outer space / carry on

the darkest night never felt so bright with you by my side

[fooleds]

dis·solve verb past tense: dissolved; past participle: dissolved

carrd / opens / pinterest

[amoreemioo]

“i don’t know what to say — i don’t know what you want me to say. i just need a’fuckin’ second.” the car felt closed off and cramped, and while tae would never consider himself someone that was claustrophobic — well. he kind of was claustrophobic, thanks to a long history he didn’t want to get into in the car. tae would never say he was, but yet he often found himself avoiding small spaces. and yeah — tae has never before considered a car a small space, but he has never had what felt like an important conversation with such an important person in a car. tae didn’t have important people in his life to begin with, that alone added weight to it that he clearly didn’t know how to handle. alex was important and tae was learning information he didn’t previously know and he did not do well being wrong — clearly. so. he just needed a second!

though …

tae supposed this was the sort of thing alex was talking about, wasn’t it? here he was, having all of these thoughts as to why he was silent and why he felt the way he felt— yet he was quiet as a mouse. tae had a couple memories floating around in his head at the very moment, things he could share just as alex had stated. the idea of saying it all out loud just felt so stupid —

“i want to go home, i don’t want to be in the car.” it was barely a reason on his end, and he was doing it again for sure — only telling bits and pieces. but at least now he was aware of the habit and knew that alex hated it. and … he’d work on it. later.

[fooleds]

alright, tae needed a fucking second. so alex would give him a fucking second.

or many. a fuckton of fucking seconds, actually.

he didn't bother speaking again until he was pulling his car back into his complex's garage, the silence bothering him more than he would care to admit. it was a conscious choice, not speaking until tae said something, but that didn't mean he was happy about it. it was like they were playing a game of chicken— the difference was, alex told tae exactly what he wanted, tae just couldn't bring himself to do it.

so, silence.

he pulled into his spot wordlessly, turning the engine off and popping open his door without hesitating. tae didn't want to be in the car, he didn't want to be in the car if it was going to be silent— what was the point of pretending or waiting even longer for something he knew wasn't going to happen? he closed the door behind him, only opening the backseat to pull out the backpack he'd packed to make sure none of his beers went bad. he'd wait around for tae to get out, too, but he didn't plan on saying anything. honestly, he wondered just how long they were going to go on like this— again, he wasn't going to be the one to break it, though.

[amoreemioo]

you know what — tae was rather pleased that alex was as quick as he was. god only knows what he might’ve gotten up to if he was left to his own devices for too long. he barely had time to run his hands through his hair before the door was opening, and was turning towards the man immediately. it was safe to say he was happy they moved here — very happy, actually. the smaller space gave them enough room, but it also gave tae every excuse in the book to climb all over the other.

he didn’t. not yet. but he just might!

tae was more interested in getting that kiss, which did involve getting pretty dang close. “y’gonna take any of this off?” came with a hand tugging at alex’s shirt while his other hand went grabbing for his jaw, eager to keep him steady as tae dang near crashed in for a kiss. sure, he had spent the whole day sipping away at drinks and he was chomping at the bit — but he was not a messy kisser, thanks. at least not until he was a couple orgasms in and struggling to hold himself up. until then? tae liked to think he was good at this sort of thing, with no teeth clashing in sight.

[fooleds]

alex scoffed quietly,. "only if you ask nicely," he teased, wondering if tae was even capable of such a thing. he'd been polite in the kitchen, sure, but who knew if that stuck when it came to getting things he really wanted? like getting alex's shirt off, apparently? he had no issue getting the guy's eyes back on the prize, though, snatching up his hand and using it to help him undo his pants, first— he had a list of priorities here, obviously.

kissing tae was one of them, of course— once his pants were undone, he went grabbing tae harshly by the waist, looking to pull him as close as he could get him. if he wanted to kiss, alex would give him a damn kiss! he discovered very quickly that the guy was good at it, so it wasn't like it fucking hurt, or anything. he just— his pants were just too fucking tight at this point. and while he liked kissing tae, he wanted to see his mouth wrapped around him more.

a hand lifted to grab at tae's jaw, nudging him back so alex could go looking over the other man's features. "get on your knees, pretty," his thumb dragged along tae's bottom lip before the hand on his waist went slapping at his ass. "and open for me, mm?"

[amoreemioo]

tae’s immediate thoughts were a mix between what the fuck and i thought we were going home. which — to be fair, he knew he didn’t actually live with alex. hence the whole dang apartment he had and occasionally slinked off to. but he was with alex enough!

the winner?

