely work with it!

[flowerb00yz]

Nono, I just…I was in a— ‘duel’, of sorts. They used a ‘dark spell’ called obscurus I believe..?. and the surrounding area looks ‘bruised’, to the point of looking charred. It’s..also bleeding, to a degree. Is this supposed to happen..?

[cherry-pop-elf]

Ah! I know exactly what spell that is. It is similar to Protego Dilabolica, but I’ve heard it be called the ‘opposite of a Expecto Patronum-‘ charm. It’s a very dangerous spell. Even one that my school was very hesitant to use. If that tells you anything. It’s somewhat like a teleportation charm, mixed with unaided flight. The user basically turns into a black mist, and attacks you through that. Oh so very very dangerous, and can be very very lethal. To BOTH parties actually. Since when the user is returning to physical form, they are rather weaken from it. Given it’s a transfiguration spell of sorts. So the moment they return to their human form, that is when you strike! If you aren’t bleeding to death, anyway. I hope this helps you!

[flowerb00yz]

…So is that why my skin— is peeling?.

[cherry-pop-elf]

Yep! Wait, you haven’t fixed that yet? Oh dear! Uh. Daniel! DANIEL?! Alright, just don’t freak out. Dear me. Let’s sit you down, and let me see what I can do. Daniel has more so forced me to carry a few healing potions on me at all times, so I’ll see what I can do to help. We first need to make sure the areas are disinfected. As to reduce chances of infections. Then we will give you a healing potion, then I shall wrap up the wound. Then we will get you to the medical wing, and everything should be good! Just uh, where is your medical wing again? Somehow your school is bigger than Durmstrang. And we live in a actual mountain. My goodness….

[flowerb00yz]

It’s— in the south wing of the castle…I attempted to deal with it, it just bled more…it hurts— a lot.

[flowerb00yz]

…What are the consequences of dark magic.? Who knows. I promise it’s all goody-goody.

[cherry-pop-elf]

I don’t appear to have suffered any consequences for using any myself. Given my school uses it, and teaches us how to use it all the same. Along with deflect from it as well. Are you wishing to learn some yourself? Could I assist? I’ve worked with it, and perhaps someone who’s aware of its dangers and benefits could help you safely work with it!

[flowerb00yz]

Nono, I just…I was in a— ‘duel’, of sorts. They used a ‘dark spell’ called obscurus I believe..?. and the surrounding area looks ‘bruised’, to the point of looking charred. It’s..also bleeding, to a degree. Is this supposed to happen..?

[cherry-pop-elf]

Ah! I know exactly what spell that is. It is similar to Protego Dilabolica, but I’ve heard it be called the ‘opposite of a Expecto Patronum-‘ charm. It’s a very dangerous spell. Even one that my school was very hesitant to use. If that tells you anything. It’s somewhat like a teleportation charm, mixed with unaided flight. The user basically turns into a black mist, and attacks you through that. Oh so very very dangerous, and can be very very lethal. To BOTH parties actually. Since when the user is returning to physical form, they are rather weaken from it. Given it’s a transfiguration spell of sorts. So the moment they return to their human form, that is when you strike! If you aren’t bleeding to death, anyway. I hope this helps you!

[flowerb00yz]

…So is that why my skin— is peeling?.

[flowerb00yz]

…What are the consequences of dark magic.? Who knows. I promise it’s all goody-goody.

[cherry-pop-elf]

I don’t appear to have suffered any consequences for using any myself. Given my school uses it, and teaches us how to use it all the same. Along with deflect from it as well. Are you wishing to learn some yourself? Could I assist? I’ve worked with it, and perhaps someone who’s aware of its dangers and benefits could help you safely work with it!

[flowerb00yz]

Nono, I just…I was in a— ‘duel’, of sorts. They used a ‘dark spell’ called obscurus I believe..?. and the surrounding area looks ‘bruised’, to the point of looking charred. It’s..also bleeding, to a degree. Is this supposed to happen..?

[flowerb00yz]

…What are the consequences of dark magic.? Who knows. I promise it’s all goody-goody.

[flowerb00yz]

…Why are people worried about It..? I don’t understand..

[flowerb00yz]

…It’s time.

[rottenfleeexsh]

Hey..— what the bloody hell do you think you’re doing.?.

[flowerb00yz]

…don’t worry about it.

[rottenfleeexsh]

I will fucking worry about it! Where the FUCK are you, I’m not asking, TELL ME WHERE YOU ARE. I’m not risking you doing whatever the FUCK you intended to do.

[flowerb00yz]

…Why are you so sure of it? What’s so important that you need to talk to me about. Why would it matter.

[flowerb00yz]

…It’s time.

[rottenfleeexsh]

Hey..— what the bloody hell do you think you’re doing.?.

[flowerb00yz]

…don’t worry about it.

[flowerb00yz]

…It’s time.

[flowerb00yz]

Such pretty sights, Aren’t they? I love how the stars paint the sky at night.

I always loved looking at the stars..