forgivemybones

total ruin idolized

[tankhall]

new tapestry

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nobody looking at that blanket

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there’s nothing there @tankhall

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@tankhall (2022)

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this was all for you

Ethel Cain‘s Willoughby Tucker Forever Tour at Tempodom Berlin. @tankhall

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morphine

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super random but how do you ask questions on haydens blog? do you need to be mutuals? i wanted to see her opinion on something

she’s doing Q&As from time to time, whenever that happens the ask button is showing. i have her posts on notification so i usually notice when another q&a is going on and then i just ask whatever’s on my mind. but there’s definitely some luck to it too.

[mothercain]

how do you feel about people pitying you? it is very hard for me to read about the negative things that happened to you but it seems to me that you speaking freely about it is a way of acceptance? i‘m caught somewhere between parasocial boundaries and apprehension for someone i deeply care about

i'm not really looking for pity! i think it's a natural response to feel sorry for someone you're fond of when you hear of a negative experience they've had but i would never expect it. i wouldn't change anything about my life, the good nor the bad. i am who i am today because i am shaped by everything i've ever experienced. and i may not be the happiest of people, but i am content with the life i'm living, and confident in my ability to change the things i don't like about it. i just enjoy sharing the experiences i've had in my life, simple as that. it helps me to feel real.

[opheliainthewaterr]

‘i am punished by love’

ok so i had a vision of this shoot and decided to do self portraits. the lyric ‘I was an angel, but they made me leave’ really inspired me. despite being in the dark for 3 hours straight was quite relaxing. being in silence for 3 hours straight - surrounded by my thoughts and emotions. i wanted to resemble an angel statue, something vintage and beautiful. I felt an inscape sense of belonging and this process was natural.

‘Is it happening to everybody?’

this quote makes me feel safe and wanted - what happens to us when we die? the same thing that happens to everybody, we go back.

I am leaving these up for interpretation. please suggest your thoughts and feelings <3

[mothercain]

why do you not have much of a country accent? everyone i know from your region sounds like they're chewing on a rubber band (me too tho) im just curious

when i was growing up i sounded like everyone else but because we were homeschooled our whole life, my mom was a bit neurotic about us coming off as uneducated because of the way we spoke so she kind of drilled it out of us as we got older. i still have an accent when i go home but i'm very self conscious about my accent and am kind of stuck in permanent "customer service" voice with everyone who doesn't speak like me. i love my regional accent and i feel disconnected from my culture when i don't speak with it but then i'm also very embarrassed in a way to let it slip around people not from the south. it's kind of a strange push and pull to be caught in the middle of. it's definitely one of those deeply engrained things though, i always find myself speaking as "eloquently" as possible because i don't want people to think i'm unintelligent, which is something i don't love about myself. long live the north florida cracker accent.

[forgivemybones]

this makes so much sense because i just realized that i never had any problems understanding her without ever questioning it

[mothercain]

hehe

[mothercain]

what made you confirm the lyrics for punish and amber waves?

"grew up online as a fighter" traumatized me

[mothercain]

do u have ibs or do u have guts of steel. either seem equally as possible miss florida …..

my stomach is literally tore up and has been since i was like 6 lol, it has never given me a moment of peace

[mothercain]

what is your favorite type of field (wheat, corn etc)?

wheat and cornfields are beautiful but i appreciate them more from afar, whereas fields of wildgrass are more enjoyable to walk through for me. dry lakebeds are really cool too

[szczurherbacany]

moomin summer

[mothercain]

shot by zoë ghertner for miu miu fw 24

[mothercain]

no more cannibalism, let’s talk about every southern girl’s complicated relationship with her grandmother