“what the fuck?” tae muttered without so much as a glance, eyes scanning what he could see of the sky. did he want to go home? no, it wasn’t even on his mind. now that alex brought it up? tae couldn’t help but think obviously the other man wanted to drop him off. but tae was a spiteful soul, and he didn’t want to go home. “no.” and he almost left it there, content to go back to the silence. but apparently he was keeping too many thoughts to himself — a crazy concept to him, actually. here he was thinking he talked too much. “i want to go home with you.”

[fooleds]

despite asking, alex didn't want to send tae off back to his apartment by himself. he wanted tae to come back to his, just like he always did, and he wanted to orbit around each other until they inevitably passed out on the couch or went to sleep in their bed. what that'd look like now, he wasn't sure, but it would always be better than the alternative.

still, he let out a scoff at tae's initial response. yeah, agreed. what the fuck? especially seeing that tae didn't look at him. nothing. just what the fuck?

huh.

"well, you're not saying anything." came alex's justification for asking, as if he really needed one. "i just said a whole bunch of shit to you and you're not saying anything. i don't know what the fuck is going on—" and if there was one thing about alex, he didn't do well with not knowing. even the thought freaked him out, and despite his unbothered demeanor, he was very, very bothered. "whatever, tae. what the fuck ever."

[amoreemioo]

what was tae supposed to do other than sit and continue to scowl? he didn’t like the moments (even if they were few and far between) that he didn’t get his way, and now was no different. but he wasn’t about to tuck and roll out of the car, so — yeah. he’d just sit here, probably stay quiet, and scowl out the window. like that would fix anything.

and it lasted no longer than ten seconds before he was looking right back to alex. alright… maybe tae didn’t expect that answer. he kind of thought alex wouldn’t want to hear anything like that, because why would he? to sit and talk about an ex felt odd — though to be fair, tae wasn’t really considering the fact that it wasn’t a normal relationship. the fact that he even considered it a relationship was insane, actually — but that wasn’t something he was even remotely ready to tackle yet.

but tae couldn’t be wrong — not so abruptly, at least. it would take him a little bit to accept it, is all. he tried to assume what alex wanted and he was wrong… but he would never admit it right away. he’d need a hot minute of sitting with it and playing it over in his head and trying to figure out what happened and why —-

which is why tae was scoffing softly to himself as his gaze shifted away again. if he was in the right environment he might’ve literally kicked a rock or two. but he wasn’t. he was stuck in the car, stewing over all this information without anywhere to hide. he’s always been the type to shut down if he wasn’t going to lose his top. and he didn’t want to lose it on alex, believe it or not.

[fooleds]

call him foolish, but alex wasn't... really expecting silence. he was expecting a jab or two back, maybe some acknowledgement of what he'd said, but he got nothing in return. just a look away. no more, no less.

he was disappointed, if he had to put one word to explain his feelings as they sat quietly. he wouldn't take tae not telling him the full story personal, fine. but him explaining how he felt in their relationship, to speak on the elephant in the room, and get nothing? no acknowledgement? he would've rather tae got mad, honestly. this one he was taking personal. maybe tae was holding back and keeping alex out. maybe it was something alex would just have to deal with.

whether he would be able to deal with it was a different story. it had already been biting at him— a smart person would put money on it getting worse.

instead, he just sat in silence, features growing more sterile the more and more he was forced to sit with himself and tae's silence.

he only spoke up when he knew they were getting closer to tae's exit. "should i just take you home?"

[amoreemioo]

one minute tae was getting exactly what he wanted (all considered) and the next? alex was pulling away. that had to have been the biggest tease tae has ever come across — like. for the other man to murmur such dirty things in his ear, to have his literal hand down his pants, and then —

oh.

tae’s brain just took an extra second to catch up, is all. alex wasn’t leaving him high and dry, he just wanted to move camp. which — whatever, that’s fine. tae was down to fuck right here (obviously) but he’d also go and find his way to the bathroom. or half-bath, as alex said.

he almost didn’t even care to button himself back up. he did, but tae couldn’t have cared less at this point. “don’t make me wait too long.” he didn’t like to wait, and in this case? alex just may find his bed was a little too crowded by the time he got there tonight. tae was not above asking that one stew which room was the chefs —

for now, though, tae was content to leave the galley and make his way down the hallway towards the half-bath. once there? he set a mental timer, and if alex exceeded the limit? tae might start wandering around in search of him. he was horny — extra horny now, thanks to alex, he couldn’t help the way he practically wanted to jump the guy.

