LOWKEY

An old Soul living in a Millennial Body

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I have so much in my head

And it ain’t gotta get hell out of it

When anxiety hits you hard

All you wanna do is Suicide

What the fuck is happening

When all you need is them

But it turns out that they’ll leave you behind

Fuck this shit

Now i’m messed

What should i do

Can’t pass this anxiety to you

Dude, all i need is understanding

But i ain’t getting one from them

Coz all of ‘em thinks i’m overreacting

But God told me child i know what you feelin’

So i close my eyes.. tears! no don’t feel ‘em

but yeah mah heart is aching

wanted to scream but words won’t let me

wanted to run but mah feet won’t allow me

wanted to kneel yeah my knees are so good to me

Talk to father saying i’m sorry for this thoughts that wanted to end me——

-theamarieB

ps. this is not for me this is for someone else, who think life woud be better if they’ll just end it the way they wanted. My friend life is a Blessing from above, don’t waste it. If You feel like you have no one NO!! YOU ARE WRONG i’m telling you someone is with you HE is listening to you HE is there watching you. Trust the Lord and His timing everything will be ok sometimes its a long process but its for your own good TRUST HIM! TRUST THE LORD! I Love You! Keep Fighting whoever you are 🤞🏼🙏🏼😘🤗

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waited when pushed to Ghom but still waited, driven with em ohoem, a sweet kiss like longing with love 💋 felt kilig not scary. A hand 🤝 kiss hand. T’was the best 15th- j

when should i finish this book uugh

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It’s not easy falling in love with me 19th May 💋💋

#QualityTime

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hey there diary

i got May’s 7things y’all need if stress here in london oopssiee

1. Longest hug

2. Longest passionate kiss

3. Communications are the best

4. Cuddle

5. Love making

6. Came “out” together went outside “twice” date

7. Expressing Love deeply, being vocal, saw him trying to hold back his tears but he failed Coz I already saw his eyes

good night 💋💋💋🤱

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5/04/2026 I chose not to cry. Maybe I got exhausted, and maybe I Already figure out the answer before, which allows me to have realization. But this is the worst that I will never forget. A promise of my death was thrown at me as a Sacrifice of a Lie, choosing me as the easiest target of death and not himself. I am out of words. No love at all. No Remorse. No Care. No interest. No value. ALL LIES. A more clearer and fine answer. I will never forget.

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ended both march and april A no go that’s it, I am slowly quitting, to my self hugs. 🤗💪🏼👌🏼🫶🏻

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It will always be God’s Timeline not mine. Maybe Karma is just hitting Just so Hard, that I have to slowly accept Defeat both in Career and Love-life. 😓🥲

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hbd yeobo a long long passionate and slow kisses for you 😘 can’t count now 🫶🏻

cutiiee mo kanina wearing 👜✨

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Together Forever yarn? hahahahaha

masajhiboobnHan

one quick 💋cheeks💋lip💋hair💋cheeks

lyedownInmylap

2ruesi6

was mad but end up him being clingy

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Sa panahon ngayon Lord, yun nalang ang meron ako. Huwag mo munang kunin kahit alam kong hindi dapat 😭😣

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12. a gift and a yellow 5

13. an unexpected 5 sash and a tenchü kesshh

aaahhhh

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I don’t wanna really question God about it, but I keep asking myself why? What did I’ve done wrong to become like this, why did I ended up like this, a person whom I really hate back then. I am becoming the person I hate. Why God put me in this situation, I just prayed I wanna experience this and that, I wanna feel how to be loved, I wanna be soft sometimes because I am always tough, but look at me now, I am destroying my self-respect, at the same time destroying someone’s peace too. If everything happens for a reason, why does it have to be this “reason”. 😓

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Feb 3 insisted that he would delete my contact but i think or I don’t know maybe I just assume, he cried?? but left early maybe he doesn’t want to be with me anymore. 😁😬 I wanna choose myself now again, I don’t want to waste another time of being delusional and one sided. I am hurting but I know this means Healing maybe just for me, coz him he does not lose something he can find more eventually.

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1.7 perskris in *26

then 9- biggest prank but prove his Love 🥺

12 hugě smaocky

15

21

22 - quicks oats many

23 - tuiight huggies

24- the sweetest afternoon I ever felt, a back ride, a back hug from me a tight one, a concerned and loving eyes atv, the act of adventure you wanna try, One of the proudest moment of my life and another First time for me with You again in it, this will all live in my memories. ✨

25 - 2blast so fast, a confession in divert.. leaving left and right beneath marks

26- meals with me a laughter

27- 🤝 forehead brainy kwiz a laughter

28- shared thoughts a laughter insisted offering ride but i decline

a short summary of January that will never be in poetry

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51.01 eh chose to be with me longer, we talk and talk and laugh 👫🐑

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13… I love yoü❤️