im pissy because my neighbours are drunk and yelling and ive been on my period for 7 weeks now with no signs of it stopping any time soon. my therapist wont mail me back about an appointment and its been about 5 weeks since i saw him. my doctor wont mail me about hormone blockers or my ultrasound on my thyroid. im beginning to think ive been forgotten about by everyone because im such a hopeless case. i just want to stop worrying about thyroid cancer.
im trying to be an Adult and not ask my parents for money when i need it which wouldnt be an issue if one of them had the same mindset as me there. im never paid back what i let my mother borrow and its always large amounts like £200.
i need £200 for a new tablet because mine is on its last legs i guess. might have a few weeks left in it, but its definitely not what it used to be.
im always constantly aware i have money put away. i have the ability to dip into it, i know how much is there and how to get it, but im determined to use that for when i move out.
my parents think im an idiot who will never make it in the real world because i cant make money and when i have the ability to i dont use it. my dad doesnt believe im mentally ill and blames me for being lazy because i dont do commissions as often as i can. mum just thinks my bank account is her bank account. she has worse spending habits than me.
im so frustrated because i have the ability to move out but so much holds me back and its mostly the belief that my parents are right, or that without me mum will go homeless because she doesnt have someone to bail her out of shit.
i dont know. im stressed.