[fooleds]

it was funny—

alex said a minute but, in reality, he was probably a good thirty seconds behind tae, too hard in his pants to think about anything but the other man. he'd finish whatever he left incomplete in the morning— now, he had better things going on. yes, more important than his job, thank you.

he didn't even bother to knock on the door, just pushed the wood door open and closed quietly, hoping not to arouse any suspicion.. especially from a goddamn camera. he locked the door behind him, looking tae up and down before lifting a hand to beckon him over with his index finger. "come give me a kiss, pretty baby."

[fooleds]

done i prommy

[fooleds]

i lied sorry

[poohsources]

🐝  *  ―  𝑭𝑳𝑼𝑭𝑭𝒀 𝑪𝑨𝑵 𝑺𝑬𝑵𝑻𝑬𝑵𝑪𝑬 𝑺𝑻𝑨𝑹𝑻𝑬𝑹𝑺.

❛  i can carry that for you.  ❜ ❛  i can come over, if you don't want to be alone.  ❜ ❛  i can go with you, so you don't have to do this by yourself.  ❜ ❛  i can keep you warm.  ❜ ❛  i can listen for as long as you need me to.  ❜ ❛  i can make breakfast while you stay in bed.  ❜ ❛  i can make you laugh. just give me a minute.  ❜ ❛  i can remember enough for both of us.  ❜ ❛  i can share mine with you.  ❜ ❛  i can stay with you a little longer.  ❜ ❛  i can take care of you for once.  ❜ ❛  i can wait for you here.  ❜ ❛  can i keep this? it reminds me of you.  ❜ ❛  can i keep you company?  ❜ ❛  can i kiss you?  ❜ ❛  can i lay my head in your lap?  ❜ ❛  can i see you smile again?  ❜ ❛  can i take care of you tonight?  ❜ ❛  can i tell you how pretty you look?  ❜ ❛  can i tell you something silly?  ❜ ❛  can we just do nothing today?  ❜ ❛  can we stay like this a little longer?  ❜ ❛  can you come a little closer?  ❜ ❛  can you hold me for just a second?  ❜ ❛  can you promise you'll text when you get home?  ❜ ❛  you can always come home to me.  ❜ ❛  you can be as clingy as you want. i don't mind.  ❜ ❛  you can be soft here.  ❜ ❛  you can come over whenever you miss me.  ❜ ❛  you can have the last bite.  ❜ ❛  you can have this; it was supposed to be yours anyway.  ❜ ❛  you can hide here for a while.  ❜ ❛  you can keep looking at me like that.  ❜ ❛  you can keep my heart. i wasn't using it anyway.  ❜ ❛  you can kiss me again, if you want.  ❜ ❛  you can lean on me.  ❜ ❛  you can pick the music.  ❜ ❛  you can stay as long as you want.  ❜ ❛  you can stay close to me, i like that.  ❜ ❛  you can take my hand.  ❜

[fooleds]

done i prommy

[hollowprompts]

` * 𝐈𝐍𝐉𝐔𝐑𝐘 𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐌𝐄𝐃 𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐌𝐏𝐓𝐒 : a mix of dialogue and action prompts. sent "+ reverse" to reverse the roles.

𝐃𝐈𝐀𝐋𝐎𝐆𝐔𝐄 :

➔ you're gonna be okay , just keep your eyes on me. ➔ don't move - you're going to make it worse. ➔ it's not that bad. ➔ you saved me once before , now it's my turn. ➔ you fucking idiot , you weren't supposed to take the hit for me. ➔ i told you not to do that! now look! ➔ you're lucky that i know basic first aid , or you'd be dead! ➔ stay with me, okay? stay awake. ➔ i'll be as gentle as i can be , i promise. ➔ you're bleeding - oh my god , you're bleeding. ➔ you told me it was a scratch , this is not a fucking scratch! ➔ there's so much blood. ➔ next time you want to play here , just don't. ➔ stop fighting me and let me help! ➔ you're banned from doing anything remotely dangerous. ➔ you could have died , what were you thinking? ➔ if you die on me , i'm going to be pissed off. ➔ you didn't have to be so reckless just to prove a fucking point. ➔ the wound will heal but you'll have a scar.

