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i'm sarah

[foopydoopy]

Here’s a general rule. When an insult is directed at a woman, consider how it would have sounded directed at a man. If the result is ridiculous, then it’s probably sexist.

came across this great comment on an article Ruby Tandoh (Great British Bake Off Runner Up) wrote for The Guardian (via foopydoopy)

This is too many notes compared to the number of followers I actually have

[foopydoopy]

I just downloaded the Tumblr app for the first time in a couple years and I am v confused with the layout

[foopydoopy]

just watched The Incredible Jessica James trailer

chris o’dowd is very good at playing rom com type dudes I can tell from the trailer I’m gonna fall in love with him like in Bridesmaids

[foopydoopy]

I cut my feet real bad yesterday cus I bought new shoes for my new job and went to work without socks since it’s so hot (really bad idea).

Went to the shop this morning and they only had Frozen or Star Wars plasters.

So my feet are covered in Anna and Elsa.

[foopydoopy]

I’m not surprised at what’s happened with Laci Green but I am surprised at just how much she has really dug in with her “anti-sjw” bullshit.

[foopydoopy]

Being single after a 5 year relationship is a whole new realm of suck that I’ve never experienced before. 

The thought of having to go through the rigmarole of getting to know someone/ awkward flirting etc is just ughhh. 

Most people like the honeymoon stage of a relationship but as an anxious person I don’t need extra butterflies than I already have. 

Can you just give me someone who already knows everything about me and me them and we’re already used to being with each other now please? Just skip the first 6 months of a relationship I don’t need that part.

[foopydoopy]

I don’t have depression but I definitely have felt depressed and had depressed moments.

Yesterday I was told the people who live in the house I really wanted in Cork didn’t pick me. I also saw that they renewed the advert, meaning they didn’t pick anyone. 

It should be easy to shrug off these things but I felt myself falling down a hole and feeling more helpless by the minute.

I think my anxious thoughts can sometimes leave me feeling depressed because I convince myself I am a terrible person. 

It’s the next day and I don’t feel in a hole anymore. I’m still sad about it but I know I just have to press on. 

[foopydoopy]

Remedying the fact that I’ve never listened to HAIM

[foopydoopy]

When I did go to therapy the therapist kept telling me how I should meditate.. and I tried for a little while but it actually made me have a weird outer body feeling and actually made me feel more anxious.

She was adamant I keep doing it though (I haven’t because I hated it)

I don’t know if it’s wrong of me to not meditate to try and help my anxiety? 

I think I will more clearly know what I need to do for myself once I have moved and started a new job. I don’t know if I will go back to therapy or not. 

[foopydoopy]

Just thinking about how I have tinnitus which is caused (or at the least worsened) by TMJ disorder which is in turn caused by my anxiety disorder.

So my “mental illness” is the root cause of two physical conditions I live with.

Even if I didn’t have tinnitus and TMJ disorder I would still believe that mental and physical health shouldn’t be seen as separate because your brain is a physical part of you.. but those two conditions are the only reason I even realized I might have anxiety disorder.

[foopydoopy]

I just remembered when I was about 12 my teacher in school put me forward for an entrance exam for a weekend school for gifted young people.

I think there we three exams in Verbal, Numerical and Abstract Reasoning (I just had a google and that’s what they are now so I am assuming it was the same when I did it). They were testing natural aptitude for those subjects so they didn’t ask us to study or anything. 

Anyway I didn’t get into the school. I think you had to be over 80% better at those subjects than the average person of your age and I wasn’t.

So basically I was told I was smart but not smart enough. 

I think that has actually stayed with me ever since. I knew I wasn’t gifted so I didn’t really care about trying. 

[foopydoopy]

I am scared that I am going to be awful at the new job. 

My job now is a huge pain in the ass for a lot of reasons but I have never found it actually difficult. I’ve never been stressed about the work itself (just many other factors).

Growing up I was one of the smart kids that didn’t have to try very hard at anything.. and that kind of stopped mid way through secondary school when there were things I wasn’t better than everyone at. 

10 years later and I am still not used to not being a natural at things and it bugs me a lot.

[foopydoopy]

So I got the job that I interviewed for like a month ago and I finish up here in 3 weeks and will move to Cork after that. 

I hope this will help with my mental health issues but we shall see. 

I could very well become more isolated as my family won’t be there and I might just not talk to anyone but I hope I can avoid that. 

[hannahhillam]

nice

[foopydoopy]

Basically I am absolutely miserable at my job (for a variety of reasons I could talk about for a long time) and haven’t been able to find another for like 8 months 

I had been trying to find work and move to Cork where my boyfriend lives (I live 3 hours away in Galway) but haven’t found anything. 

In early March he broke up with me because I don’t know for sure if I want to have children in the future. We were together for 5 years. 

My anxiety disorder that I have allowed to get worse and worse over my entirely life has alienated me from pretty much anyone I was ever friends with so I am really very alone. 

My boyfriend was my best friend and has told me he wants to stay friends but not to have contact with me at all for the moment - I have no idea how long that might last for or if he will decide he just never wants to talk to me again.

I am still living with my parents and haven’t learned to drive due to my previously mentioned anxiety so I have pretty much no opportunities to go out and meet people even if I wanted to. My grandfather also lives with us and he has Alzheimers and a catheter and it can be very draining deal with when he has angry outbursts or other health issues.

I still intend to move to Cork because I know and am comfortable with the place. I had an interview for a job there two weeks ago and I will hear back next week. It is in an area I am not experienced in so it’s not a huge chance I will get it. I am scared that if I don’t get it I will become even more depressed as at least it was some hope I could cling onto. 

I went to therapy last year for 6 sessions (the amount that I could get for free) and that did help with my anxiety a bit - but the circumstances that I live in now make it impossible for me to do the things my therapist advised me to do. 

There are a lot more things that are causing me distress but this I suppose is the basic overview. I cannot talk to my ex and I can’t really talk to anyone else either so I am seeing if writing here brings any relief.

I am not looking for anything from anyone on here, mainly because there is nothing you can give me. I’m just sad. 

[foopydoopy]

tumblr is a fucking wasteland now

most of the people i follow have stopped using it

i am far too drained to start trying to find new people to follow

[foopydoopy]

I haven’t been on Tumblr in ages probably mostly because life had been going pretty okay. 

Now it really isn’t going ok so I guess I’m back for a bit and might start making depressing posts so soz about that.