𝐀𝐂𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍𝐒 :

[ carry ] sender carries receivers muse to safety after finding them injured. [ stitch ] sender stitches receivers wound. [ hand ] sender holds receivers hand during a painful procedure. [ wound ] sender cleans receivers wounds with gentle and shaky hands. [ panic ] sender panics while trying to stop receiver's bleeding. [ patch ] sender patches receiver up using makeshift materials (i.e. torn shirt). [ fire ] sender drags receiver out of a burning building. [ pressure ] sender puts deep pressure on receivers wound while yelling for help. [ mouth ] sender gives receiver mouth-to-mouth resuscitation. [ change ] sender helps receiver change out of bloodied clothes. [ wash ] sender helps wash dried blood off of receivers face. [ shower ] sender helps receiver shower after an injury. [ broken ] sender tries to stabilize receivers broken limb with rope and sticks.

[recordmemes]

༘⋆｡ stirring the pot starters

a mix of arguments, tension, manipulation, gossiping, fighting, & general emotional messiness!

you  weren't  supposed  to  hear  that.

don't  look  at  me  like  i'm  the  only  one  lying.

want  to  tell  them,  or  should  i?

you  think  i  don't  know  what  you  did?

i've  hit  people  for  less.

oh,  i  thought  you  already  knew.

that's  funny,  you  didn't  say  that  last  night.

say  that  again.  i  dare  you.

you  wanna  talk  about  loyalty?

no  offense,  but  if  you're  the  last  to  know,  that's  on  you.

go  ahead  -  pretend  like  it  wasn't  your  idea!

they  deserve  to  know  the  truth.

you  didn't  hear  this  from  me,  but  -

oh,  so  now  you  care?

don't  flatter  yourself.  you  were  just  convenient.

you  crossed  a  line.

we  had  bets  on  how  long  it  would  last.

it's  not  even  a  secret  anymore.

you  don't  get  to  cry  about  it  now.

touch  me  again  and  see  what  happens.

say  it  again.  louder  this  time.

you  really  thought  nobody  would  find  out?

don't  act  so  innocent.

okay,  but  am  i  the  villain  for  laughing?

tell  me  who  else  knows.  right  now.

this  whole  time,  and  you  didn't  say  a  word?

don't  act  brave  now.

you're  really  gonna  do  this  here?

it  wasn't  supposed  to  get  this  far!

you  can't  rewrite  history.

oh,  i'd  never  say  it  to  their  faces.

it  was  supposed  to  stay  between  us.

we're  all  thinking  it,  i  just  said  it.

you're  not  as  untouchable  as  you  act.

do  you  even  feel  guilty?

they  warned  me  about  you.

go  ahead,  make  it  worse.

if  you  repeat  this,  i'll  deny  everything.

the  next  thing  out  of  your  mouth  better  be  an  apology.

you're  about  three  seconds  away  from  regretting  this.

you  keep  pushing,  and  i'll  push  you  back.

they're  going  to  find  out.

one  more  lie,  and  i  walk.

they're  lying  to  you.

you  need  to  back  off.  now.

you're  defending  them?  after  everything?

don't  try  to  hide  it.

tell  me,  was  i  just  a  placeholder?

you  really  think  sorry  fixes  this?

there's  nothing  left  to  say.

don't  act  like  you're  the  one  hurting.

i  don't  owe  you  any  explanation.

whatever  helps  you  sleep  at  night.

you  should've  seen  this  coming.

i  hope  it  was  worth  it.

i  told  the  truth.  just  not  all  of  it.

you'll  miss  me  before  i  miss  you.

smile.  you're  ruining  the  mood.

i'd  watch  that  tone  if  i  were  you.

it's  not  my  fault  you  believed  me.

you  have  such  a  talent  for  pretending  you're  innocent.

we  both  know  this  is  over.

i  never  said  i  was  a  good  person.

i  thought  you  were  different.

[ohisms]

‪‪❤︎‬ ˚｡⋆ ↪ 𝐊𝐈𝐒𝐒 & 𝐓𝐄𝐋𝐋 !    (  a  collection  of  75+ kisses.   feel free to specify the initiating muse.   potentially mature content within.  UPDATED 02/25 !  )

finally kissing the person you’ve been pining for.

pulling them in for a kiss while showering together.

a kiss shared during a game  ( truth or dare,  spin the bottle,  etc ).

kissing your lover to show you forgive them.

a coy, chaste kiss meant to say thank you.

an intimate kiss full of relief the second you're finally alone.

wiping away your lover’s tears as you kiss them.

a kiss muffled by laughter in a library, hidden away among the shelves.

lazy kisses on the sofa while the television runs.

kisses while wrapping your legs around your lover.

a quick peck on the cheek as one party rushes off.

a kiss to prove you don’t have feelings for them.

a kiss to convince them not to leave bed in the morning.

a kiss to distract them from stitching a wound.

a parting kiss before one party goes away for a long time.

biting their lip amidst a kiss, drawing blood.

heated kisses while tugging on their hair.

abruptly kissing a stranger to scare off the people following you.

an emotional kiss bringing one party to tears.

a bruising kiss full of desperation and urgency.

distracting your lover from a task by kissing their neck.

standing on your tiptoes to kiss their forehead.

kissing down the column of your lover's neck, leaving marks.

a kiss while being reunited after a long time.

kissing your lover in a moment of sheer joy.

a dutiful kiss with no true feeling behind it.

kissing your lover to take away their pain.

colliding with a wall, then each other's lips.

a kiss placed over their freshly bandaged wound.

a kiss while slow dancing close and intimately.

sharing a spontaneous kiss with a stranger.

an abrupt ,  heated kiss during the middle of a fight.

a kiss motivated by a dare from a third party.

an adrenaline-fueled kiss while standing on the ledge of a rooftop.

kissing them to shut them up.

urgent, messy kisses as both parties scramble to undress.

a kiss to wake your lover up in the morning.

sharing a kiss in a heavy downpour of rain.

kissing your lover just above their waistband.

kissing your partner to seal a marriage.

pushing your love down onto the bed to worship their body with kisses.

a possessive kiss to stake a claim.

a kiss to resolve suppressed ( romantic / sexual ) tension.

a kiss attempting to convince the other party to stay.

kissing the top of their head as you hold them.

a risky kiss between forbidden lovers.

a kiss while hiding away from flashing cameras.

a kiss that means absolutely nothing.

kissing the swell of your lover's breast.

a kiss that leaves lipstick stains.

a kiss shared on a rooftop while the sun ( sets / rises ).

a flirtatious kiss on the back of the hand.

sensual kisses down the length of their back.

kissing them to confess your true feelings.

sneaking off to a public bathroom to make out.

a kiss to forgive one another after a fight.

a kiss on the forehead as the other sleeps.

an  ( accidental / mutually )  drunken kiss.

an unexpected kiss during a fake dating scheme.

kissing your partner after they've given you head.

caging your lover against a wall with your arms to kiss them.

a kiss after receiving good news.

an emotional kiss, relieved to find your lover alive.

crowded, heated kisses in the backseat of a car.

a tentative ,  exploratory kiss between friends.

a kiss shared between enemies during combat.

a kiss that smears blood everywhere.

kissing them even though you know you shouldn't.

kissing your lover after believing you’d lost them.

a kiss after a devastating event ,  meant to comfort.

a possessive kiss in front of a jealous third party.

kisses while pulling them into your lap.

a heated kiss while holding them by the throat.

kissing your lover under the night sky while stargazing.

a kiss to seal a promise that you just made.

kissing your lover lazily first thing in the morning.

holding your lover by the jaw to kiss them.

holding their face, kissing the tears from their cheeks.

a kiss to your lover’s stomach as you travel down their body.

an abrupt kiss that you melt into after a moment of hesitation.

sleepy ,  domestic morning kisses in the kitchen while making breakfast.

a rushed kiss before one party leaves for work.

a final kiss shared while holding your dying lover.

[mcflymemes]

A WHOLE BUNCH OF QUESTIONS *  assorted questions i just came up with, adjust as necessary.

where did you find this?

you really thought this would work?

was it something i said?

have you been keeping this from me the whole time?

would you help me zip this in the back?

are you paying attention to me?

when were you going to tell me the truth?

who are you, really?

will you help me lift this?

where did this even come from?

who gave you this?

where did you learn to shoot like that?

did you ever think it would come to this?

when did you know?

do you believe in ghosts?

are you telling me the truth?

does it ever stop hurting?

would you pass that to me?

would you ever consider... us?

can you turn the lights off when you go?

maybe you could give me a massage?

was that a good idea?

do you think i was too harsh?

do you realize what you just did?

when's the last time you slept?

are you mocking me?

who taught you to use a sword?

was that fun? did you have a good time?

so when are we doing that again?

will you come upstairs?

what was that sound?

did anyone follow you?

do you think we're alone?

will you stay with me? keep me company for the night?

do you regret sleeping with me?

would you take that pot off the stove for me?

would you teach me how to fight?

will you promise to tell me the truth?

why did you lie?

where did these guys come from?

should we call for help?

was that someone upstairs?

when were you supposed to be back?

could you try harder next time?

where did you find this?

what is the meaning of this?

what does the map say?

can you find an answer?

what if we run out of time?

when's the next game?

did you mean it? when you said you loved me?

why don't i believe you?

why are you making excuses?

when's the next train?

we're shit out of luck, aren't we?

why is it so cold in here?

would you please get up off your ass and help me?

was that so hard?

were you in love with me back then?

[ohisms]

✱˚｡⋆ ↪ THE 𝐒TAGES OF 𝐈NTIMACY.   a collection of various action prompts centered around the varying stages of intimacy.  feel free to adjust as desired. heavily mature content, dni with this post if you are under 18, & DO NOT use these prompts for non-con scenarios.  )

SETTINGS.

[01.] finding privacy in a cramped dressing room.

[02.] cramming into the backseat of a car together.

[03.] slipping into the lonesome alleyway behind the bar for "time alone".

[04.] pulling them away from a party after hours of relentless teasing.

[05.] getting handsy under the table at a fancy dining establishment.

[06.] taking the long way home and pulling over on a dark stretch of road.

[07.] staying behind at the venue after everyone else has left.

[08.] the hotel room door barely clicks shut before hands are on them.

[09.] a tent in the middle of nowhere where no one can hear anything.

NEW TERRITORY.

[10.] finding yourself staring at their mouth and getting caught.

[11.] pulling back from a kiss to look at them, then immediately going back in.

[12.] memorizing the shape of them for the first time with your palms.

[13.] that exploratory first kiss, reserved and shy.

[14.] a gentle first kiss that morphs into intense want.

[15.] feeling the shape of their body through their clothes.

[16.] asking for permission to remove one of their garments.

[17.] finally succumbing to the thick tension & colliding feverishly.

[18.] fumbling with buttons or zippers because your hands won't stop shaking.

[19.] admitting out loud that you've been thinking about this for a while.

HEATING UP.

[20.] pulling them into your lap in the midst of a heated kiss.

[21.] discovering that they're wearing [ GEAR / LINGERIE ] under their clothes.

[22.] kissing away from their lips, down the length of their neck.

[23.] desperately grinding on them through layers of clothing.

[24.] dirty talking directly into their ear to turn them on even further.

[25.] pushing them onto a piece of furniture before straddling them.

[26.] lifting them onto the countertop while making out.

[27.] tugging their hair to expose more of their throat to your mouth.

[28.] the wrecked way they say your name for the first time.

[29.] fabric tearing because neither of you has the patience for buttons.

[30.] removing an obstacle of clothing with your teeth.

UNRAVELING.

[31.] biting down on their shoulder to muffle how good it feels.

[32.] the sound they make when you find the spot that undoes them.

[33.] begging without any trace of pride left and meaning every word.

[34.] their composure cracking for the first time, they finally stop holding back.

[35.] repeating "don't stop" like it's the only language left in their mouth.

[36.] leaving possessive marks in places only they'll see.

[37.] whispering "look at me" right before you take them apart.

[38.] trying to be quiet and failing, so they clamp a hand over your mouth.

[39.] flipping positions so fast neither of you remembers who initiated it.

[40.] their nails dragging down your back hard enough to sting later.

[41.] being told to open your mouth and doing it before the sentence is finished.

[42.] having your hands pinned above your head.

[43.] the desperate scramble to get closer when there is no closer to get.

COMING DOWN.

[44.] fingers lazily tracing the marks they just left on your skin.

[45.] pulling the blanket over both of you without being asked.

[46.] that silent, dazed smile when they catch your eye across the pillow.

[47.] the shaky laugh when neither of you can remember where your shirt is.

[48.] going to get water and bringing a glass back for them without asking.

[49.] lying chest to chest, feeling their heartbeat slow back down against yours.

[50.] the quiet "hey" that means something completely different now.

[51.] "come here" said softly — not urgently. just wanting them close again.

[52.] the reluctant moment of untangling.

[amoreemioo]

you know — at first? tae didn’t like the words coming out of alex’s mouth. it really sounded like the other man was denying him, or something? like — how could he be looking at tae like that and then still be able to walk away?! he could at the very least —

oh.

it’s a good thing tae didn’t have time to start complaining about his misunderstanding, huh? having alex between his legs would’ve been one thing, but feeling him against his back? tae was already getting a little antsy. he wanted more — more more more. “mhm,” an easy hum and an easy answer, lips curving up into a bit of a smirk at the thought alone. god knows he didn’t care if anyone walked in, though he did have a preference on it being one of his friends? at least alex wouldn’t get fired, then. “i’d suck you off on the sundeck, i don’t care who sees—“ let someone walk in is his mindset, honestly. either they run away embarrassed or they stay and watch, and either way tae didn’t care! something that was clearly obvious by the way he was acting — he quite literally had a guys hand down his pants, so.

“you gonna let me? i want you in my mouth—“ yeah, sure, maybe tae was seconds away from moaning as his head fell back onto alex’s shoulder — but don’t get it twisted! he had his eyes on the prize and that prize was tucked away in alex’s pants. “m’much quieter with somethin’ in my mouth —“ was added, tone teasing as a hand snuck back to press firm against the front of alex’s pants. there’s no telling who might pass by the door and hear tae moaning — a lock wasn’t going to help with that, was it?

[fooleds]

"mm? is that all?" alex hummed, amused with how easily tae could roll off demand after demand. it was almost... as if he wasn't pressed against a door. huh.

and you know, alex might've been a little more inclined to take the man up on his wishes, but he couldn't get over the fact that they were still in the goddamn kitchen—— he'd walk in tomorrow morning with a need to bleach the whole place. so his mind was thinking quickly, trying to rack the entire boat for one place he could get his dick wet without getting caught. and the one he came up with wasn't ideal, but it would do.

"not here," he murmured into his ear, fully aware it was silly to press tae up against the door if he wasn't going to do anything. "there's a half-bath down the hall— m'gonna fuck your throat and bend y'over the sink." was promised before he took a half step back, hand dropping to slap at tae's ass before he went reaching for the lock again, this time to undo what he'd done before. "you go first. i'll be there in a minute, mm?"

[amoreemioo]

the moment alex was talking about going home tae felt his mood get even more twisted and tangled up. there were too many emotions happening all at once and he did not like it. he did not want to go home, but he didn’t really want to go to the beach, either. tae didnt have a suggeston of his own, though, so. besides, tae could be a good sport sometimes. or... a tae-ified version of a good sport. “no, you wanna go to the beach so let’s go to the fuckin’ beach.” or a pool? or maybe the next town over to their beach— whatever. they could go to a beach, even if tae knew he wouldn't like it — no, you know what? he didn’t know what he’d like. he’s never been to a beach and he didn’t actually know what was in store. he might love it, he might hate it. and … he doubted his ex was going to be anywhere near the area.

right?

if tae thought a little more logically and a little less emotionally charged, he knew the guy wouldn’t be there. a lot of time has passed since tae has been around him, sure, but lucien was never a beach goer? so —

his arms crossed a little tighter as his head landed back against the headrest of his seat. it’s a miracle tae didn’t sigh out, honestly, but his head did loll off to the side to look out the window. “i don’t want to go home, take me to the fuckin’ beach.” maybe he could make a sandcastle, or something. he’d have to ease into the water, though — it may genuinely take an hour of just sitting and watching so he can make sure there weren’t any sharks. but. yeah. maybe it wouldn’t be bad.

“i don’t know — what do you want me to do? start tellin’ you shit over breakfast? whatever crazy shit pops into my head?” and then what? alex would be in a bad mood. so maybe he’d save story time for dinner — but then how would alex sleep soundly with it so fresh in his mind? “i tell you when it comes up. i didn’t know you wanted more.” tae’s head turned right back towards alex, brows furrowed slightly. “but i don’t lie to you.”

[fooleds]

alex was trying really, really hard not to get irritated, but it was hard when they were fighting like children. especially once tae started insisting on going to beach after explaining why he really didn't want to, the older man's head felt like it was spinning. he didn't want to go, then he did, but alex knew he really fucking didn't, and it was making him feel crazy! he could obviously tell that tae was just as upset, if not more, so, again, he was trying not to take it personally. he just—

"we're not fuckin' going to the beach. home." were his final words on it, finally having enough room to get into the turn lane to pop a u-turn once and for all. he hit the gas a little hard to get up to speed (and to let out a little bit of his frustration), but the engine had calmed down by the time tae started to talk again.

alex let out a loud scoff, brows furrowing. "i— yes. yes, what the fuck?" was it too much to ask for? it felt like tae was saying it as if it was so out there that there was no way alex could be serious. but he was serious! horribly and embarrassingly serious! "okay, fine. you don't lie. but you don't tell me the truth—" he murmured, head shaking as he readjusted in his seat, the back of his neck starting to hurt from the stress. "not all of it. you leave shit out and it's like— i don't know, tae. i'm in this shit for the long haul, but it feels like you're holding back all of the time. i'm fuckin' in love with you, but i don't feel like i know you. not really." his head shook before hitting the headrest with a thump. "and i don't feel like you want me to. i don't know. maybe i'm fuckin' crazy—"

[amoreemioo]

@fooleds | x

it wasn’t like tae was against traveling as a whole — he just didn’t really want to go there. even mere mention of it had his face souring and his tone falling, which obviously opened the door for questions. but surely it was within his rights? like, his family was from there and the ex lived there and the idea of even catching a glimpse of the guy had his jaw tense. let alone the idea of lucien seeing him. and it wasn’t just the ex — it was lucien and all his goons. tae just … knew it wasn’t easy to stay under the radar there? and the last thing he wanted was for alex to be spotted with him and suddenly become a target for that fools psychopathic tendencies. maybe if they weren’t looking for him it could be fine, but that fell to the chance of not running into anyone — why risk it? there were plenty of other beaches!

tae was more stuck on alex’s words, though. why did he have to tell alex all of it? it was a lot, and most of it was his own fault anyway! he also couldn't wrap his head around how it was a lie? he suddenly had a lot of thoughts and questions and tae could feel his skin getting hot as his annoyance bubbled into anger, even if he was sort of holding his tongue. maybe he wasn’t watching his tone, but he was watching his words. “i told you about whatever you fuckin’ asked about, that’s not lyin’.” tae wasn’t sure the other man wanted all the details, anyway. sure, he was missing some key bits of tae’s relationship history — but he would tell him if he asked.

“y’asked why i look like this and i fuckin’ told you—“ not that it had been asked so crudely, but the point stands! tae wasn’t trying to keep secrets or lie … he just didn’t think alex needed to hear all that. or more so if he wanted to he would have thought to ask the question? “i told you why i don’t want to go—“ well, tae might’ve literally said ‘and some other fuckin’ stuff’ after explaining, rather simply, he wouldn’t go because his ex lives there. it was just a lot! did alex really want him to get into it here, now, in the car? they could, but — it was a lot.

besides all that?

tae found himself actually scoffing after a moment, “do i even fuckin’ look like someone that would like the beach?” well — maybe, actually. if he dressed appropriately, and maybe someone gave him those arm floaties. or a life vest. and if alex stayed very close to him the entire time. and there were no children around. god knows the closest he got to swimming was the shallow end of jisung’s pool, one arm on the wall or securely wrapped around one of the other men. tae definitely could not swim, thanks. and that thing didn’t have waves or sharks or crabs or his crazy ex or sand—

“pick a different place and s’fine.” yeah, because the beach was the actual issue here.

[fooleds]

you know, alex wasn't exactly upset that tae didn't want to go to the beach. it was a surprise, sure, but he was well aware that not everyone would want to go to the beach— people had preferences, and this was probably just one of tae's.

except that it wasn't. not really.

the moment tae explained why he didn't want to go to the beach, that his ex was from there and 'some other fuckin' stuff' (which, it didn't take a real genius to figure out that it was nothing good), alex raked through his mind for all of the times he'd ask tae if he wanted to come to the beach, just to get a no with no other explanation. it wasn't many, but it was enough for alex to now think: what the fuck? he couldn't understand why tae wouldn't tell him then— why he wouldn't have mentioned it the first time, to save them from this and to shut alex up once and for all. he felt like an idiot that was rubbing salt in a wound that he didn't even know was there. he quietly turned on his turn signal to move over, hoping that within the next few minutes he'd be able to turnaround. at least they'd get to see the ocean once more on the way back.

then tae was flinging those words at him and— alright, maybe alex was being overly sensitive about this. he just——

was there ever going to be a point where tae would be completely honest with him? totally and completely honest? sure, there would be things here and there that he wouldn't blame tae for keeping to himself, simply because he hadn't exactly had an easy go at much of anything. but when it was things like a fucking beach that they'd talked about, alex had asked about, just to be met with a half truth? to be faced with the fact that maybe he didn't know tae as well as he thought he did? that he probably would never know tae as well as he wanted to?

it was a tough pill for a guy who wanted to be there for tae to swallow.

still, he knew it wasn't about him, so he was trying very hard to not take it personal. it was about tae and whatever that stupid fuck of an ex did.

and yet, alex couldn't bring himself to look at the other man. "i don't fuckin' know, tae. i thought maybe you would." sue him! he tried! "we'll go home. i don't feel like guessing what you'd fuckin' like right now." okay, maybe still butthurt about the comment. but he didn't like tae being a dick when he had no idea what he was doing wrong.

"— is that the only time you're honest with me? when i ask? or when i drive us thirty fuckin' minutes and you're forced to tell me?"